Date: Mon, 25 Jul 2005 14:11:59 +0000 From: David A Subject: Title: The Kiss (FF Romance?) Title: The Kiss Author: David Em@il: lesbianobsession@hotmail.com If you like this story, please jot down a few words and let me know! You can also visit my personal website: http://lesbianobsession.net About the story: Originally written in three parts, over a time period of almost one year (!), I'm not the fastest writer on Earth obviously! I decided to compile all the parts together into one story. Please excuse me if my english fails, it's not my native language and I'm not that used to write in it yet. There's much much more romance in this story than sex, if you're the kind of person looking around solely for graphical explicit descriptions you won't find any here. Please read the story in its entirety, and I hope you will find it both sexy, sweet and entertaining! Enjoy! THE KISS. "All girls welcome - join us and Kiss!" Painted with pink capital letters on a big black streamer. I looked at it from where I was standing next to a black iron-fence. I estimated maybe 40-50 girls where already gathered. Mostly teenagers or a few year older girls, but also a couple of women maybe in their 30s or 40s. It was hard to tell from from this distance. Men, women, children.. observers. I was of course an observer, just curious. Nothing else. Just here to see what the fuzz was all about. I looked around and I noticed two girls hugging and kissing each other, there were several girls holding other girls hands. It made me uncomfortable because I didn't know where to look. What if they saw me and thought I was staring on them? The sun was shining and it was hot. Too hot. And then my cellphone started buzzing. -Yeah..? Hi Jenny. Where I am..? I looked around and thought to myself "I'm just out shopping". -I am at the Willow. You know, the park. I wanted to lie but I always go too nervous to actually pull it off. I am such a coward. -Yes.. what? Well.. some kind off demonstration I think, I don't know really... I was sweating like a pig. Couldn't she just change the subject? -It's a... dyke demonstration.. kind off. Yeah. They are trying to set the world record in kissing. I.. was just curious what was going on you know.. I needed something to drink. Water. -It's so damn hot, don't you think.. where are you.. yes, it's just for girls! I don't know.. yeah... you are so funny, you think I should right? Who should I kiss then.. a tree? -No, me. -Eh.. what..? I turned around. My very first thought was something like "one of the lesbian chicks nearby heard me talking, so she decided to go in and make a move". But it was just Jenny. -I was in the neighbourhood, just had to run a little to get here faster. She looked excited and gave me a big smile. Her cheeks were red and her eyes sparkled. I knew what that look meant before she opened her mouth again. -Let's go Karen, we can't stand here all day. "And she just arrived here 10 seconds ago.." She grabbed my hand but I tried to struggle against her. -No no.. I don't want to. Can't we just stand here and watch it? -Come on, don't be such a chicken. She pulled me gently towards her and I continued to act like a little envious kid. But she was strong and determined, so I ended up following her anyway. I didn't want this to turn into a scene or anything. That would be so embarassing. -Jenny.. Jenny.. I like being a chicken. It's too many people here. She stopped and looked at me with her intense blue eyes. Her blonde hair reflected some of the sunrays and almost seemed to glow out of itself. -But you're not a chicken Karen, not really. You just think you are, so you can get away from doing things you are afraid of. I blushed. She was right. -I know you want too, I can see it in your eyes. Why would you be here anyway? I shook my head and my red face was getting hotter every second. -I was here.. I mean I passed by and there was... I saw.. -Shut up silly. You can't lie. She gave me a quick kiss on my lips and took my hand again. -Besides, we have kissed each other before, right? No big deal. I opened my mouth but I couldn't think of anything to say. I actually wanted to make out with someone. And Jenny was a great kisser. She was nice and soft and smelled good. So I gave up. With a burning hot blush in my face and a dry mouth. -We would like to.. participate. A cute girl with curly brown hair looked up at us and her entire face cracked up in a big smile. She had a notebook in one of her hands and a sign with "Kissing couples please report here" in the other. -Great! We definitely need more girls.. so can I take your names? She looked at me but I was to shy to face it more than a few seconds. I stared at my feet instead. I guess she thought we were a couple. I was going to say that we're not, but that was probably not the best of ideas. But I really wanted to say "I'm not lesbian, I don't even know why I'm here..!" -Jenny Wright.. with a W, W-r-i-g-h-t. -Right, said the brunette and smiled when she discovered she said something funny. Jenny pressed my hand a little harder so I would pay attention. I felt like a retard. -Karen, I stuttered. K-karen.. Alden. -Jenny and Karen, great. Alright, no rules but try to kiss for at least one minute. You can go over there, where the other girls are standing.. She pointed out the direction with her pen, then she smiled towards us again. -You guys must be one of the cutest couples I've seen here, not that looks matters but you know.. I wanted to scream "I'm not a lesbian!" but I just swallowed and kept my mouth shut. I was beginning to feel more and more uncomfortable with this situation for every second. -Thanks, said Jenny and giggled. We get that alot.. She placed one arm around me and kissed me on the cheek. I liked the way she smelled, no argue