Date: Sun, 26 Sep 2010 00:50:41 -0700 (PDT) From: Julian Irwin Subject: A Dream comes True chapter 12 transgender teen I knew what I had to do, my clit was still throbbing begging attention. My right hand lightly stroked its way down over my beautiful satin nightdress, coming to rest at the base of my swollen appendage. I let the hand lovingly fondling its length through the safety of the nighty, before retreating again, while I still had full control of myself. Taking the blue satin scarf in my hand, I began caressing over my whole upper body. Lovingly up over my face, I just had to stop there, as I relished the sweet feminine bouquet radiating from within its fibres. My mind went wild with all these wonderful girly thoughts. Inducing more twitching from my already pulsating sissy clit. Back down to my now erect left then right nipple, holding the scarf there while I used both hands to tweak gently on each. God, the sensation is so incredible. I lay deep in thought, not wanting to go to fast, so soon. Retrieving the red patterned satin scarf from under Cuddles. I proceeded to place it over my head in much the same way I'd seen in Denise's photos. After a couple of tries I succeeded. Turning the light right off, I sat placing both hands to my face. Again I had the beautiful aroma of feminine perfume infusing my nostrils, what more could a sissy like me yearn for. Lying back resting my head comfortable on the pillow, letting my hands wander up all over my shrouded head. This is just so intoxicating, the warmth of my breath, along with the perfume from the scarf had me in seventh heaven. I know now why Denise is so into using her satin scarfs in such mind-blowing wantoned ways. How I wish she was with me right now, caressing, kissing, feeling the others satin encased head resting together, talking sweet things. Yes, I know we wouldn't be able to suck each others quavering clitties, but we could still enjoy them. Still gently fondling my face with the left hand, while the right took up the other scarf. In slow motion I continued caressing my sexually aroused body. Over my nighty, down under to thrill one stiff weeping clit. Fingering the droplet off, I wiped it onto my full aching basket beneath. With satin scarf back in hand, I lightly began its upward expedition under my nighty. Caressing each of my thighs tenderly, up over my stomach, to each sensitive side, under my hairless pits, before going back to send shivers through extremely alive nipples. All the time I continued fondling my satin enshroud face. With the inevitable build up of sexual tension in my whole body, along with my resolve to hold off as long as possible. I lay the scarf over my nighty right at my enthused breast. Caressing one more time over satin covered face, before letting my hands come to rest over ones sumptuous nighty. I couldn't help but softly run my hands over the adorable fabrics of my nighty with the equally adorable scarf. At the same time closing my eyes, letting my mind wander back to when all this began. The many sissy dreams I used to have. Meeting Mummy, even letting her strip and bath me right from the first day. Having her dress me as a girl for the first time, the gorgeous silky underwear, my very first girls training bra, even to wearing makeup. Meeting my dear sweet sissy friend Ashley/Annabel, that day I could never forget. God, how I wanted to be him right there and then. Dressed in the most Sassiest of sissy clothes, she is so adorable. Then to meet Denise my sissy sister, who I also love so very much. Then today, to be stripped to just my pretty underwear by a strange woman in this shop. The trill of having her dress me in such exquisite gowns. A lady who excepted me for what I am, to hear her telling me what a sweet young girl I am. It's not even a week yet since I moved in with Mummy and Denise. Yet I'm feeling more of a girl now than I ever thought I would and loving it. My early thoughts of being just a Cross Dresser have long vanished. Yes I know the closest I'll ever get to being just all male again, will be dressed as a Sissy Boy. As I was the other day for my Doctors visit. Once my breast develop and after ones vocal chords are operated on, I guess I'll be more the Girl of my dreams. Putting a hand up to caress my satin covered face again, I brushed against Cuddles. Oh yes how could I ever forget the immense pleasure I got when Mummy said I could pick up Chrissy the doll. The enormous excitement of being able to express my real sissy side by cuddling and kissing a doll, a real girls doll, on my first visit. I know I had Prince, my teddy, who is now my Princess. But could only enjoy him in the privacy of my bedroom. But a real adorable doll with long wavy hair, wearing her full length beautiful gown is something else. I took Cuddles and Princess into my hands, letting them feel my satin encased face, it felt so good, to me anyway. Noticing the turmoil building up between my thighs, I knew it's time to put Cuddles and Princess to one side. By now I could even smell my own sexy, musky breath as it was trapped under the satin scarf. Taking the scarf resting over my nighty at my breast. I ever so slowly fondled it over and down every part of my shimmering body. I could feel the pounding of my heart, I couldn't hear it because of my soft whimpering, as I touched enthusiastically around my aroused crotch. Lightly feathering the scarf around my hot pulsating clittie. Realizing it's been the best part of a week since I've been allowed to put my hand around my own throbbing appendage. Something I used to take for granted at least twice a day before. But I didn't have Mummy or Denise to take good care of it for me then. Resting the luxurious satin fabric across my upper thigh. Hesitantly I then encircled my twitching stiff clit, it felt amazing. Or was it just those days of a abstinence that gave me this feeling. Never mind, my fingers gently slid up and down the length a few times, pulling my lovely skin back, exposing the blood filled gland head to the cool air. I could feel the sissy lube