Date: Thu, 23 Jan 2020 17:52:34 +1030 From: Zenna Swallows Subject: The Captives (Bisexual/TG Authoritarian) THE CAPTIVES by Zenna *The following extracts are from transcripts circulated to an internet group, apparently for their entertainment, and retrieved by a police informant. Investigations into their origin and content are ongoing ...* Day 7 LENA: I hope this thing is working, but let's see how we go. So, it's - um, not sure, must be Thursday, I guess? That would make it ... yeah, 18 July. Somewhere around there anyway. The car crash was a couple of days ago, I think. My memory seems to be playing a few tricks right now. We were just going past this large mansion house, no idea where exactly, the satnav had been going haywire for a good couple of hours. Anyway the car suddenly swerved, not sure why. Tom, that's my boyfriend, he was driving ... Well, that's all I remember until I woke up today. Apparently, someone in the house heard the crash and had me brought inside. Luckily for us the owners - I think they said their names were Miles and Selina? - are doctors, and they have a small clinic here so they could treat us. I only have a few cuts and bruises, but they said I had bad concussion and needed to rest. When I asked about Tom, they told me he'd been hurt too, but I should be able to see him soon. I really need more sleep, but I thought I'd make a start on this. Miles gave me this recorder and told me that keeping an audio journal might help with the concussion. So that's what I'm doing! I would have used my phone, but apparently that was badly damaged in the crash. Day 8 LENA: Still feeling very woozy today. I had a long sleep this afternoon, with a dream that was incredibly vivid. Don't know if I should say ... but, well, it was Tom, um, making love to me. I was so wet when I woke up ... Anyway, Miles and Celine - that's her name, not Selina - suggested I take my time before getting up. I also met Rose, their daughter. She brought me dinner in my room, rather than one of the maids - they seem to have a lot of servants in this house! Rose is a lovely girl, she's really easy to talk to, even though she's a fair bit younger than me. Day 10 TOM: I'm starting this journal because Celine - the doctor who's treating me - thought it would be a good idea to help my recovery. I still can't remember anything about the crash and I'm feeling really lightheaded and weak. Lena - that's my girlfriend, she was with me in the car ... Did I mention it was a car crash? Anyway, I was on a trip with Lena, we got lost and then ... nothing, until I woke up in this great big house. Lena's still recovering, apparently, I might be able to see her tomorrow. Celine and her husband - can't remember his name - let me join them for dinner, along with their kids, a boy and a girl. The girl is extraordinarily pretty, and her brother - older, I think? - is also very good looking. They were great company, but I was so tired, I almost fell asleep at the dinner table! Celine helped me to my room and I have a vague recollection of struggling to find any pyjamas, but eventually putting on some kind of nightshirt and then crashing. That was last night, but I'm still feeling sleepy this morning. And I'm wearing pyjamas after all. Maybe it's a side effect of the drugs Celine is giving me to help with the recovery. Day 11 TOM: A real bombshell today. Celine said that Lena had been up and about for a couple of days, but she hadn't wanted to tell me, because of how strangely she'd been behaving. Apparently she'd been showing a - how did Celine put it? Oh yeah, an "unnatural interest" in her son Angus. She and her husband were so concerned that they hid a camera in Lena's room. Celine apologised profusely, but said she had to show me the recording - or at least bits of it. It showed Angus climbing into bed with Lena and then the two of them ... fucking. There was no mistaking it, I even saw and heard Lena coming, she made - well, the sound she usually makes. I don't know if the son, you know ... but they didn't show me that. And it gets worse. When Miles, Celine's husband that is, confronted Lena, he said she came up with some excuse about needing to go to the bathroom, and then disappeared! They can't find her anywhere - and there's some valuable jewellery that's also gone missing. Seriously, I don't know what to think ... Day 12 LENA: I think this must be the worst day of my life. I was hauled out of bed by Celine, who was absolutely furious. She wanted to show me a recording from a camera she'd hidden in Rose's room. It showed ... I'm not sure I can say this, but I think have to try. It showed Tom coming into the room, then ... going through the drawers and looking at all Rose's underwear. He eventually chose a frilly nightie, put it on and got into her bed. And the worst thing ... (sob) he had a hard-on the whole time! You could clearly see it! Apparently this happened yesterday afternoon, while the family was out and I was sleeping. Rose had got suspicious about someone going through her clothes, which explains the camera. But she and her mother thought it must be one of the maids! They went to confront Tom, but he must have got wind that something was up, because he's gone missing - and so too has a whole bunch of expensive jewellery. Oh Tom, what have you done? Day 13 LENA: I've felt well enough today to be up and about - physically, that is. But it's been easier to stay in my room. Things would have been much worse if I hadn't had Rose coming in to see me. She's been so friendly and supportive. I thought she might be mad at me because of what Tom had done, but she's made it very clear that it's his fault, not mine. Day 13 TOM: Feeling very tired and weak again today. Maybe that's because I'm still stunned by what I was told about Lena. Why she'd want to fuck a 14-year old boy and steal stuff from the people helping her is completely beyond me. I obviously didn't know her as well as I thought I did! Miles and Celine came to see me to discuss the situation, though to be honest it ended up being more of an argument between them about what to do. Miles was all for going straight to the police and throwing me out, injuries or not. Celine pleaded with him to be lenient, and he eventually agreed that if I was willing to