with that. She always had much better taste about parfumes than me. -Yeah, well.. we will announce the start and then all you have to do is kiss like crazy! We walked slowly towards the growing gathering of girls. Jenny arm around my waist. Her hip next to mine. Jesus christ, what was I doing? What if any of our friends was here? And now I was on a "dyke-list". Did the brunette wrote us together, Jenny Wright with girlfriend Karen Alden..? I immediately felt stupid for thinking out dumb things like that. The notebook was just for counting, they were after all doing this to set a world record.. Neither Jenny or me will end up in anything ridiculous like a "lesbian register" or other silly stuff I was thinking about. Silly me. -Are you nervous? -Yeah.. I am. My voice was shaking. Are you? -Yes, a little actually. But that's fine, I love the thrill. And it's just for fun, right? I nodded to agree. -Sure, just for fun.. we have kissed before. On parties and one time at your place... -Yeah... Jenny smiled even more. -I almost forgot that Karen.. that time we kissed and dared each other to go on and on.. that was really cool. -It was awesome.. or you know what I mean.. it was cool... What was I talking about? I just kept moving my lips so I didn't have to think. I felt like I was standing next to myself, everything was unreal in some way. I couldn't control what was happening, it just happened and there was nothing I could do about it. Well, I could just run away from this place.. but I knew that would never happen. It was too late to turn back now. Too late for second thoughts. But why was I so damn nervous? Really? Why couldn't I be more like Jenny..? Finally we ended up near two girls that didn't even notice us. One of them was wearing armyclothes and had short hair, her girlfriend's hair was red and long, she was dressed up like a schoolgirl. It looked really weird. Apparently they didn't care about the world record or about anything else, they were just kissing kissing and kissing each other like this was their last moments together. Maybe it was. I couldn't stop staring at them. I thought to myself, not for the first time, what the hell was I doing here? A heterosexual girl (200 % straight, not even the tiniest tendencies for bisexuality.. no no and no, not here. Nope.) among a bunch of lesbians. If they found out I like boys and nothing else but boys, I would probably be dead meat. They would sink their teeths into me and eat me alive. "Karen Alder - the enemy! The biggest hypocrite of the year!" Shut up! Shut up! How could my twisted mind come up with this crap? Relax, relax Karen. You are taking this way too seriously. Jenny grabbed my waist with both her hands and moved me so I was standing in front of her. She looked into my eyes but I avoided her. I didn't know where to look, so I ended up on her stomach. What if she thought I was checking her out between her legs..! Higher.. no, not her breasts..! -Karen.. Karen. She pulled me closer to her, too close. -Look at me. I looked at her. I was easier this time. She was calm and that made me feel less hysterical. -Jenny, just one minute.. please. No more. We can go and get something to eat or whatever.. -Sure, one minute and then out of here. -When.. -Listen upp girls! A megaphone scratched and made some noise. It was the same brunette we talked to earlier. She was standing on a small platform with another girl at her side. -Thank you for coming here this hot hot summerday, we are really happy to see all of you! I hope you are up to some hugging and kissing, because today we are going to set a world record! Some girls cheered and there was a short applause. -Come on! You can do better than that! Jenny laughed and we both applauded this time. I smiled. The brunette with her curly beautiful hair seemed more pleased with our feedback this time. -Thank you very much! Thats more like it... okey, now place yourself in front of your partner.. She turned around and faced the girl standing next to her, they embraced and she gave her a kiss. -This is my girlfriend Maria by the way.. I love her and all this couldn't be possible without her! More cheering, shouting and applaudes. Jenny moved even closer to me, so close her bare stomach almost touched my bare stomach. I carefully placed my hands on the sides of her waist, but I was to afraid to touch the naked skin with the whole palms so I kept them closed. Tight. Jenny suprised me by tickling my belly with her long nails. -No.. stop... -Don't be afraid. Just put your arms around me. Like this. Her arms were suddenly around my neck and now I felt her naked skin pressing against mine. She was shorter than me, so her breasts ended up just beneath mine, but I could feel the softness and warmth of her through the top. I tried hard to visualize a cold shower or a boring baseball game on tv. -Look deep in each others eyes.. (the megaphone) I wrapped my arms around her waist and pressed my hands against her back. She was warm. No, she was hot. And I was burning up. -.. lean in a little closer.. Jenny's mouth was so close I could have reached out with my tounge to touch her lips. She kept looking at me and smiling. -.. closer... I wondered if I should close my eyes now or after I started kissing her.. I have never thought about it before. Did I kiss with my eyes closed or not... I couldn't really remember. -.. just close enough to.. I swallowed and licked my lips. -... kiss! The next second Jennys lips were pressed against mine and I pulled my head back as a pure reflex. -Come on Karen, she whispered loud enough for just me to hear it. All the other girls were already making out, and the brunette was really going for it with her girlfriend Maria. -If we are going to kiss, we have to do it for real. Close your eyes and let