seeping from my slit onto my fingertips, again I just had to wipe it over my little basket below. After caressing around my cherry basket and beyond, I took the satin scarf lightly back in hand. Oh yes!! This is a thousand times better, as I again veiled my ridge clit, fondling over my whole genital region. The cool glossy texture sent shivers through my whole energized body. I could hear myself giving soft whimpers of unadulterated pleasure. Knowing I couldn't hold off much longer as my lower body began to vibrate. My left hand worked the nighty up high out off harms way, before going to caress passionately over one satin enshroud face. As I began to stroke over my lips, I thought of Denise, it's her mouth the other side of this sensuous scarf. In wild fit of passion I began kissing on it, moaning softly, whispering Denise's name. Meanwhile the satin scarf in my right hand flittered lustfully, as I worked at an increasing pace towards the momentous discharge. Just in time I dropped the scarf to safety between my legs, but still able to feel its silky touch between my thighs. Deep moans, whimpers, little sissy squeals all parted my lips, as I sensed the rapid flow of sissy juice along my almost six inch shaft. Quivering, trembling, finally jerking uncontrollably, but unaware of my screams of ecstasy. Suddenly squirting many hot splashes of sissy sperm, which make their presence felt along my tensed naked body, from my chest downwards. I was unaware of anything else, other than this erotic spine tingling experience, of my face being veiled completely under this sumptuous satin scarf. I kept hold of my shrinking Sissy clit till the very last drop has been given up. After which I savoured in the pleasure of caressing my fingertips from my now empty cherry sac, my deflating clit, working up over my stomach towards my breast. Spreading sissy sperm as I went, making sure each breast and its still erect nipple got well coated. I lay exhausted, my eyes closed, breathing deeply. My left hand still savouring my satin enclosed face. While the right continued fondling each breast and nipple with its now sticky deposits. Fortunately I'd placed the small towel under my pillow. Once I'd wiped clean my hand and body, I just lay there, eyes closed deep in thought. Thinking how much I want to experience this all again, only next time with Denise. Both our faces shrouded in satin scarfs rejoicing in such unadulterated pleasure. Retrieving the scarf from between my legs, lowering ones nighty to a more dignified state before raising the duvet to its rightful place. Not wanting to relinquish the beautiful satin that confined my face. I just lay there caressing over it, using the other scarf as well. Turning sideways towards my teddies wanting to cuddle each. The thought went through my head. Is it wise to try and sleep in such away, wisely I guess, I decided it isn't. After one final caress of my satin covered face, I undid the knot, slid the scarf free, to let the cool night air embrace my face. I took both scarfs in hand holding them lovingly, kissing them sweetly, before cradling them protectively to my breast. Like a contented child, I now closed my eyes. In no time I seemed to drifted off into a tranquil nights sleep. Wake up sleepyhead I heard, at the same time the hand of a heartless sister began shaking me from behind. Still half a sleep, I turned to face a smiling Denise sitting there looking so radiant. "What time is it?" I asked as I tried to sit up. Then realized I still had the lovely scarfs in my hands. Seems I hadn't stirred all night, I was still facing my teddies, the scarfs still cradled in my arms. I gave Denise a sheepishly shy grin, wondering what she'd be thinking. To take her mind away from what she could see, I said. "You look beautiful, where are you going?" "I'm going to work, remember of a Thursday and Friday I go to the school, where I'll see you this afternoon. Also I think some new students were going to start last Monday. So guess whose looking forward to checking them out? No they aren't girls like us either." then she bent over to give me my good morning kiss. "Are they real girls?" I asked a little disappointed, as I was not to keen on being with real girls if I still have to go there, as Mummy wants me to. "It's just gone eight o'clock. Now did you have a good night?" as a hand came to stroke over the satin scarfs I tried to hide. "I'm not saying unless you answer my question, are they real girls." I again asked. "OK no they aren't real girls, just gay boys." she said like it's no big deal. All of a sudden my eyes opened up, any thought of wanting more sleep has quickly vanished. "I didn't know gay boys went there also. You didn't say earlier and Annabel hasn't mentioned any boys to me." "That is because she didn't no, nether did I, it's all new. I'll explain tonight once I find the reason. Is that OK? Now did you have a good night, I want to know." Blushing while nodding my head at the same time, before looking up to her. In a quiet voice "I covered my face with a scarf like you did in those photos. It's a really sexy erotic sensation you get wearing the satin scarf over my face like that, isn't it?" I found myself caressing the scarfs upwards to touch over the cheek facing Denise. I couldn't help kissing them at the same time. "I....... I was wondering if we can do it together one night. You know, when Mummy lets you sleep with me?" I asked with a big smile. "Oh Jessica you are so gorgeous." as her hands came to take hold of me for a lovely embrace. "You really loved having your head covered like that also, did you. I'm sure we'll be able to be together wearing our beautiful scarfs. I'm so pleased you appreciated it as much as I do. What say we talk more about it tonight. Because I must get going now or I'll get stuck in the slow traffic. Plus I hope to have some checking out to do." With that I got another lovely kiss. "Aunty will be in soon, so no playing." she said smiling while walking towards the door. I was still lying there savouring the afterglow of Denise's kiss when