stay on for the summer and work off the cost of the missing jewellery, he wouldn't pursue Lena. That seemed fair to me, especially as I would get free meals and accommodation. Miles wanted me to work in the garden, which I'd have been happy to do, but Celine insisted that since my condition was still a bit "fragile", it would be better if I did something less strenuous. She said she could always do with help in the clinic, so that's where I'll be working, once I get better. She really is so caring, especially the way she's always reminding me about taking my tablets. And she's promised to get in touch with my family to let them know what's happening. I can't call them because my phone has gone missing and anyway there's no signal here. I don't know what I'd do without her just now. DAY 14 LENA: Celine is insisting that I have to stay around for the summer and work off the cost of the jewellery that Tom has stolen. Unfortunately, I think that's fair - and it's definitely better than she and Miles going to the police! Rose though said she thought that was mean. If it had been up to her, I should be free to go - though she's also really happy I'm staying! She's such a sweetie. She's persuaded me to wear my hair down and dye it a kind of chestnut colour, because that's her favourite. What with that and no longer needing glasses - my eyes were a bit sore after the crash, but then seemed to improve dramatically from what they used to be - I can hardly recognise myself when I look in the mirror! My family will be so surprised when they next see me! Just a pity I can't contact them from here, though Celine has written to them and she promised to pass on any reply. DAY 19 LENA: My first day working - as one of the maids. They've got me wearing the uniform - all black satin and white lace. I feel like I'm at a fancy dress ball! But they're deadly serious about following orders, all the staff. The housekeeper - she's the one who supervises all the maids - gave me this kind of book with all the rules I'm supposed to follow - where to go and not to go in the house, how to speak to the family, on and on. And dire warnings about what will happen if I don't behave correctly ... DAY 20 LENA: A horrid surprise today. I forgot to curtsy when Miles - I mean Sir, that's what we're supposed to call him - was walking past. So he bent me over his knee and gave me a spanking! On my bare bottom - I had to pull my knickers down and everything, it was humiliating! And very painful. And then, because I cried, he spanked me some more. Fortunately, Rose heard what was happening, and came up with some pretext for me to stay with her in her bedroom, so I didn't get in more trouble. She even rubbed some lotion onto my poor sore bottom, to ease the pain. It was really good of her. DAY 35 LENA: I've been working now for ... not sure, maybe a week? It's hard to tell, because the days seem to blur together. I don't get any days off, although to be honest I'm not sure there's much to do around this place anyway. For the few hours I'm not on duty, I usually just sit in my room watching the tv - although the funny thing is, I can never seem to remember what was on. I always seem to fall asleep in front of it. Maybe the tiredness is something to do with the medication Sir still has me taking, for the after effects of the crash. The only real fun I have is when I get to spend time with Rose, which is not as often as I'd like it to be. At least I can usually find time to do these recordings. Not sure why, it just seems like a really good idea to keep the journal up. And in a house with so little privacy, it's nice to have somewhere I can record my thoughts and feelings without anyone else getting to know them - even Rose. DAY 37 TOM: I struggled to wake up today, and when I did it was really hard to walk and talk. It felt like I'd been asleep for ages! Celine told me that there'd been some complications after the crash and they needed to do some emergency procedures, so they had to knock me out for a couple of days. But I should start to feel better from now on. I asked when I would start working for her, and she said soon, provided I follow the exercise regime she's given me and build my strength back up. DAY 38 TOM: I was allowed out of bed today, which was great. I'm finding it hard to walk - my balance in particular seems to be off. And there's something odd about my voice, probably because of some sort of injury to my throat. My face is also very stiff and sore. Celine's warned me that when the bandages come off I may look a little different to what I remember, though I can't say I'm fussed about that. I was never a fan of my old face anyway! DAY 43 LENA: A new low for me today . Sir drank a fair bit at dinner, and when I took him a brandy in the library afterwards, he said there was something else he needed. He made me kneel down in front of him, then asked me to give him "a good sucking". I didn't want to at first, but he said that if I didn't, he'd line up all the gardeners and get them to fuck me one by one. I've only ever tried it a couple of times before, with ... my boyfriend, ex-boyfriend I should say. But I didn't want to get punished, so I did what I was told. I don't think I was very good, because it took ages to make him come, and when he did he sprayed it all over me. I had to clean it all up and swallow it. It tasted absolutely vile, which I don't remember from last time. I would have complained about all this to Madam - but she was sitting in a chair watching us, and actually encouraging her husband! Oh, and criticising my technique too ... DAY 47 LENA: I had to give Sir another blowjob today, that's the third this week. I've still got the taste of his cum in my mouth, it's absolutely disgusting. I've tried to talk to some of the other maids about the way we're treated, but none of them are keen - it's against the rules, and they're worried about punishment. Not that it takes too much to get punished in this household! I'm beginning to realise that each of us maids are just playthings for Sir - and his son as well, or Young Master as we're meant to call him. I'm not sure if he's as bad as his father, but it sometimes seems like he's following me round the house. He hasn't touched me yet, but I've noticed that he