me.. I closed my eyes. We kissed a couple of times and soon her tounge was poking in through my lips. We started to getting into it more and more. Her soft lips so close to mine and her wet tounge in my mouth.. I started relaxing and slowly releasing the tension in my muscles. Right now and right here it felt really good. No, not just good. Great. Wonderful. I almost forgot about the other girls around us. Jenny caressed my neck with a hand light as a feather. It made me shiver and I got goosebumps on my arms. When the kiss faded out I had no idea how long we had been kissing. One second? One minute? I opened my eyes and saw that we were the only couple not busy at this moment. So the time wasn't up yet. Or was it? I didn't really care, I just wanted to do it again. -Now it's your turn to kiss me. -Okey. I didn't exactly need any persuasion this time. We just started off were we left and I was drifting further and further into a more uninhibited state of mind. The world flipped under my feet when Jenny pulled me as close to her as possible. I heard a voice in my head shouting "Stop stop now! You can still change your mind and stop what you are doing. She will think you are weird!". But the complaining voice quickly drowned in the much more appealing "Good soft wonderful gentle warm wet so nice".. I just kept going and I didn't want to stop. I wanted this kiss to last forever. And I was so completely lost in the emotional orgasm that went through every part of my body, all the way from my mouth down to my legs, feet, toes. Running in my arms, hands, my fingers. Through my face, down my neck and spine. Stomach. Nipples. Crotch. I wasn't thinking anymore, I was feeling. Jenny's lips, tounge, warm breath and her hands on my neck and in my hair was everything I could understand. Everything that mattered. When I felt her hand crawling up along my stomach to press itself in between our bodies I did let it happen. She gently squeezed one of my tits and I loved it. It was great. I wanted her to do it. Everything happened just the way things are supposed to happen. It felt so right and there were no wrongs anymore. No wrongs. Jenny broke the magic moment. She breathed heavily but didn't move away from me. Her warm body was still so close I could feel her heart beating (or was it just my own hearbeat?). I opened my eyes slowly and we looked at each other. -Oh my god.. I'm sorry Karen.. I don't know why, I didn't mean.. to.. I didn't want to let go off her body. I was afraid my own legs wasn't enought to hold me up right now. I felt a strong urge to comfort Jenny, seeing her suffer because she followed a crazy impulse was killing me.. but I didn't know what to say. A big part of me wanted to grab her and kiss her again. And maybe touch.. her breasts.. so she wouldn't feel so guilty. But everything was too much right now, my head was full of thoughts and feelings. My body was a big chaos. Fucking damn holy shit! She touched me and I liked it! Does that mean that I.. that we are... I couldn't finish the question even in my own mind. I didn't dare to. But I wanted to get away from this place. Away from all people. To a quiet place where we could sit down. Jenny grabbed my hand and led me away from the crowd. The brunette was talking in her megaphone again, but I wasn't listening. Applause. Whistling and shouting girls. But I don't think anyone noticed two blushing girls sneaking away hand in hand. ~ PART 2 ~ We walked fast, Jenny held my hand and I squeezed it desperately, at this moment she felt like the only connection I had with reality. Or maybe she was pulling me away from it.. To a new level or maybe something like, another dimension..? In this dimension I was apparently lesbian or at least bisexual and I was still turned on by the kiss we just shared. Yes, turned on! I wanted to stop and ask Jenny if we could kiss again (the sooner the better), but she kept dragging me on. -Where.. are we going? Jenny giggled. She looked at me with her amazing blue eyes, and said out loud: -Karen.. I love you! I stopped but didn't let go of her. I heard my heart beating very loud and fast in my ears. -You do? I felt like everything went over my head, I tried to understand what she just said but I couldn't. Maybe she didn't mean it like that, she loves my as a friend, but she's not IN love with me. She can't be. -Yes, I do. She walked up close to me, looked into my eyes, she wanted reactions and of course she was reading me like an open book. She knew more about what was going through my head than I did. I kept fighting against myself, did everything I could to block away thoughts about me and Jenny. "Kissing, lips, her skin, her hands, breasts, nude skin, soft flesh, sexy, warm.." -There's.. I need to sit down, I said. There's too many people. We sat down on a bench, secluded with two bushes and a small tree that gave some wonderful coolness away from the sun. We were sitting pretty close but we had no contact, I felt a strong urge to touch her, or maybe slip my hand into hers just to feel her. The desire was so strong I could have started to cry anytime. What's happening to me!? -Are you okay? -Yes.. no, I am.. I don't know! I raised my voice in the end and looked away. I wanted her to comfort me so bad, maybe put her arm around my shoulder, press her warm body against mine and kiss me. I just couldn't fight the emotional mayhem anymore, I started to cry. Warm burning tears poured from my eyes and down my cheeks, I covered my face with my hands. I felt so embarrased, so confused. -Karen.. don't cry. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.. I shouldn't have.. I could feel she wanted to hold me, but she didn't move closer to me. Was she afraid of me, did I make her feel uncomfortable? Like a big pathetic crying baby? Did she hate me know? I felt her fingernails carefully touch my arm, but this time it had the opposite effect on me; isn't the world a strange place? -Don't.. touch me Jenny. Please.. just stay away. Go. -Why.. are you angry? -No. She didn't say anything, I was staring at a house on the other side of the road. I wiped the tears away from my face and kept staring. Fucking house. -Karen.. I sighed when she laid her hand on my arm, she caressed it but I didn't look at her. -Please tell me. -What? Tell you what? -What happened? Why did you cry? -I don't know (that was true). I.. don't.. I was pathetic. -You are everything but pathetic, sweetie, I.. -Don't call me sweetie Jenny! I faced her, I had to tell her the truth. I had no idea what it was but I had to say it, if I didn't I would probably explode. -Look, Jenny, I'm not gay.. lesbian. I would be the worst girlfriend ever, I'm a neurotic fucking mess, just look at me! Stop flirting with me, stop touching me, stop looking at me like that.. I thought we were friends but no, you have a crush on me! How long have you been planning this? -What..? The anger came rushing into my stupid little head like a noisy train. -How long have you planned to do this? Seduce me? -No, I didn't plan to do anything. It just happened, Karen. -Things just don't happen.. without a reason. You planned the whole thing, the telephone call, the "I was just nearby and I ran her to meet you", you know exactly what buttons you need to push to make me do things against my will.. I was starting to make her angry, I could see it coming. If I continued along this track, I would soon hurt her and turn her love into disgust for me. I knew exactly what was going on, I had been here before, but I couldn't stop. -That's not true and you know it. -I don't know shit! I thought I knew you! -You do know me Karen. -I thought you were my friend but you apparently just want to get into my panties, fucking.. dyke. Way to go Karen, well done. -Fuck you, she was upset and I couldn't really blame her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We didn't talk or meet again for 2 days and six hours. In that time I realized how much she really meant to me, it actually didn't take more than a couple of hours after the fight, but I needed some more time for it to really sink in. I missed her. I missed her smile, her hair, her smell, her voice and giggling. I have to admit, it's not easy for me to make this kind of confession even to myself, but I did have fantasies about her. I have known her for maybe 5 or 6 years (we met on a bus and started talking about fruit, actually, it's a long story..) so that felt strange for me. It sounds so corny, but I've never thought about women in a sexual way before. It wasn't something that interested me or had anything to do with me at all, I didn't want to be involved in it and it felt better to just ignore and don't think about it. Beep-beep. The cellphone I was holding in my hand called for my attention. The display revealed "Jenny". Oh no! What should I tell her? What if she asks why I haven't called her, because that fight was my fault and I should've called her first. Maybe she doesn't want to see me ever again, and wanted to call to say goodbye first? A thought went through my head, I didn't HAVE to answer the call. Maybe I was busy. I could call her back later when I was more prepared to talk. But.. she can see right through me. Even through the fucking phone. And I was a terrible liar. -Yeah? A few short seconds of silence, then her voice. It sounded happy but nervous. -When will you learn to answer the phone like a normal person? -Hi Jenny.. -Hi Karen. I.. it's good to hear your voice. I swallowed, I knew what I wanted to tell her but I didn't knew how. -I missed you. -You did? -Yes.. and I'm so so sorry for what I said to you. I know I'm incredibly stupid sometimes and I can be a real asshole and.. -Go on. -I understand if you can't forgive me or don't want to see me again, it's just that it was too much emotions at the same time for me, first.. when we kissed and then you told me about, you know.. I didn't mean what I said, about you planning everything and.. I should probably shut up now before I make it even worse, I thought to myself. -Karen.. honey. You were right, not about everything but about some. I have been.. interested in you for, maybe 1 or 2 years now. My jaw fell down to the floor. -What? -I'm not sure about why, where or when but I'm sure about my feelings. For you. I tried to speak, but my mouth was out of order. -I thought I scared you away when you started acting strange, I didn't mean to tell it to you straight out and spontaneus like that. I was just so happy, you looked happy and I wanted to let you know so bad. I was like a bubble ready to burst, you know? She was silent for a few seconds, I held my breath. -Well.. so, I heard about this kissing demonstration, or read about it. I was curious and walked to the Willow, when I saw you standing at that fence. I called you, and started jogging to work up my breath, and then.. we met. -But.. why didn't you tell me you saw me there first? -Because.. I obviously planned to seduce you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~ Evening, the following day ~ -You look great Karen. Come in. -Thanks. I blushed heavily when she gave me a quick kiss on my cheek. This wasn't the first time I visited her house, but it felt a little strange when I entered the familiar hallway. Like the atmosphere was slightly different than before, more tense and.. -Would you like something to drink? -Yeah.. sure. She looked at me and smiled. I probably looked silly. I hope not. -What..? -What? We both laughed, but it feelt awkward. -I mean, what would you like.. to drink? -I don't know.. it doesn't