the door opened. I hadn't even had time to cuddle or kiss my teddies. When the order came, "Time all girls were out of bed." Next off came the duvet, leaving me exposed to the world in my nighty cuddling two beautiful satin scarfs. To add further embarrassment to the situation, down below I'd sprung a lovely stiff clitty. "Oh what have we here. Didn't Jessica enjoy herself enough last night?" "Yes I really did, but I couldn't help this happening again right now. I'm sorry Mummy." as I tried to cover it with the scarfs. "I know you can't help these things happening sweetheart." without saying anything else, she bend over giving me a kiss while stroking lovingly over my hair. "Come now and have a nice shower. I'm sure you need one." With my morning ablutions over, I was allowed to massage the hormone cream into my breast. Under Mummy's guidance, I went to work kneading each breast, exhibiting great care as I went. I swear after each days massage and use of the pumps, those little nipples are getting more pronounced. Experiencing this emotional phenomenon under my own hands. How could any sissy like myself, not develop a taut clitty under her panties. "That's enough now, you hold the cups while I work the pump." Mummy said with a wide smile. Yes she well knew what effect the self manipulating was having on me. "Would you like to do your own makeup this morning darling, while I have my shower?" With great fervour I went to work. Wanting to look stunningly perfect for when Mummy returns. I had just finished brushing out my hair, as the door to the en suite slid open. I stood ready to smile, delighted with my look. Only I stood open mouthed, seeing Mummy emerge wrapped only in a white fluffy bath towel, which didn't leave much to anyone's imagination. "Give me a good look at you darling." she said with no concern to her almost nakedness. "My, you are becoming quite a little expert with your makeup, aren't you." as she ran an approving eye over my face and hair. Mummy sat to let me blow dry, brush and comb out her hair. I know I take longer than I should, but it's so soft and silky, my fingers love the texture as the hair glided over them. "I think that'll do for now. Would you like to get me a dressing gown from the wardrobe, sweetheart?" Looking in, I didn't know which one she'd want so asked, "Is there any particular one you would like?" "You chose one for me sweetness." So I did, the beautiful silk full length ivory dressing gown. Placing the other back in the wardrobe, I held it lovingly against my body, as I slowly sashayed the few steps towards Mummy. Facing away from me, I noticed she had removed the towel from around her body. Standing there almost naked, yes she was wearing a pair of pale gold satin panties over a matching suspender, the stockings not yet attached. "Put the gown on the bed for now, be a darling and fastening the little hooks for me." The soft bra was sitting loosely over her lovely shoulders. With the hooks fastened , I again was to see each breast sat comfortable in its cup. To follow, Mummy sat on the ottoman, then proceeded to don her fine light tan nylon stockings. Once the left leg was encased Mummy stood asking, "Would you be a dear and fasten them for me." Oh yes how I'd love too, I thought to myself. Kneeling to her side I nervously went about the business of attaching stocking top to the two fasteners. With my face so very close to her thigh I couldn't hold myself back from offering it a soft kiss. Somehow I felt guilty for kissing Mummy in such a way, she is my mother after all. " Oh Mummy I'm so sorry for doing that, I didn't mean too, I just couldn't stop myself." Without saying a word, she just proceeded to glide the other stocking gently up her right leg. Holding it before the suspender clips while smiling to me. I knew I was to repeat the same process on that stockinged leg. This time taking greater control of my demeanor, I stepped back straight away ready to stand. "Isn't that leg good enough to be kiss?" I got asked from a smiling face beside me. "I don't want you to be sorry for expressing your emotions to me or to Denise. I've told you that before, is that understood?" "Yes it is, you've got lovely legs Mummy, and don't stockings make them feel so glamorous." as I went with a free mind this time, to kiss lovingly over her right leg. "You have love legs also my darling." as she stroked the side of my face. Dropping her arms out slightly, I knew I'm to have the pleasure of adorning her gracious body in this fine feminine gown. Holding it gently between my fingers, slowly I ushered each arm to its appropriate sleeve before raising it up to sit flawlessly over her shoulders. Moving myself to stand before her. I couldn't help but just fiddle a little, making sure it sat as elegantly as possible over her fine feminine frame, before tying the two inch wide sash into a lovely bow in front. Standing back a little just to admire Mummy in her elegant gown which I've had the pleasure of putting on her. I smiled telling her how beautiful she is. Which earned me a lovely warm mouth to mouth kiss. "What say we go have some breakfast now. We don't need to get dressed yet, as we're not going out till later." We then headed down stairs to the kitchen. This time I prepared my own bowl of girly food, which is quite simple. 