has this nasty habit of finding ways to look up my skirt. And he's absolutely vicious with some of the other maids, gives them whippings, not just spankings, for no reason at all. I really hope I don't get left alone with him anywhere ... DAY 47 TOM: Some of the bandages came off my body today, although Celine tells me that during the day at least I'll have to keep wearing this kind of strapping around my midriff. Apparently I suffered some organ damage, and it's necessary to keep plenty of compression on them. The strapping makes it quite hard to breathe, but I'm sure it will help me make a long-term recovery. I also have some major swelling on my chest, but I gather that's a side effect of some of the medication. I told Celine the lumps there looked just like breasts and she laughed and agreed they did a bit. She said if I'm embarrassed by them, I can strap them down. But given the other strapping I'm already wearing, I said I preferred to leave the lumps as they were. DAY 52 LENA: Exactly what I'd been dreading happened today - I was taking supper up to Ang- ... to Young Master in his room and he said he wasn't hungry for food, but something else. I figured I'd have to suck him off, just like his father, but he had other ideas. He made me take my clothes off, then he tied me to the end of the bed, with my bottom sticking out. And then he ... f-fucked me. Only not where he should have, but in ... (sob) in the other place. He said he'd already tried my cunt, he wanted to see if my ... my ass was any better. I have no idea what he meant by that, but all I know is that it hurt, it hurt so bad and he was so rough! (sniff) He left me there all night, then he got up in the morning and he did it again! It didn't hurt so much this time, but it was still horrible. He finally let me go after breakfast, and I had to walk back to my room with his cum just dripping out of me, cos he wouldn't let me clean myself up. The housekeeper saw me and I wanted to say something, but she took one look at me and told me off for making such a mess! She said I was lucky she didn't ask Sir or Madam to give me a good spanking. I mean, she must have known what had happened to me! DAY 58 TOM: I'm feeling better and better every day now. The diet and exercise regime that Celine has me on has done wonders. My weight has dropped and I'm much trimmer now than I used to be, especially around my waist. The only exception is that my butt seems twice as big as it was, but apparently that's where a lot of fat can get stored when you lose it elsewhere. My balance has also improved dramatically, especially from this exercise where I have to walk around on my tiptoes - it's been brilliant for my calves in particular. DAY 58 LENA: I don't know how much more of this I can take. Angus - I will not call him Young Master! - seems to think he can make me do anything. Last night he had one of the gardeners join us, and made the poor man fuck me while Angus was fucking him! It was utterly perverted. Angus kept on saying that the gardener's ass was much nicer than mine, although I was prettier. Which dd not make me feel better in the slightest. At least I didn't have to sleep with the two of them, although before I left I did have to give the gardener a blowjob for this trouble, and as usual it tasted disgusting. It's got to the point where if I even think about a man, I feel like throwing up. If only I could leave, but ... well, that's not allowed. Otherwise I would, obviously. DAY 62 TOM: The bandages finally came off my face today. I certainly look a lot different, though to be honest I'm finding it a little hard to remember exactly what I looked like before the accident. Part of the change is that my hair's grown out, although I wouldn't have expected quite so much growth in, what has it been, maybe four weeks? I think it's also a lot lighter than it used to be, which is maybe a side effect of the shampoo I borrowed from Celine. DAY 62 LENA: Wow - did that really just happen??? It was ... intense. And unexpected. And ... wonderful? I don't know if I should talk about it, but ... well, this is my private diary, nobody's ever going to hear it, and it seems kind of important to record everything that's happened to me, both good and bad. This one's a bit of both, I guess! Anyway, what happened was that Rose found me crying after her evil brother had his way with me - again. She took me back to her room and I did my very best to stay quiet about everything, I really did, cos I know I'm supposed to, but she basically ordered me to tell her what happened. So eventually I broke down and ... well, she was horrified. And she also realised I was badly bruised, you know, inside, both insides if you know what I mean, which nobody else had noticed, or bothered to notice I guess. Anyway, she went and got this lotion from Madam, she said it was for one of the maids but didn't say who, thank goodness, and Madam didn't ask why it was even needed. Which is typical in this horrible house. Anyway, Rose made me take off my panties and insisted on applying the lotion herself. She said there was a trick to it, which her mother had explained. I would normally have never let a young girl touch me ... well, there. Or any girl. But I was so sore and unhappy that all I could feel was gratitude that someone was trying to look after me. And then I felt relief, because the lotion was wonderfully cool and soothing and really did help with the bruising. But then I started to feel ... something else. And it kind of crept up on me, as she was rubbing in the lotion. And by the time I realised what I was feeling, it was too late, and I told her to rub harder, and she did, and then ... I came. I came so hard! And Rose was completely amazed. After she stopped being worried, that is, cos I was screaming so loud she thought at first she must have injured me somehow. But when I explained what it was, she just giggled and said "Oh, that!" So she clearly knows what "that" is. Anyway, she said she was glad she'd made me feel so good, after the terrible day I'd had, and perhaps we could talk more about it tomorrow. I'm hoping she changes her mind about that, because it's too embarrassing for words ... DAY 63 LENA: I am so going to hell! I had to prepare Rose's room for bed last