matter. We walked into the kitchen and Jenny opened the fridge. -I will make you something I know you'll like.. -Oh, okay. Fine. I wished I had some place to put my hands, like pockets or something. The black dress I was wearing didn't have anything like that, of course, but I would have loved to be in a couple of jeans instead right now. Why o why did I let her talk me into this? -Sit down silly. -Yeah.. I was just.. you know. I quickly grabbed a chair and sat down. I watched her finish the drinks and bring them as she sat down on the opposite side of the kitchen table. She gave me the glass with red liquid, her drink looked almost like Sprite but it was a little darker. There was a strawberry in mine. -I made you a Jenny. -A Jenny? -Something I came up with, it's really good. I always thought it would be cool to have a drink with my own name, you know? -I know. It smelled good, and I know she was skilled. Two years ago she worked as a bartender in Spain. I took a sip. -So.. how did I taste? She couldn't hide her smile, I'm sure she had been waiting for an opportunity to ask that. -Sweet, I like it. I smiled too, couldn't help it. We sat in her kitchen and talked about this and that, but avoided everything concerning our kiss or the phone conversation we had last night. She looked amazing, her eyes - no her whole face - was shining towards me. Sometimes it felt like she dazzled me, maybe I should have brought a pair of sunglasses. Haha. I felt much more comfortable and relaxed when the glass was empty, so in a silent moment I leaned over the table and kissed her on the mouth. The last few days I have been fantasizing about the next kiss (if there would be one, of course). I usually pictured us sharing a wild passionate frenchkiss with lots of toungeplay or a slow and romantic kiss with her hands genly touching my neck, but when I finally worked up the courage I didn't dare to give her more than a quick lipkiss. I sat down and we looked at each other. Beep-beep. -Sorry, I.. -You better take it, it's probably your brother. Jenny was right, it was Dan. He told me he was coming to pick us up in 5 minutes. But when he said 5 minutes he really meant 1, or sooner. I didn't like going with him because he drived so fast, but Jenny always told me to relax and enjoy the ride. I kind of suspected she had a crush on him for a while, but now I guess I was wrong about that, right? -Can I use the bathroom? He's coming here anytime. -Sure. You want a beer? For the ride? -Yeah. Thanks. When I got out Jenny stood in the hallway and strapped on her high heel shoes. I grabbed my shoes and one of the beer bottles next to her leg. -We will get plenty to drink when we're there, don't worry. -Yeah, I'm not worried about that. I don't feel much like drinking tonight. -Good, me neither. We were going to a bachelorette party (Jenny's sisters friend was the lucky girl). My first one. Jenny asked me when we talked last night, and I couldn't turn her down, she said she only knew a couple of people there and none of them well (except her sister of course). "They are just a bunch of boring intellectuals, most of them anyway.. Come on, we'll dress up, sit alone at a table and make up jokes about people, it'll be fun. Please..?" I was hesitating, not because I didn't want to be with her, but all the other things. What to wear, no people to talk to, how to get there (I didn't have a driver license and Jenny lost hers when she had an accident last year - only minor injuries, but her car was all smashed up).. Anyway, she convinced me to come and it actually turned out to be a pretty cool party. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~ Next day ~ -Hi Karen, how are we feeling today? -Not too good. I just slept a couple of hours and I feel sick. -I know, it sucks. But it was fun, right? Last night? -Yeah, it was. It was cool. -I'm glad you were there with me Karen. I wanted to ask her if she remembered our kiss, not the one at her kitchen table but the one where we sneaked out at the backside and made out with her pressing me against the wall. I started to doubt it really happened myself, it felt almost like a very real and intense dream, but I wanted to hear her confirm it. What if she had regrets? Was she still in love with me? I had so many questions but so little courage. -Jenny? -Yes? -I called to ask.. I.. what are you doing today? Tonight? Or, you know, some day.. soon..? -Today? Tomorrow? Friday? Next year? I could hear the smile in her voice, she liked to tease but she was never mean. -I.. just wanted to ask if you wanted to do something, like go see a movie or whatever. When you can.. or want to? -Well, I have this wedding I probably should attend to. You know, Cindy is getting married today. -Oh, okay, yeah.. I forgot about that. I felt so embarrassed. How many times have I heard that the wedding is going to be today..? I completely forgot about it, it didn't even cross my mind when I dialed Jenny's number. -You want to come with me? -What? To the wedding? -Yes. -I.. I don't know Jenny, I'd love to, but I have to fix my dress.. I-I don't even know where it's.. I have to.. -Don't worry sweetheart, I was only kidding. You can't get ready for a wedding with just 2 hours notice, that's impossible. -I.. I can't stop thinking about you. I can't believe I said that! It just slipped out, before I had a chance to stop it. After a few seconds of very intense silence (could she hear my heart pound through the phone?). -I think about you.. honey all the time, my heart says yes.. I think about you.. -Deep inside I love you best, we both finished off. None of us said anything. Karen and I didn't get along very well about music but we both loved Guns N Roses and we agreed their first album was definitely the best. She just quoted the chorus from "Think about you", the song - I told this to Karen a long time ago - that made me fall in love with Axl Rose when I was young. She giggled when I told her, and revealed to me she had a similar episode with the handsome Mr Bongiovi, the lead singer in Bon Jovi. -Meet me at the Willow. Four o'clock. Okay? -Yes. I'll be there. -Sorry, I have to go, it's all chaos here.. -Is your sister there? I heard.. someone laughing. -Yep, she is here with her boyfriend. I love you honey got to go bye. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~ Almost 5 hours later ~ -Hi. -Hi Karen. So we meet here.. again. We hugged. Her hair smelled nice, she probably took a shower before she got here. -So, how was the wedding? -Boring. -Why? -You weren't there. Come, let's go and grab something to eat. We found a cosy place, pretty cheap because none of us could afford anything more luxurious at the time. We sat there, maybe 2 or 3 hours, talking about everything we've been through lately (a couple of beers helped out a lot, at least for me). When I asked her about the last kiss we shared, she said "if it didn't happen, we have been sharing the same dream..". We kissed on the lips a couple of times during the stay, just because it felt so damn good doing it and I couldn't get enough. She asked me if I was afraid, and I said yes. One thing lead to another (like things usually do), the evening went on when we walked around and talked, kissed and kissed some more - I once grabbed her breast through her shirt, I was just so curious, and she covered my hand with hers. A car drove by when we stood there, intoxicated with each other, but we barely heard their screaming and cheering. And, after all, they were decent enough to keep driving and leave us alone. I don't want to think about what could've happened if they stopped the car, but I think Jenny should be able to handle them. -My sister and her boyfriend is crashing in my apartment, but I was thinking.. -What? I whispered. I felt a hard lump in my stomach. -Can we go to your place? She doesn't know about us, and I want to be alone with you. She leaned in and kissed me. -And.. (another kiss).. I can't get enough.. (kiss).. of your sweet lips.. ~ PART 3 ~ -Wait, Karen.. Oh, I love this song! I heard music coming from an open window, it was on the second floor of the house we just walked by, and it sounded like The Beach Boys or something. Jenny laughed and pulled me into her arms. We ended up against the wall, the merry voices from above was mixed up with a feel-good-song, something that would be just right for a barbecue party at the beach. I kissed her and she responded to it by embracing me with all her warmth, her soft body seeking mine, and her bare legs against my bare legs. I felt dizzy, almost like I was just about to faint. -I love this part, it's the best, wait.. I tried to kiss her again, but she interrupted me with her index finger on my lips, like she was telling me to be quiet. -Close my eyes.. She's somehow closer now.. Jenny sang with her mellow voice, while looking straight into my eyes. -Softly smile, I know she must be kind... Her fingers ran through my hair and gave me shivers on my neck. My heart pounded like the hammer of a crazy blacksmith. -When I look in her eyes.. in Karen's beautiful eyes... please kiss me baby.. When the chorus started again (And Jenny was certainly giving me those good vibrations), I joined my lips with hers and we kept on going until the song faded out and drowned in the loud voices and laughing above us. And there we were, outside my apartment door. My shaky hands went furiously through my purse, I couldn't find the keys! -I know I had them here.. where the hell are these damn... no. No no. -What? -I think I know where they are Jenny. I looked at her and pointed at the door. -Where..? No! You left them in your apartment! -Yes! I'm afraid so. -Shut up, don't say you left them in your freakin apartment Karen! She was like a giggling bubble, ready to burst any second. But it seemed like she could restrain herself from laughing, for now. Apparently I forgot to bring the keys when I went out, the door locked itself unfortunately, and the only thing that could open it was laying somewhere on the other side. Unreachable. Jenny made a snorting sound, she obviously tried to prevent a laughter from breaking out and she failed miserably. -God, I'm so sorry Karen, she said when the attack calmed down. I gave her a soft punch on her upper arm, not that I was mad at her for laughing. Then I opened my arms and we hugged each other. Tight. I buried my face in her hair. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ -Hey kids, are you the absent-minded girl who woke me up from my beautysleep? I shook his hand, but even if his greeting was a bit straight forward, he smiled towards us. The janitor looked like a nice friendly guy, not grumpy like the voice that answered when I called the number the landlord gave me for this type of "emergencies". -I'm really sorry about this.. -No, don't worry, I'm on the phone duty so it's nothing but my job. It can happen to the best of human beings. Don't think about it. -Thanks anyway. -Yeah, thanks alot, Jenny mumbled. She looked very tired, and she rested her head on my shoulder. When we waited for the guy with the keys to arrive, I sat on the stairs with her head in my lap, and while I stroked her hair gently I think I made her fall asleep. I felt pretty tired myself. The janitor locked up the door, said goodbye and left us with a "goodbye ladies". I turned on the light and we took of our shoes, I had to help Jenny with her left one. -Are you sleepy? I smiled. -Mhmm, she said. I'm sorry... -Sorry for what? -We can.. do something if you want to. Like play cards. Or have a tequila. I