250mls of warm milk mixed into a sachet of girly powder. All is ready in under a minute. At the same time Mummy got her bowl of weet-a-bix and tea for two ready. Once breakfast had been consumed, my pumps were released to let my breast deflate some. I like watching this happening slowly, seeing two puffed out boobs shrinking. Wondering each time how much larger they'll be developed. Now for my next step into girlhood, yes one small yellow pill to be taken with a little water. One down, six to go and I'm wondering what the final result will be. We sat in the lounge to finish our cups of tea, while Mummy tried to explain the effects of these pills to me. I don't know whether I understood or not. All I seemed to understand is, they'll help me think or comprehend in a more feminine way *I think*. In a short while I became quiet, leaning against Mummy's right arm. Intoxicated by the motherly warmth radiating from her, I just had to ask. "Mummy can I sit on your knee for awhile, please." I feel so loved sitting on her knee. Without a word she put her cup on the small table before us, opened her arms ready to receive her Jessica. In no time there I sat cuddled in her arms, resting my head against her shoulder the beauty of her breast, my hands couldn't help but caress over the silk gown which surrounded her fine body. With this wonderful acknowledgement of being loved, we stayed that way in silence. Only little kisses between us could be heard, I think you could call it, mother daughter bonding. We seemed to stay embraced a good few minutes before Mummy said. "Jessica sweetheart, what say we go upstairs to Mummy's room?" Not quite knowing what to think, I just nodded my head in agreement. On entering the bedroom, I watched while Mummy went to straighten up the bed after hers and Denise's night together. Turning towards me, putting out her arms invitingly. I stepped over into her waiting arms, there we stood embracing ever so closely, one could say intermittly. We soon sat on the bed just as close, holding hands, my head resting against her shoulder. "Jessica darling, you know Denise and I would love to have you sleep with us some nights. You can see the bed is big enough for the three of us, isn't it? But firstly, I would like you to feel free and comfortable with Mummy's body, as I am with yours. Much the same way as with Denise, what do you say?" as she kissed the side of my head, waiting an response. I felt my head pushing closer into Mummy's shoulder, as I comprehended all she had just said. "Yes I would love to sleep with you and Denise sometimes. B....... But don't laugh at me if I ask you things, will you. Cause I've never been interested in women before, so don't know much." "Darling you know I would never laugh at you, I've told you that before haven't I?" "I know but I don't really know anything about women. Except what Andrew told me, when I asked him, what a girls clitty was." Wrapping her silk covered arms around me to offer one lovely kiss to my ever waiting lips. "Don't let anyone say, you're not the sweetest little sissy ever." I loved hearing her call me that. Taking hold of my hand to help me stand up. Holding my face between her warm tender hands, our lips once again came ever so lovingly together. Next thing I felt the pulling apart of the bow holding my dressing gown secured. I smiled to her as the satin gown gently slithered free of my slender body. To be placed over the ottoman, leaving me standing in only my pretty nighty. Likewise, I took each end of Mummy's gowns silk sash, pulled them slowly apart, opening up her gown ready to be released from her beautiful body. To now stand before me, in the minimum of wonderful female underwear, being a matching set of satin and lace bra, suspender and panties. Fortunately no attempt was made to relief me of my nighty. I know Mummy was well aware of the state of ones sissy clit. Yes standing proudly under the cover of satin. In a state of nervousness, Mummy helped me lie on her king-size bed. Not quite know where to look or put my fidgeting hands, I lay tense. "Jessica don't be shy, I want you to take your time and touch my body wherever you wish." Turning on my side, I let my head rest against her upper arm. Lightly I caressed over the side of her face letting my hand wander across her beautiful neck. Cautiously, hesitantly, I let my right hand brush ever so lightly over her fine stomach area, up her left side towards her armpit and come to rest. All the time I was somehow afraid to touch on her beautiful breast. Mummy's hand rested over mine, before guiding it across and around her stomach again. Then leaving me be to continue unassisted, caressing over her body. I must admit, I didn't wander far from where I was. This is a whole new experience for me. With great courage, I gently wandered up to touch over her bra covered breast. By the little sight I heard, I gathered Mummy enjoyed the touching also, but she turned away from me. "Am I being naughty Mummy for doing that?" I quickly asked. "No darling, Mummy loves what you're doing. I want you to unfasten the bra clips for me, in your own time." she said in a raspy voice. I leaned forward placing an affectionate kiss right where the bra straps meet. Then proceeded to separate the two straps, at the same time guiding the right strap to hang loose over her shoulder. Turning back to almost face me, she all but let the bra slip off. I realized I was going to get no help in any way, in my quest to familiarize myself with Mummy's body. Taking hold of the bra strap, I tried manoeuvring it off her arm. In this I received some help, till it hung free, but still covered her breast. I don't know who was the most excited, the soft murmurs I could hear, or the beating of my heart, that I could feel. There was no conversation between us, all my thoughts were on trying to stay focussed and not to freaking out, because I'm touching a woman's near naked body. My Mummy's body at that. Lying facing Mummy, looking into her closed eyes, the beauty of her face. I lifted myself up a little, leaning over I kissed her sweet nose saying, "I love you Mummy." then sliding back beside her. I know this is what she wanted, I now knew I was also wanting to do it. Ever so faintly I let my fingers touch over the bra covered breast. Between my thumb and forefinger, gently I freed it from her body, pulling the soft article towards my own breast. Holding it, treasuring it, like it's a gift from heaven, its warmth, along with the aroma of Mummy's perfume. I wanted to kiss it, leave it resting over my face. I couldn't, Mummy might think I'm just a perverted little boy, so I let it go free. Focussing back on Mummy's firm breast, her nipples also standing pert. Gingerly I let my right hand drift back, my fingers fondling across just under her breasts. Then circling