night, which wouldn't normally have been my job, but I suspect she deliberately arranged for me to have that assignment, the little minx! Anyway, I was about to leave when she insisted that I needed some more of that special lotion and practically ordered me to let her apply it again. I tried to tell her that if she did what she'd done the night before, I probably wouldn't be able to help getting the same reaction. She just laughed at that and asked me why that was a problem. I know I should have put my foot down and refused, even if that meant getting punished. I don't know why I didn't ... Although of course I do. I just wanted to feel her fingers inside me again. I am such a bad girl! So the lotion went in again. And I came again. Twice. Or maybe three times. But then Rose said she wanted me to rub her in the same way. And this time I did refuse. Or at least, the first seven times she asked. She can be very persistent when she wants something. So I gave in and did what she wanted. And I swear she was even louder than me! I was terrified other people would hear us, but she said the servants were under strict instructions to ignore screams - unless they were cries for help. And even then only if it was a family member wanting help. Which, again, typical. Anyway, after she had come she gave me the biggest hug, and then we started kissing, and ... I mean, I've never kissed a girl before, and it was just wonderful, so soft and so loving, I actually started crying. And then had to explain why. Which led to more kissing ... I ended up staying the night, only we didn't spend it all sleeping ... (giggle) DAY 65 LENA: We used tongues today, instead of fingers! Oh my god. That's all I'm saying. Oh. My. God. DAY 67 LENA: The few hours here and there I get to spend with Rose are like oases of calm and beauty in a desert of ... well, shit. Okay, not the best metaphor, but anyway. I was telling her today that I would give anything to just be with her, and not see a man or any of their horrible cocks ever again. And she got this kind of thoughtful look, and I knew she'd had an idea, but she wouldn't tell me what it was. If it's a plan, I hope it's a good one! And now, I'm going to stop this recording and spend more time thinking about her darling little boobs, which you can hardly see, except her nipples get so lovely and hard when I lick them ... Oh god, hell it is! DAY 68 LENA: I'm still trying to pick my jaw up off the floor after hearing about Rose's plan! Or her mother's, really. Rose asked Madam if she could have me as a personal maid. Madam said it would be okay for me to do most of my work for Rose, but I'd still have to perform any other duties required of me by other members of the household. For which, I think, read giving Sir blowjobs and getting fucked by that little shit Angus ... But what Madam was prepared to do was let Rose have me as ... a pet. A pet!!! She'd have to feed me herself, have me sleep in her room ... and also train me. Whatever that means! Rose says it's up to me. So I agreed to go away and think about it. Which I'm doing - or trying to do. DAY 69 LENA: A pet!!! I mean, seriously ... DAY 70 LENA: A pet??? Really??? ... But I'm actually considering it, especially after today's little escapade. I had to give Sir another blowjob and this time I was so sickened by the taste I actually threw up! I missed him, fortunately, but it still got me a thrashing. Right now, anything seems better than my current situation ... DAY 72 LENA: I can't believe it, but I said yes! Rose gave me the biggest hug and said I can move into her room right away. There'll be a mattress on the floor, but I can sleep with her in her bed, at least for the time being. We'll need to figure out some ground rules, but for the time she just wants me to rest and recover. DAY 73 TOM: The day I've been waiting for finally arrived! I got the all clear to start working for Celine, which is great, because I so want to pay her back for all the help she's given me! First though, we had to sort out what I should wear, given my old clothes no longer fit me. While I was recovering, I tended to just wear loose robes, except when I was exercising, when I was able to borrow some shorts and singlets. The colours were a bit on the pastel side, but I didn't mind too much. But now I need something a bit more professional. There are no shops around, and all the men in the household or the garden are much bigger than me, especially now I've slimmed down. Celine herself is closest to my size, and she eventually suggested I could use some of her blouses and slacks, which was very sweet of her. The only problem was my swollen chest - the lumps were really noticeable, and for some reason my nipples are very sensitive just now. But Celine came up with a good solution - if I wear one of her sports bras, it makes my chest comfortable and a lot less noticeable. She also had the brainwave of suggesting I borrow some of her high-heeled shoes, so I could keep up my calf exercises! They were surprisingly comfortable and exactly the right size too, which is odd because I could have sworn her feet were smaller than mine. Must be a trick of perspective, I guess. DAY 75 LENA: My first proper day as a pet! Still hard to believe I've agreed to this ... but it's got to be better than the alternative, right? The first thing that Rose said was that I have to lose my clothes - all of them. I mean, animals don't wear clothes, do they? And since at least for the moment I'll be staying in her room, that won't be an issue. I'll have a blanket to sleep under at night in any event. I also have to eat my food and drink water out of bowls on the floor, without using my hands. I asked why all that was necessary, but Rose said if anyone checked up on her, it would be vital for me to be behaving the right way - and how am I going to do that unless that way becomes the norm? Which ... seems to make sense, I have to admit. We still haven't figured out though exactly what *kind* of per I ought to be. DAY 76 LENA: I'm a pony! That's what we decided anyway. Rose has long wanted one, but she's allergic to horsehair. And I've always been fascinated by horses, but could never afford to have anything to do with them. Seems crazy then that I'd fulfil that particular dream