Date: Fri, 17 Aug 2012 00:35:16 -0700 From: naomiknowsit Subject: Naomi's Story--Part 4-Final Part 4 final Masturbation. It's funny that I am trying to talk to girls about how sex feelings can be at least in one case and not mention it. Simply, it hardly entered my mind. I think in some way the simmering I keep talking about was precious and part of me and going after some completion, by myself no less, wasn't what I wanted even though what I wanted was not at all well defined really. My stealing Irene's panty and learning the deeper feelings I had when I smelled them and tasted them was a kind of masturbation for me, that's the best I can say. I know for many girls, maybe most, who have early sexual feelings that they just persist well into the teen years and maybe longer, with normal masturbation helping, so my story I know isn't everyone's or even typical. But...well...I still hope some of it helps some girls if they are given access to it. The woman I was seeking, the opening up I was seeking even thought again I wasn't so sure what it might really mean, came through someone not in my usual sights so to speak. It's funny how I felt alone and unable to be understood because I was 9 or 10 and others would look past me, so it seems I was looking past others. I attended a private school for girls ages 8-12. They had az silly school uniform of white blouse and full pleated plaid skirt and actually would not permit older girls even to wear jeans underneath so that we were always aware of our skirts which come for most to just above our knees. Not to brag...well, maybe a little...I was good at math and was put into an Algebra class which mainly had of course older girls. They were a feast for me as I simmered and looked and imagined one of them looking my way. But, I did not think of it being Carol. I am ashamed too because she was pretty but not in the sexual way so to speak. She had the most beaming smile and was the friendliest to me. And she was...well, the others called her "fat." She was overweight and had not lost her baby fat but I never could see her as being fat. But, well, again, I didn't see her as I saw the "sexier" girls. It turned out that she had eyed me always. She didn't reveal it and since I wasn't looking her way I didn't see it but she told me later that she had always liked me, I mean, liked me. She went to the teacher and asked could the teacher assign someone in class to help her with the Algebra and she requested me she told the teacher because she figured if I was so young and in Algebra I knew my stuff. So the teacher asked me and I said yes, quite complimented, even though from Carol's board work in class she didn't seem at all in need of help. We first had lunch together in the cafeteria and arranged things and we agreed to head to her house after school when it fit our schedules. Her house was nice, open. She always offered me food or cookies or milk or soda. Usually I declined but sometimes we nibbled in the kitchen, beginning our Algebra work there but always ending in Carol's room at her school desk. She had posters only of girl rockers or actresses and the room was always neat, the bed made. I noted the absence of male posters. "So how come only girls on the walls?" I asked one day. "Can I be honest?" she asked and I nodded. "I like girls, Naomi. Not so much I don't like boys but...well, I feel for other girls." "I....I like girls too," I said, happy to be open with someone. "I can't talk to my mom about it...you know." Carol nodded. "I felt my feelings when I was 7 and they have never let up." This was even more of an eye opener and I could feel my face brighten. "For me I was 10," I said. "An old lady then," Carol said and we shared a nice laugh. "You're helping me with Algebra so maybe if you want to talk about your feelings I can help you that way. It's very lonely to have feelings young" I nodded vigorously. "It's in me all the time. I call it my embers or simmering and it's always there, part of me," I said. Carol nodded. "I...I kind of...well...felt that in you," she said. "I knew your Algebra was all right," I said and we laughed again. "I've always been plainer than most other girls and fat and that keeps girls as well as boys away even if girls who like girls aren't supposed to be concerned so much about looks," Carol said. "This isn't just to say it but I think you're pretty...you have something inside that comes out too and to me you're not fat. And for me being only 10 keeps others away." Carol smiled. "Not me." I could feel my blush. "Have you...kissed a girl?" I told her about Marisa. We were in her room sitting in chairs by her work desk. She took a chance and turned to me and very, so softly put her lips to mine so very much like Marisa, bringing memories back and new feelings as immediately my ambers were lit. We sat there uncomfortably and kissed with our lips for some time, our head tilting, our lips tasting, partly open, but so gently and without insisting on anything. And when finally we had to come up for air I could see the flush in her face and she looked at me with thankful eyes. I'm not sure what my face showed but I knew how powerful that soft kissing was inside of me. "Are you ready fo more than kissing. Naomi?" Carol asked softly. Carol became the first person I ever trusted with my Irene story and she did not blink but nodded even. "You've discovered your feelings lie deep, she said. "You've trusted me so I trust you...I have thoughts about girls with freckles, girls who look like you...although I never expected one so sweet and open and ahead," Carol said. "I want you to be open." I said. Carol got up and went to her bed and pulled down the cover and beckoned me. I came to her without any hesitancy and sat on the edge of the bed next to her. "I...I would like...if you...if you are okay with it...to...to see your freckles places where...I always wonder if they are," Carol said, an embarrassed blush in her face. "You could tell me where they are,"I said with a smile and she smiled widely and hugged me and we kissed again just as softly and Marisa-like