slowly, softy around the base of each, before taking the next major step for one gay sissy. Yes!!! I crept my fingertips up over one then the other of Mummy's vulnerable breasts. I could now hear sweet sights of rejoice in my ear. Looking to her I saw closed eyes, I guess savouring this moment. Before touching the pert nipples, I seemed to lean over the beautiful body beside me. Resting both hands lovingly over her two unyielding breasts, gently I began massaging them in much the same way I have with Denise's albeit smaller breast. "Oh sweet Jessica, Mommy is loving your soft touch." I heard her whispering. All the while lying eyes closed, cherishing my first romantic intimacy with my mother. It didn't take long till little fingertips were tweaking feverishly over two highly aroused nipples. In turn sending more delightful shivers through her whimpering animated body. Leaving them go free for but seconds, while I leant over to offer one compassionate kiss to Mummy's welcoming lips. Returning to her breasts, only this time I went one step further. From kissing her lips to now offering the same gentle loving kisses to those proud breast. All my trepidation of earlier has now parted, as my lips began kissing passionately. My tongue softly stroking around the girth, before I kissed my way up to flick teasingly over those saucy nipples. The way she held my head, not letting me retreat. Her sweet words of encouragement, I knew she must be satisfied with my effort. I tried looking to her to ask, only she held my head firm. So I just took the next enormous step. Opening my mouth to immerse and begin sucking on her right nipple. By what I could hear, I again knew this is what she loves. At the same time I began thinking. I'm sucking on Mummy's breast just like I'm her baby. That recollection excited me greatly, as I nursed happily savouring this angelic moment. I gathered I wasn't the only one loving this. As the next thing Mummy helped me lie across her lap in such a way as to cradle me at her left breast. All the while stroking my hair, talking sweetly to me. I guess it would of been a good few minutes I lay happily suckling, when I think Mummy's sensitive nipples were getting a little sore Lying back beside her, I knew what she wanted me doing next. Escorting my hand back over her stomach, only taking it lower, brushing on her pretty gold satin panties. My hand froze, my whole body tensed up, I just couldn't do it. After all the excitement of just minutes earlier, it all fell flat for me. Experiencing her breast was so totally different to putting my hand down there. Even my clit had started to subside. "I'm sorry Mummy, I know it's mean of me, but I just can't do that." I said softly while trying not to look at her. Thinking she is going to be mad at me for getting her so aroused, now this. No more than I would likely be. But I just couldn't go there, as much as I'm loving being here in bed with her. Turning to face me, I thought here it comes, ready to tell me what a teaser I am. But no. Instead her left hand came to stroke over my hair, then a kiss was planted on my lips. "Aren't you mad with me Mummy for what I just did?" thinking she wouldn't of kissed me if she was. "No sweetheart, I said to take your time and you did wonderfully. Only I thought you might of been a little more Bi, like Denise is." "Does that mean I won't be able to sleep with you and Denise now. Because I would really love to and I promise I won't get in your way." "Don't even think that silly. I said we would love to have you sleep with us some nights. That doesn't mean we're going to have some sort of orgy. Just the three of us girls sleeping together." I was then pulled into a lovely embrace. We both just lay there, guess each with our own thoughts. Resting my head comfortable beside Mummy's, I must say I was feeling ashamed for not doing what Mummy would of liked. But deep within me, I knew I just couldn't indulge myself. I love lying here with her and what I had done. In a slight vein of hope making Mummy realize I love her deeply, I softly asked. "Mummy can I put my arms around you please, I love you so very much." "Oh my ever sweet Jessica, I know you do and Mummy loves you. Now cuddle in close as you were before." I didn't need a second invitation. In no time my arms were resting either side of her, almost lying on top. I placed light kisses over her lips, nose, cheeks, wherever they happened to land. I could feel her breast against my much smaller ones. "Does Denise .......... you know......ummm..... does she suck on your nipples like I did?" I asked. "Yes she does and loves it as I know you did. I also love sucking on hers just the same." "I felt like your baby when I lay in your arms sucking on them before. I liked sucking on Denise's also, I can't wait till mine grow out some." I said enthusiastically. Squeezing her arms tighter around me, she told me, I am her baby and I can suckle her breast anytime. In a way I was now feeling a little more relaxed, knowing I'm forgiven for not touching down below. After another shower, I did my own hair and makeup, which made me feel proud. Because Mummy didn't have to do any touch ups of either. Dressed in a new lightweight woolen maroon tartan pleated skirt with a long sleeved white chiffon blouse. Which in turn was finished off with a plain maroon silk scarf, knotted behind and under the collar. So it hung V shape in front. The image in the mirror was so neat, as you could see the gloss of my lovely white satin petticoat, with frothy lace of the bra showing through my chiffon blouse. Oh how I would loved to be wearing Denise's silicon pads underneath. There was no gaff today, just a lovely big bow tied around the base of clitty. A sweet gold chain anklet adorned my ankle, displaying little contrast to my light tan stockings and black two inch heels. Mother and daughter both smelling of beautiful perfume, we left the house. Next stop the special girls school or is it now, for another visit to the Doctor. Driving up this long windy driveway we arrived at the main