by pretending to be one, at least for a little while! I got down on all fours and gave her rides around the bedroom, which I found strangely enjoyable - even more so when she took off all her clothes! I do so love her body, it's so slender and delicate, and the feel of her on my back is so delicious - though not as nice as when she rubs me down afterwards! DAY 78 LENA: I'm slowly settling into the routine of being a ponygirl, as Rose calls it. To be honest, it's a little dull. I spend a lot of time chained to the bed while Rose is having lessons - she and her brother are home schooled. I have a dog collar and leash at the moment , although Rose says she's going to get me some better equipment very soon. And the food is very dull - just oats, with some supplements added to make sure I get everything I need. But I'm allowed to read a book while it's still light, provided I hide it if anyone comes in. And I'm still spending most of the nights sleeping with Rose. Or indeed not sleeping (giggle). All in all, I'll happily trade a little boredom for the security of knowing that I'm safe with her. DAY 79 TOM: My third day (I think) working for Celine. I've been helping her with correspondence and filing, and really enjoying it - though struggling a little with some of the tasks. I don't seem to be able to concentrate quite as well as I should. Now that I've got a clean bill of health, I've also got to see a lot more of the household, after spending my first month or so in pretty much one part of the mansion. Young Angus seems very nice - he always asks me how I am. He was very apologetic about what happened with, with ... my ex-girlfriend, back when I first arrived, but that clearly wasn't his fault. His sister, on the other hand, seems to be a nasty piece of work. She's incredibly cruel to the maids and just so rude to me. I don't know what I've done to offend her, but Angus says I should just ignore her. DAY 82 LENA: A big day today! My new equipment arrived, and Mistress Rose took me outside for the first time! She first of all put an elaborate halter on my head, with all kinds of straps and fastenings. That will become pretty much a permanent feature, as it allows me to be either tethered or led around. There's a bridle for riding purposes, which includes a bit that goes into my mouth and allows Mistress to steer me, plus a saddle for her to use when on my back. I have special boots on my feet, which look just like hooves, but are very awkward to stand in, let alone walk. They're going to take a lot of practice! And I even have a tail, which can either be attached to a harness, or hang from a little butt plug which goes into my ass. The plug is not painful at all - and it has a vibrator which Mistress Rose can turn on when she wants to reward me! We spent a good couple of hours outdoors, sometimes with her on my back, but mostly with me just being led around and learning how to walk and run like a pony. It was more fun than I expected!!! DAY 83 TOM: A blow today, to my pride as much as anything. Celine told me that she was really sorry, but my secretarial work was simply not up to scratch. So I'm going to have to help out with the housework instead. That doesn't sound too bad, though the downside is that under the household rules, which everyone knows have to be strictly followed, all maids have to wear the appropriate uniform. I was not at all sure I wanted to dress that way. But Celine pointed out that I'd already worn some of her skirts without any fuss while her slacks were in the wash. And I'd even tried tights a couple of times to keep my legs warm. So maybe it's not such a big deal. After all, it's not as if anyone else can see me like that! So eventually I agreed to swap with one of the maids, who'll take over as Celine's secretary. DAY 86 LENA: Mistress is taking me out just about every day at present, in between her classes! She seems to be having great fun getting me to trot, and canter and prance. Although she also has a little ride on my back while we're on the lawn, I think she's more interested in training - at least while we're outside. The kind of riding she prefers tends to be bareback and in her bedroom - with the rider as naked as the pony! (giggle) As for me, I don't know why, but there's something wonderfully comforting about having all the equipment fastened on to me. I especially love it when the bit is in my mouth, the blinkers prevent me seeing any way except straight ahead, and I have to trust Mistress to steer me with her reins (or, sometimes, a light smack of her whip if I'm not reacting quickly enough). It's a feeling of giving up complete control to another person and trusting them to look after me - and I do trust her. DAY 89 TOM: It's kind of surprising, but I've actually been enjoying work as a maid. The chores are simple enough, and I don't have to think too much, which is good, because - I don't know exactly, but I'm not feeling too sharp at the moment. The uniform feels kind of strange, but also quite nice, especially now my skin is so smooth. Did I mention I lost all my hair? Body hair I mean, not on my head! (giggle) Anyway, the main challenge is remembering all the rules! You know, for how to talk and act, and everything. I've noticed all the other maids are super careful and almost seem afraid whenever they see Sir or Madam, or even Angus. (I'm supposed to call him Young Master, but he said to keep calling him that instead, at least when one of the others aren't around.) I don't know why they should be scared, it's only that little bitch Ro-, I mean Young Mistress, who I've ever seen being nasty to them - or to me. DAY 93 LENA: Mistress seems pleased with how well my training is progressing. I know when she's especially happy, because she feeds me with little sugared pastries or bits of chocolate, which I adore getting - they're rare exceptions to what is otherwise a very bland diet. She's also been trying to build up my stamina - I get the impression that she's going to set me a new challenge soon, though I'm not sure what. DAY 95 TOM: Quite the triumph today - I did my own makeup!!! Go me!!!! Did I mention the makeup before? Anyway, it's part of the rules for how maids should look and Madam explained there couldn't be any exceptions, just like the