as a few moments ago. "Have you been naked with another girl, even sleep over?" she asked. "No. It's part of my embers though," I said and watched as Carol unbuttoned my blouse and pulled it open. I knew I was flat, formless, but Carol's eyes did not reflect anything but a soft fondness. "You have wonderful freckles...and beauty marks," she said, her eyes moving over my naked flat chest. Indeed I had never ever been naked with another girl, certainly not intimately. I felt more wonderful than I imagined it might feel and Carol's eyes made me feel beautiful and loved and wanted. Carol very carefully removed my school blouse and, guiding me, lay me on her bed stomach down and began to follow the paths of freckles over my back with fingers so feathery I barely felt them yet so going into my feelings that it was all I could feel. I heard a soft sound as I took in a breath. "Yes," said, to be sure Carol would not stop and she didn't. I could feel her eyes and the changing path of her fingers as they found different paths of freckles. "Do you feel it in your panty?" she asked with a whisper. "Everywhere...yes," I said. She lifted my arms and peered into my arm pits and told me of the freckles there that now were soaked by my sexual sweating. And then...oh God I can never forget...she moved her mouth unto one armpit and tongued my sweat and I could feel also she took it into her mouth. She did not have to ask if it was all right because my murmur and movement told her. The embers were lit high now, beyond simmering. Carol did not remove my school skirt. For reasons of her own internal simmering she lifted me and urged the skirt up to my hips and had me stay on my knees. She was gentle but firm guiding me and had me bring my knees together and I knew way as for the first time I felt my panty slide down my thighs in the presence of another girl or woman and in the middle of the highest I had ever known for my simmering feelings. "Your freckles are sweet, so sweet," she said after guiding my feet apart again and as her fingers still so gentle ran over my small firm rear cheeks, obviously tracing paths again. Then,,,God how it's still in me so powerfully...she parted my rear cheeks and brought her face right up to my opened rear. I could tell because I could feel her breath and her words as she told me of the continuing path of freckles where she looked. I was not shocked when I sensed Carol breathing in deeply at my open rear, smelling with abandon my rear smells. I was not shocked because it was only a step more intimate than my smelling of Irene's worn panty., Then...God...I felt her fingers slide deeply into my rear opening and touch my anus and then her mouth move into me there and her tongue lick out and taste. It needn't be said that Carol was sexually excited by what she was doing. But it needs to be said how excited I was. Dreams, thoughts, embers all were now swept up into my ass open and being looked at so completely, being felt so fully with fingers now slipping into my ass hole, being not just smelled but tasted by a searching tongue. My face was buried into the pillows at the head of the bed. My ass was up and I was on my knees, my feet now well apart and eager to spread more for Carol's wonderful attention. My body was in the throes of such powerful desires and wants and pleasures and urgent needs that dwarfed my mental ideas. And to a great extent it was because it was Carol who was older kind and open and giving and wonderful and who, she would tell me later, was in her own heaven. She again carefully guided me onto my back and brought my legs together to completely guide my panty to hang off one ankle. She then urged my knees well back and my feet well apart and with my school skirt bunched well up onto my waist I was fully exposed. I had what I learned was an unusually protruding vulva and I looked into Carol's face as her eyes took me in. She softly told me how wonderfully womanly my vulva was, how sweetly thick and symmetrical my vulva lips, how the thick slit separating those vulva lips was like a geometric line drawn on me with a marker. I kept saying "vulva" because Carol did, and it was wonderful and so much wiser than "pussy" or anything else. I was mewling now, my head rolling side to side, my hands flailing, reaching to I don't know what. I was in the midst of sexual activity that more than matched my embers and simmering and with a girl I liked and I was beyond myself with the urges striking out through me. For a long time Carol's eyes let themselves be soaked with the open view of my girlhood while her fingers found it seemed every path of freckles along my formless thighs, over my lower belly which quivered with her tough, lower, and, oh yes, oh yes along my virgin vulva lips and along my moistened slit. I had no idea of Carol's careful progression as she caressed me. She followed the path of freckles but more so the path of my urgent growing sexual need. She would move along my thighs and into the soft spot high up and then suddenly be low on my belly and then gliding along my vulva lips or my slit and with each time more and more letting her fingers slide more deeply between those lips, rubbing against my distended clitoris out of its shield. When I came it was unexpected because I had no idea about it really. I remember I lifted myself from the bed and grasped at Carol's hair and opened my eyes with shock and surprise and maybe a bit of fear. My first orgasm was like someone stabbing me in my girlhood, shooting up from my vagina and through my body, into my non-existent breasts, into my small aureoles, into my armpits. And then, with Carol's expert and careful guidance, my second seeming unable to wait and even more powerful, brining a scream from me. Carol came onto the bed and held me close as my body spasmed with smaller orgasms and the sweet feeling of being in Carol's arms. At the time I was selfish and didn't think of brining similar pleasure to Carol but she told me later that it wasn't what she was after and that indeed bringing me to such heights was enough for her. End Part 4