entrance of the school. Which looks more like an old large three story country homestead. I could just imagine the class of people that lived here years ago. The lovely garden parties out on these lawns. All the Ladies dressed in the most gorgeous of gowns, the gentlemen also handsomely attired. On entering the main door, reception was right before us. After telling her we had an appointment with the Doctor. See gave me a charming smile, guess she would of known what I'm here to see the Doctor for. Looking on her computer she said, "Oh here we are you must me Jessica Peterson, am I right?" "Yes I am." I replied shyly. "Once you've seen the Doctor, I see there is an appointment to see the Governess afterwards." another cheerful smile came our way, followed by directions to the Doctors rooms. I was hoping to see Annabel, but being only 2:20pm guess they would all still be in class. At least I saw Denise hard at work, on our way towards the medical centre. I was surprise to see a couple of boys sitting there. No not Sissy girly-boys like myself, boys just in a boys school uniform. Long navy trousers, white shirt with red and white diagonal striped ties, they looked really smart. Guess these are the gay boys Denise was telling me about this morning. Not knowing then, what sort of remarks to expect from them, I sat shyly close to Mummy. No there was none, they looked, smiled, then said hello to Mummy and myself like it's an everyday occurrence. Sitting opposite them feeling a little nervous, not wanting to look straight at them. Yet I did want too, as they were both rather cute about 15 or 16 I would say. "Are you just starting school." the red head boy asked. "Oh, I'm William by the way and this is Richard." "I'm pleased to meet you both. I'm Jessica and this is my mother." I shyly replied. "No she's not starting school yet. Jessica just has to see the doctor today, but will be starting in a couple of weeks possible." Mummy said for me. "You'll like it here, it's so much better than normal schools. Everyone is friendly we have a lot of fun, specially with the girls. We only started on Monday and we all seem to fit in so well. Guess it's because we all have so much in common." Williams said. "And no one wants to bashes you for being what you are." added Richard. I was curious to know why, so asked "Are you cross dresses or just gay?" "Oh we're Gay, there is seven of us here, we've all just started. Although it's mainly girls like yourself. They started taking gay boys also, who weren't strong enough to take the beatings any longer." Richard said as tears came to his eyes, at the same time William took hold of his hand. "I know what you mean, I'm also gay and have been through the same sort of problems." I said. I guess Richard must of had some beatings, the poor boy. I was about to ask if they knew Annabel, only the nurse called them into the other room. All I got a chance to say was, "I'm looking forward to being here now and meeting up with you both in a couple of weeks." "So you're all keen to start school again now, are we. So different to the other day when I said about wanting you to come. What on earth changed your mind?" Mummy said with a big grin. "Well, girls are allowed to change their minds sometimes. I believe it's a woman's prerogative." I said smiling to her. "Jessica Peterson?" came from a door next to the one the boys went through. Nervously I stood looking and hoping Mummy would follow suite. Yes she did thankfully. With our greeting over Mummy and I sat in silence while the Doctor scanned through my file. "Yes, now come give me a look at you young lady." he said while standing. I did likewise going towards him. Taking a flat spoon thing and a small torch, he proceeded to look down my throat. With the inspection complete I was ushered into another room where a video camera was set up. "Now I want you to sit here and say your name and date. Then read a couple of paragraphs from this book for me in your normal voice." he instructed me. As I sat a little nervously, scanning quickly what I was to read. I was told not to be nervous, it's just for a comparison for later. That's OK for him to say, he's not sitting here in front of a camera. It wasn't like making a movie, as it was all over in one take. After which he let me view a couple of others that have also had their voices softened or should I say feminized. Just listening to them made me pleased I said I wanted it done. A date was set for Tuesday two weeks from now. "It's a very quick, simple operation, about three or five minutes only. But after you won't be allowed to speak for a couple of days. Then the hard work begins with one on one speech training. In a week or so you won't recognize this old voice of yours." I was told with an assuring smile. After enquiring how my special food and hormone cream are going, we were on our way. But not before being reminded of Monday evening in two weeks. I looked at him, "I thought you said Tuesday two weeks." "Yes but you have to be here on Monday so we can make sure there is no eating or drinking before hand." talk about trying to starve a girl. Our next stop was to see the Governess of the school. As Mummy wanted to enrol me starting that Monday prior to my operation. Must say the Governess seemed a very nice woman. But don't they all before you actually start school, then lookout!!!! She told us about having some gay boys here now, one of the reasons is financial for the school. As well, to help these boys who have been beaten up because of being *different.