uniform, and having an appropriate name - I got to choose from a list, and I picked Vanessa, because I thought it sounded nice. So up till now, either Madam herself or one of the maids used to do the makeup for me, but they insisted I had to learn myself. So I practised just about every free minute I had - which isn't much! - and today I managed to be a big girl and do it all on my own. I was so proud!!! Mind you, I still got a big spanking from Young Mistress, because she didn't like the colour I'd chosen for my nails. But then, that's just typical of her, any chance to get her hand on my bottom she'll find it! Stuck up cow ... Anyway, Angus said I was looking very pretty, which was so sweet of him! I'm still blushing now when I think of it ... DAY 99 LENA: Mistress gave me a big surprise today, when she took me out. Rather than having me just run around at the end of a long set of reins, she actually attached me to a carriage! Basically, I was attached to these ... traces, I think they're called, which allow me to pull a little one-seater carriage behind me. Mistress also gave me a special present - a bright purple plume which is attached to the top of my head. I'm sure it looks spectacular! I managed to do a complete circuit of the mansion, but I was so tired afterwards I actually fell asleep while Mistress was rubbing me down. Which is not my usual reaction to feeling her hand on my bottom and between my legs, I can assure you! DAY 108 LENA: I'm really getting the hang of the carriage now, to the point where I can pull it at a canter! And I'm getting better and better at what I gather is called dressage, where horses have to perform certain manoeuvres and hold awkward positions as carefully and precisely as they can, on their riders' instructions. I really only have two problems as a pony - I find it hard to keep completely still, especially when it's cool outside. And I still have a tendency to use human swear words, rather than neighing or nickering! I'm getting better though at answering strictly to my new pony name, which is Aurora. Mistress let me choose it myself and it just seemed somehow ... perfect. DAY 110 VANESSA: Yesterday was my worst day since ... well since whatever I used to do before I came here. I tripped up while I was carrying the breakfast dishes out and all the plates smashed. I don't know how it happened, but Madam was furious, and when Young Mistress suggested I needed some "real discipline", Madam agreed with her. So I thought I was in for a whipping or something, but it was far worse. Ro- Young Mistress put a collar round my neck, attached a leash, then made me get down on all fours and walk like a dog! She took me outside, which is the first time I've even seen the gardens except through a window, but I didn't get to stay on all those nice lawns, oh no, it was into the woods and up and down these muddy paths and through bushes. She had proper boots on of course, but I was on my hands and knees, and I was covered in mud and scratches and my lovely stockings got absolutely ruined! Then, when we got back to the gardens, she spent the rest of the morning having me do tricks, you know, rolling over, or begging, or fetching a stick. She even made me put my head into a bowl to drink water and then, when I was busting for a pee, I had to lift my leg up and go against a tree! Some of the gardeners saw it and they couldn't stop sniggering. It was completely humiliating! Eventually, she chained me up in this tiny kennel and left me there for the rest of the day - and all of the night as well! It was so cold - I don't know why, because it ought to still be summer ... at least I think so. Anyway, I hardly got any sleep. Young Mistress finally came round this morning, told me I stank - which I did - then turned a hose on me. She got me to take what was left of my uniform off and threw it away. then made me walk back to the house stark naked, still being led like a dog and past all the servants, before she finally let me go and change. And then I had to start work! I was so tired I made heaps of mistakes today. So it's no surprise I got spanked by just about everyone - even Madam, who said she was very disappointed in me. That just capped off my misery. The only silver lining was that I don't think Angus got to see me being a dog - I think I would have died of shame! DAY 118 AURORA: Although I've made great strides in my training - no pun intended! - Mistress and I both think I can do better. She's suggested I take a new medicine, on top of the existing pills I've been using since ... since I started work here. The medicine would help me stay much calmer, be more obedient and more - what was the word she used? - impervious, that's it, impervious to aches and pains, or temperature, or other distractions. I said I'd take it if she thought it was a good idea. She did, so I'm starting it right away! DAY 127 VANESSA: I can't believe what happened today! And my heart is thumping so much I'm not sure I can even talk! Anyway, I've been seeing a lot more of Angus lately, bringing him breakfast, helping him dress, doing his laundry, running his baths, that kind of thing. I happened to mention that to him and he explained that it wasn't an accident, he'd asked the housekeeper to arrange that, because he knew I was having problems with his sister and he wanted to make things easier for me. When I heard that, I was so grateful that I gave him a great big hug. Which of course was totally against the rules and I immediately apologised and expected to get a good spanking. But instead he said he'd enjoyed the hug and maybe we could do it again! Which we did, only this time, before letting me go ... he kissed me! It was just a short kiss and there were no tongues or anything, but oh my god, it was ... heavenly! It made me feel - I don't know how to describe it, but all floaty or something? Not anything I've ever felt before, that's for sure. DAY 128 AURORA: The new medicine definitely seems to have helped! I kind of go into a zone now when I'm training and even when I'm back in Mistress' room on my own I find I can now stand or sit or lie down for hours and not get bored. It all just seems ... very peaceful. Today, Mistress put me through my paces before this nice older lady (I think maybe