just need a cold shower.. or you know. -No, Jenny, we are both going to bed. -Sounds like a.. great way to end the evening. Jenny was clumsy, but she managed to get out of her clothes without any help. When she unstrapped her bra I looked away, I felt very shy but wanted nothing else than to look at her. I had seen her topless before, but felt like I had missed something those other times. -You don't have to turn away, she said and I heard the smile in her voice. It's just I don't like sleeping with it on me. Are you coming? -There's plenty of room here, it's fine. I meant the sofa, but actually it was too short for me. I hated sleeping in it, and the white fluffy bed was very tempting. -Don't be silly, come sleep with me. I mean, it's your bed and all. -I can sleep here, the bed is too small for both of us. I blushed heavily. Jenny looked at me, she didn't say anything for a few seconds and it looked like she was thinking about something. Apparently she decided fast, because she pulled her black panties down her legs and stepped out of them. I stared at them, lying there on my floor, and then I raised my eyes higher up. Her crotch was skin coloured, no hair. She then walked up to me, gave me a kiss on my cheek and let one of her naked breasts quickly brush against my arm. It was almost too much for me, too much of everything. -If you change your mind, don't be afraid to wake me up. I won't bite you. I tried to swallow, but couldn't. I just watched her walk back and get into my bed, crawl under my blanket and rest her head on my pillow. Wearing nothing.. at all. I just stood there for a couple of minutes and looked at her face while she drifted away to a rendezvous with the sandman. Her breathing became heavier fast and she started snoring silently. I walked up to the window and looked out. The city was alive, cars were driving by, people were shouting and I heard some music I couldn't identify from far away. It all felt very distant. I was with my Jenny, I had her here in my apartment. She was sleeping like a baby in my bed, and I couldn't, I just couldn't wake her up again. I was in love with her, there was no denial of it anymore. I was so happy it was her, my best friend. The most kind and generous person I have ever known. I fetched a thin blanket from the closet and laid myself to sleep on the couch. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Morning came. I felt hungry and when I stood up from the couch my head was spinning. I felt sick but, thank God, no headache. Jenny was still sleeping in my bed, I walked over to it and caressed her forehead with a feather light touch, just to make sure she really was there and I wasn't dreaming. -Karen.. Jenny turned her head and giggled, still with her eyes closed. She was dreaming! Or was she just playing with me? I stepped back and looked at her. It looked like she was still asleep. Why did she say my name..? Was she dreaming about me? What.. was she dreaming? -Mmmmm.... I kept staring at her. Was she moving under the blanket? That was enough, I just couldn't stay and watch her go on, even though I really really wanted to. What I needed was to drink some water, pee and then have a long hot shower. But my legs wouldn't move. It felt very strange, it seemed like I had lost my control over them. What was happening to me? -It feels so good.. Jenny was definitely moving. Her whole body was in motion under my fluffy white blanket. Then suddenly she opened her eyes, my heart skipped a beat, but I still couldn't move. Jenny brought up something from under the blanket, it was a red dildo. It looked moist, like she just had been using it. Where the hell did she get that from? She reached it towards me, and I looked at it. I can't touch that! -Fuck me Karen. Fuck me. Drifting back.. I woke up, my forehead was sweaty and the blanket was a mess, tangled between my legs. Jenny sat next to me, dressed and judging from her hair and the smell, she took a shower not too long ago. She placed one of her hands on my forehead and smiled to me, like she was the morning rays of the sun. -You were dreaming sweetie.. I stared at her. The big red dildo was still visible in my mind. -I was? -Yeah, did you have a nightmare or what..? You looked scared. -I.. it was just so strange.. I don't remember. -You're fine now, you're awake and I'm here with you baby. Jenny's voice was so comforting, I felt better just listening to it. And I wasn't lying about not remembering the dream, because it was almost gone now. All it left behind was a feeling I couldn't shake off. -I'll make you some breakfast, Karen. What do you want? -Anything. I'm hungry. -Anything it is then. She stood up and started to walk to the kitchen, but I stopped her. -Wait. -What? -Kiss me. Her face cracked up in a big smile, it was a wonderful sight to witness. -You don't have to ask me twice about that.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ During the following weeks, our relationship progressed as we spent more and more time together. She practically lived in my apartment, because her sister needed a place to stay for a while longer, and Jenny didn't want her to know about us. We started sleeping together in my bed after a few uncomfortable nights on the couch, and one late evening when we laid there and snuggled, Jenny told me why she was so afraid to let her big sister know she was in love with a girl. Allie, or Alison, was a big homophobe and there seemed to be other unsettled issues between them, things that reached longer back in time. Jenny said she would tell her eventually, but not yet. I asked if anyone knew she was a lesbian, and it made her giggle. She asked the same question back to me. I couldn't answer, not that anyone knew about me lying here with Jenny, but the word scared me. Am