* In the same way the school was established to help boys such as Jessica here. With that remark she gave me a big smile. Then I was reminded I won't see much of them, because I'm not doing the normal school syllabus. My program will consist of speech training, dance and a course of understanding your new body. I had to ask what she meant by *My new body* No, I'm not about to be changed in any way. It's more noticing the way girls act differently to boys, so there is nothing for me to worry about. Great!! At least I got to saying Hello to Denise before leaving. Which was wonderful as she introduced me as her sister to some of the other staff members. As she has her own car, plus is to see the Doctor herself, Mummy and I headed home again. I was feeling quite happy about everything. If I sound as good as those other girls after their voice change, I'll be delighted. I don't know whether we flew home or what, but we seemed to be here in a shorted time than I expected. Maybe my mind was to busy thinking of what is lying ahead for me. I know I couldn't get the thought of learning Ballet out of my head, I love Ballet and often wished I could dance so delicately. While having our cups of tea Mummy and I check our mail, which I hadn't had time to do for a few days. As expected I had a couple from the ever sweet Annabel of course, one telling me all about having these gorgeous gay boys at school now. Plus another one from Andrew wanting to know how I'm getting on. Decided to write to Annabel first, as there is so much to tell her. Like going dress shopping yesterday and all those gorgeous clothes. Then of course my visit to the school today to see the Doctor. But mostly about meeting those two cute boys William and Richard and how I'm now looking forward to starting school albeit for only a few weeks. I think Mummy was beginning to wonder what I was writing, as I had to have little giggles every so often. Just thinking of what Annabel will write back. Once I'd finished writing to Annabel and Andrew, I let Mummy read them before sending them off. Only the one to Andrew, Mummy said to delete and ring them tonight, as we'll have to make plans to return their cases. Once dinner was over, well Mummy's and Denise's anyway, as you wouldn't call my food `dinner.' I rang my old flat and spoke with both Andrew and Shane, it was really great to hear their voices again. I asked if it would be alright if I took their cases back over the weekend. Seems Saturday morning would be the best time, as their new flatmate will be moving in late Saturday afternoon. I was pleased to hear Shane ask if I'll wear a dress, as they both are looking forward to see Jessica the girl. I tried to say, well I've sent you both a photo of me as a girl, won't that do? Seems not they want to be able to touch not just look at a photo. OK as long as you behave yourselves, I'm a young Lady now, I tried to tell him. Ya right, was the response I got. Shane then asked if Margaret was about, he wanted to speak with her. Gee!!! if I knew what he wanted to ask, I would never let them speak. Like is she having trouble getting me to bed before midnight. Plus another couple of equally embarrassing questions, I was pleased to hear her say I'm no trouble getting to bed. But to add, she has me in bed by 9:30pm of a night. I could just imagine what Shane had said to make Mummy laugh and look my way. At least he told her they are looking forward to seeing me on Saturday. He must of asked if Denise would be coming also, as Mummy said no it'll just be me and Jessica. Denise is staying at a friends place Friday night. That made me overjoyed knowing they must like Denise, to ask if she'll be coming. Yes, on cue I was sent of to start getting ready for bed. Denise said she'll be up soon to help me. I guess that is so we can talk about being veiled, like I mentioned to her this morning. Well I hope that is so. A short time later Denise arrived, just in time to brush out my hair for me, I love that, specially now that it's getting longer. Yes she did want to talk about being veiled, and is delighted that I appreciated the tantalizing experience. She can't wait till we can be together to enjoy each other fully veiled. Unfortunately it'll have to wait for at least a week. I was now about to be hit with another girly experience I never thought of. More to the point knew anything about. Yes! I know girls have their monthly periods, once they reach puberty and why. But for a transvestite to also be having menstrual cycles? Well Denise explained all to me. "No it's not a normal everyday sort of thing. I and many others take these pills which help them experience almost the same sort of emotions. You'll learn a lot more about it when you start school, as that is a big part of the *understanding your body* subject." Seems like all your sensitive parts get even more sensitive, you get cramps and leak. You can't even play with your clitty for the 7 days. Hearing all that I had to ask why do it, if you don't have to? Her response was. "It helps you understand women's feelings and emotions better. After those seven days, you know you want to go through it again." She said, "One could say it's much like when a woman has a baby. In the pains of childbirth, she swears she'll never go through that again. But after she's given birth and holds that precious baby that she has given life too, all that pain has vanished. Well it is just a teensy weeny, little bit like that, do you understand?" ** I guess I'll understand much better once Denise starts her within the next day or two. Or once I learn more at school. I asked her if Annabel has menstrual cycle? Seems she has had a couple, something else I must ask Annabel about. Wonder if Mummy has plans for me to be more girl like, I thought to myself. This is also why she won't be coming to see Andrew and Shane. What Mummy said was an easy way of saying Denise won't be able to visit. I'll also have a week to wait for an erotic night veiled in those divine satin scarfs. The wait will be worth it I'm sure. In bed I was quite contented just to be wearing my pretty nighty and mittens. Having Princess and Cuddles beside me, while I have so many things I need to think over, after today. As much as I love having Denise milking me, I was quite satisfied with just a lovely kiss and cuddle. Then offering my hands to Denise for my mittens to be fastened on and keep me safe overnight. Lying with my teddies in hand, I started thinking first about what Denise has just told me. Having monthly periods, wonder if I could handle it. Well if Annabel can I might be able