her mother?), and the lady was so impressed that she said she'd drive both of us to a ponygirl competition that's happening next weekend. I'm not sure what that is, but Mistress was very happy. She let me sleep in her bed rather than on my mattress, and she even licked between my legs until I got a lovely feeling. I hope she does that again some time! DAY 130 VANESSA: I seem to be thinking about Angus all the time right now! Not that there's anything unusual about that. I mean he's very good looking, easily as cute as some of the men they feature in the magazines that the other maids have lent me. I've even dreamt that we kissed some more ... (giggle) Just imagining that always makes my ... weenie? Is that what Madam calls it? Yes, my weenie, it becomes all .. tingly. Not hard and swollen, thank goodness, because that wouldn't be good at all. Madam says that as long as I keep taking my medicine for just a little longer, I won't ever have to worry about that again, or any of those horrible discharges. Anyway, I know Angus likes me too, he's always complimenting me on my appearance, telling me what a pretty girl I am. And just the way he says my name - "Vanessa". It reminds me of that kiss! I keep hoping that he might ... but then (sigh), I'm only a servant, I can't expect too much, can I? DAY 132 VANESSA: There was I hoping that Angus might do more than just say nice things to me. Well, dreams sometimes come true! (squeal) Well, sort of, anyway. Although I definitely hadn't dreamt about what actually happened! I had just run his bath, and was bending over to adjust the taps, when I heard a noise behind me. I turned around, all surprised, and there was Angus looking at me, wearing nothing but a towel! So I gave a little cry of surprise, and that surprised him, and he dropped his towel, and that's when ... I saw it. It was sticking straight out. A bit like my weenie, but much longer and harder. And it was throbbing and twitching, like it was in pain! So of course I asked him if he was all right, and if he wanted me do anything to make the swelling go down. And he gave me this strange look, but then he said maybe I could rub it a bit, that would definitely help. So I did, and it was ... strange. Like maybe I'd felt something like that before, though I was certain I hadn't! Anyway, I wasn't at all sure I was doing it right, because he just seemed to pant, like he was in pain, but he told me to keep going, and then he started kissing me! He was so ... passionate, and there were definitely tongues this time! I wanted to throw my arms around him, but he insisted I keep rubbing his ... thing. So I did, but then I got an even bigger surprise. He stopped kissing me and made this groaning sound and all of a sudden this kind of gooey stuff was shooting out of the end of his thing, all over both of us! I was worried, but he seemed to feel much better, and it was like he was really pleased with me! So I obviously did the right thing somehow! I went to get a cloth to clean up all the gooey stuff, but before I did Angus said I should taste some of it! I thought that was gross, but he's the master, so I did what I was told - and it was actually quite creamy and yummy! He said I'd been a very good girl and there was "more where that came from" ... DAY 135 VANESSA: More excitement! Angus had another of those nasty swellings, only this time he asked me right away to help him with it. So I was going to give it a rub, but he told me to kneel down and kiss it better instead. So he showed me what to do, only I had to do a lot more than kiss it! It was a bit strange at first, but I got used to it and eventually I was able to get the gooey stuff out. Only this time, he told me to swallow it all, as a reward he said for being such a good little ... something or other, not sure what he said. But anyway, he kissed me again afterwards. And he told me that the swelling wasn't because he was ill, it's just something that happens to boys when they see someone pretty. And even though it seemed like he was in pain, it's actually very enjoyable when the cream shoots out. Boys are so strange! But I'm glad he told me. DAY 137 AURORA: We went somewhere today. Not sure where, I was in this box for a long time and there were all kinds of scary noises, and the box was shaking, but I couldn't see anything cos it was dark. But then we got to ... somewhere I hadn't seen before. There were lots of people - and ponies! I haven't seen other ponies before, but they looked just like me except sometimes with different coloured hair. It was scary, but Mistress said just to do my usual tricks. So I did and she must have been pleased, cos she gave me lots of treats! And then I had to pull her in the carriage and gallop as fast as I could. There was all this cheering, but I couldn't see much because of the blinkers. But after we stopped Mistress just kept saying "good girl Aurora", so I was very happy. And some lady came and looked at me and asked if I was for sale. But Mistress said "Not my darling Aurora" and I neighed very loudly and people laughed. I got left with some other ponies and we nuzzled one another a bit just to say hello. But we didn't talk cos we know good ponies don't do that, After that I got put in my box and we went home, but it took a long time. I don't think I like going to other places ... DAY 145 AURORA: Mistress says I have to sleep in a stable now - a special stable just for me. That's okay because Mistress will still play with me there. We played stallions and mares today, it hurt a bit but also I had nice feelings. Mistress says I have to learn how to be bred - whatever that means. But it felt very nice when she put her stallion thing in me! (whinny) I love my Mistress very much. DAY 147 VANESSA: I've been seeing Angus quite a lot - at least in the mornings and evenings, cos he's usually in classes most of the day. He's asked me a few times now to give him a nice rub or a suck, as he calls it. I always feel so good afterwards, and I try to think about that I f I get into trouble with anyone else in the household, especially the horrible Young Mistress. Angus has also been saying that I'm ready to "go to the next level" - whatever that means? But I'm excited to find out! DAY 149 VANESSA: Oh my god, I found out what