I a lesbian now? How long will this last? Am I dreaming, because this feels so unreal, and when will I wake up? We kissed. Often. On the couch watching a movie, in the kitchen, a few times lying in bed (one time we even wore underwear while making out, and she laid on top of me) and in the bathroom - this morning we tried to kiss while having the toothpaste still in our mouths and it just made us both giggle and drool it all over each other. She even took a picture of me with her digital cam when I tried to wipe it of me, so I had to chase her around the apartment screaming "erase it", but she refused and finally, after a violent tickle fight, she won. We kissed on the bus, in the rain outside McDonalds, her tounge was twirling all around mine when we stood close, so close, to eachother in the Willow Park. We even found the same spot where we kissed the first time, the first time that mattered. It brought back memories of hot sunlight, cheering girls and colorful outfits. When we hugged and danced a slow dance together, I thought "what if Jenny never had come here to convince me I should kiss her?". Then I remembered her other words.. "I have been.. interested in you for, maybe 1 or 2 years now.." "I obviously planned to seduce you.." "Karen? I love you!" -Jenny? -Mmm. -I love you. So much. -I love you too Karen. I love you too. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ After two months since the night Jenny - without a single thread on her body - invited me to bed, we still haven't had sex. I could tell Jenny wanted it, badly, and in a way I wanted it as much as her. But there was still that other part of me, the restrained and hibited coward that wouldn't let me go. How I hated that bitch. Because of her, maybe Jenny wouldn't want me anymore. Who wants a girlfriend that doesn't want to be touched, or touch you back? We never talked about it, except when we exchanged thoughts through eye to eye telepathy. She made moves, small and subtle but still moves, and I wouldn't let her carry on with them. The furthest we have went this far, was when we laid in bed one night, endlessly kissing like we usually do before we go to sleep. But this specific time it was more intense than other times, Jenny was getting really into it and that affected me as well. When she started to unstrap my bra I didn't stop her, I just went along with flow we had. It felt so right. Soon my breasts were out in the open, naked and squeezed up against the soft fabric and the warmth of her bust. Her hands were all over me, but they had a goal, we both knew it. It was bound to happen. My breasts seeked the attention of her moist palms, we were both sweating like crazy and the blanket was lying somewhere on the floor by now. Her hands on my tits. I helped her get them in between our bodies, I encouraged her to touch them. She rubbed, squeezed, pressed, kneaded, pinched... It turned me on like nothing else had done before, but I didn't let her move on. When one of her hands suddenly slipped in between my legs and I felt her hand rub me through my panties - I don't know if even Jenny knew she was doing it - I pulled back. -Sorry sorry, I heard her call while I ran of into the bathroom and locked the door. I stayed there for almost an hour, at first I masturbated and when I came I was crying at the same time. When I worked up the guts to walk out, with a read swollen face and still wearing nothing but my small sized white panties, Jenny wasn't there. I slept alone for the first night in a long time. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ My phone buzzed the next day, the display told me it was Jenny. -Where are you? She didn't answer for a few seconds and a horrible suspicion took a grip on me. No, please god no, here it comes, I thought. She will say something like "we need to talk" and then break up with me. Maybe spice it up with "I slept with another girl tonight, if you don't want me I'll find someone else that will".. -I'm home. My sister leaved today. -I.. I'm so sorry about last night. -You're sorry? You just stole my line Karen. I was just about to say the exact same words. -You were? I couldn't help but smile. -Yes! Of course. I went to far and I'm so sorry I did. But I'm even more sorry I left you alone like that. I regret it so much. -For a moment I almost thought you called to break up with me.., I tried hard to hold back the tears but it was hopeless. -No, I wouldn't do that..! Why are you saying something like that.. my sweet sweet girl. Are you crying? -Yes! I guess, I mean yes I am. Crying. -What the hell am I doing here. I'm coming over Karen... don't go anywhere! I heard a thumb, then a loud crash followed by Jenny screaming "fuck". -What happened? -Shit, I just destroyed my hall mirror. Fuck it. I'm coming. -Just don't... step in the glass, I added when she had already hung up the phone. Ten minutes later she banged on my door, I opened and catched her in my arms. We both cried for a moment, then we just stood there enjoying the warm embrace. -Don't let me go, I mumbled into her hair. -I won't. I won't. That day we talked about everything, and I mean litterally everything. When the dusk filled the rooms with a gloomy darkness we ended up in the couch, leaning towards each other in silence. I listened to her breath and our entwined hands chained us together, us against the world. Right before I fell asleep next to her I had a moment of clarity. I knew it was meant to be us. We belonged together and I wanted to spend the rest of my life together with this tender and wonderful girl. I felt a strong anticipation of what was to come, I realized we had so much time left to explore each other but I also knew.. more now than ever before in my life.. Time is such a sad thing to waste. THE END. REALLY.