the next level is! And I'm still not quite sure what to think about it ... It was last night, Angus was very excited and he'd got all swollen, and he told me to take all my clothes off and get into bed with him! And he was playing with the lumps on my chest, which have gotten really large, and that seemed to make him even more excited! And then he asked me to turn around and stick my bottom out, and he told me he was going to hide his thing in my "special place". I wasn't sure what he meant, but then ... he put it inside me! Right into my bottom. I had no idea it was supposed to go there, but he said that was the best hiding place of all. It did hurt quite a lot and ... I cried. But he was very patient, because his thing must have been all squeezed being in there! Eventually, he was able to push it in and out of me, and it hurt again ... but also gave me the tingles. It was very confusing! Anyway, he told me to be a brave girl, and I was, and then he squirted all his cream inside me. It must have gone a long way, because even this morning, it's still dribbling out! DAY 151 VANESSA: Oops, I hid it again! (giggle) It was much nicer this time ... and I got lots of nice tingles! DAY 162 AURORA: Found this ... machine? Yes, machine. I try talk to it but words very hard. Stop now. DAY 193 VANESSA: I haven't seen so much of Angus lately, but that's okay because he was starting to get a little rough with me and I didn't like that so much. But often now Sir asks me to suck on his thing, and I enjoy that, because his creamy stuff tastes almost as good as Angus! And sometimes Madam tells me to lick her cunt, as she calls it. That's very different, there isn't any swelling and no cream, just this kind of liquid which doesn't taste as good. But she doesn't get so tired as Angus or Sir and sometimes I have to lick her for what seems like hours and she just keeps screaming, over and over again! She always seems very happy with me afterwards and she said today that she must get round to "fucking that pretty little ass of yours", as she put it. But she doesn't seem to have a thing that swells up, so I'm not sure how that would work! DAY 197 VANESSA:I found out today how Mistress could fuck me! It was ... well, different. Not sure if I like it or not, but I imagine I may have to get used to it ... DAY 226 VANESSA: I've been promoted!!! Apparently I've been doing such a good job that I get to be assistant housekeeper. It's a different range of duties, and I'll see less of the family - which is both good and bad - but the upside is the hours aren't so long and I might even have the odd day off. Madam said that if I'm really good, she'll let me go shopping in the nearest town, provided I can find one of the other staff to drive me and look after me. I thought of Angus, but of course he's too young - although he does seem to have grown enormously in the short time I've known him, and not just in the place I most often see him grow either! (giggle) Anyway, it will have to be someone else, not sure who though ... DAY 235 VANESSA: I seem to have settled in quite nicely to the new job, although what I hadn't realised was that I'm expected to help out in the stables every now and then. It's mostly mucking out, which is not too bad. But I did get a bit of a shock when I saw that one of the stalls has a naked girl in it! She's kept there by Young Mistress, of course - who else! Apparently she's treated just like a horse, she even gets to pull the bi- Young Mistress around in a carriage! Incredible! Strangely though, she doesn't seem at all unhappy, although she seemed to be watching me wherever I went. Charlie - he's one of the gardeners - told me that's because she was hoping I might have some kind of treat on me. Apparently, you can get her to do all kind of tricks, like neighing or prancing, just by offering her a sugar cube! I suspect some of the gardeners might want her to do more than that - apparently she's quite pretty, or so Charlie says, although I can't say I'd noticed. But apparently if any men get too close to her, she goes nuts, tries to kick them, with those special shoes she wears she can be pretty deadly. Broke one boy's arm, apparently! DAY 256 VANESSA: We don't get many visitors to the house, but there was a gentleman who dropped in today to speak to Sir and Madam. Apparently he was looking for his son, who went missing last year along with his girlfriend. He didn't think the two of them would have come this way, but he was checking just to be sure, in case Sir or Madam had seen anything. Unfortunately, they hadn't, and he left looking all sad, which is terrible - I felt so sorry for him! I heard all this, because Madam had me serving tea to the three of them. She actually asked for me specially - not sure why, but there you go. I did see the gentlemen looking at me every now and again, but nothing unusual in that! The butler does it all the time, and so do the gardeners ... which reminds me. Charlie has offered to drive me to town, if we can get a day off together. He says that after I've done my shopping, we can go have dinner and then catch a movie - which sounds very exciting! He's such a sweetie, and I do like talking to him... and it doesn't hurt that he's pretty cute too! (giggle) Not as cute as Angus, mind ... although I have to confess, I do get the tingles when I think about Charlie as well! You know, down there ... Hmmm, that's another thing. Madam gave me my monthly check-up this afternoon. She was saying that if I wanted to pee a bit more easily and get rid of that nasty lump in my panties, there's an operation she can do that will help with that - and also make it a lot more fun if I was going to - how did she put it? Oh yeah, "play hide the sausage with any of those pretty young boys who work in the garden"! She winked when she said that and I just blushed and blushed! Apparently it will cost quite a bit of money, and I'd need to agree to keep working here for a few more years, but I'm seriously considering it. I do so want to be the best girl I can be ... *The End* *Like the story? **Feel free to email any comments to me at zennaswallows@gmail.com . And please think about making a donation to help support the great work Nifty does in bringing us stories like this one.* *xoxo Zenna*