too, there again it'll help me be so much more feminine. So if Mummy asks if I'd like to go on those pills, guess I'll say Yes!. I struggled with conflicting emotions over what happened in Mummy's bed this morning. It's something I never thought would occur. I know I was contented once I touched her breast, then even suckled those lovely titties. But to go lower, is a thing I could never do. OK. I want to dress and act womanlike, be treated like a young girl, but that is all, I love sex with males. Looking at myself, I suddenly realized how selfish I am. After all Mummy has done, and is still doing for me. I could still be living in the flat wanking myself off, still just dreaming of wearing all these adorable dresses and more. Things I'd done even in these few days, would never of happened, had it not been for Mummy taking me in. I would never of enjoyed myself the same as I did just last night, had I not been here. And I'm with two people who love me more than I could ever of visualized. Would I ever of met my gorgeous friend Annabel, who is everything I wish to be. Had it not been for Mummy. I cuddled my teddies in close, kissing them, hoping for an answer from them to my dilemma. It still didn't come. Over the night I kept waking up thinking the same thoughts. It's amazing how lots of wonderful ideas come to you in the we dark hours of the night. After a restless night, I woke via a sweet kiss to my cheek from a beautiful perfumed smelling girl, named Denise. I turned to see her wearing a lovely baby blue satin blouse, the long sleeves were finished off with a good three inch cuff. Around her neck hung a two strand pearl neckless. The skirt was a just above the knee length charcoal gray in a fine woolen fabric. Her hair brushed out and lightly sprayed, what can I say, but she looked stunning. Quickly I put my arms out wanting a hug before she's off to work. Oh how I love living here with Denise and Mummy. "Is Mummy up yet?" I asked. "No she is still in bed, why?" "Will you ask her if I can go and talk with her, now?" "You don't have to ask silly, come on up you get and into Aunty you go. Let me take those mittens off first, shall I." "No they are alright, I like wearing them really." as I put my slippers on. Hand in hand we headed to Mummy's room, "Someone wants to talk with her Mummy." Denise said before kissing both of us goodbye. "What is it darling." as she patted the bed, inviting me to sit beside her. "Better still get between the sheets to keep warm." That I happily did, making myself comfortable, right where Denise had spent the night. "Wouldn't Denise take your mittens off for you?" "Yes, but I like wearing in bed." I said with a smiling. "Now what is on your mind, that couldn't wait till we were having breakfast." she said while lightly squeezing my cheek. "Well I've been thinking, umm .... Please just listen me out before saying anything, won't you." "Yes, OK." she responded with a what's this all about, look on her face. "When I was in bed with you yesterday morning, it was all very strange to me. Being in bed with a lady for a start. As you know I freaked out some, when my hand got escorted down there. I've never touched any woman like that before, never. Then in bed last night thinking it all over, I realized how disgustingly selfish I am. To you of all people, who have given me everything and done so much for me. You give me so much pleasure when you milk my clitty. Yet I was to selfish to do something for you and possible would help me. I know I can't go down there like, umm ........ with you naked. Or use my thing to you know what? Does Denise ..... uummm ..... you know........... Oh God, please help me say something." I seemed to just lose everything I had thought to say. With my hesitation, Mummy pulled me into her arms cuddling and kissing me in such a lovely way. No not sensually, more mother child sort of way, like she has a few times before. A way that makes you feel loved and wanted. As I lay back beside her, she said in a soft caring voice, "Jessica my sweet, God has helped you say enough to make me know how charming you are. No you are not selfish, I know how this is all new to you. But I wanted to help you to be more comfortable seeing me naked, as I am with you and with Denise. Now as for *Does Denise you know ...........* I guess you're meaning does she enjoy making love to me in an intermit way. Well yes she does, I thought you knew that already?" while giving me a sweet smile. "Yes I do, but see that is another reason I couldn't ........... you know, even if I were straight. Because that is something specially beautiful between Denise and you." I said. "You know it was Denise who said to write to you at the start. She also wants to share with you as much as I do. You have *You know what* with Denise haven't you? And don't be to shy to said the words, had sexual intercourse. Is that understood? Now come give Mummy a big cuddle." I was told. Wrapped lovingly in each others arms, I couldn't help but tell her over and over how much I love being here, being her daughter. I realized as did Mummy, how my mittens were getting in the way. So was ever so pleased when she suggested they come off. Wonderful, I can now caress through her lovely, soft, silky hair, feel the softness of her face. "Mummy can I touch your breast, like yesterday, Please?" I whispered softly in her ear. "Yes you can, but you don't have to ask Mummy, sweetheart." while helping me lower the shoulder straps of her nighty. In no time my warm delicate hands were again caressing each breast. Showing the same love and affection to them as I had to her hair, her face. I wanted to kiss them, lick them, suckle on those firm titties again. I wonder if I'm taking to much for granted If I just do it. I'm sure she'll push me off if I am, I thought. So decided to go for it. Holding Mummy by the shoulders, I started kissing over her face, nose, ears, lips, her chin, finishing up at my target, Mummy's breast. Warm gentle loving kisses I placed all over each breast. I let my moist tongue flitter ever so lightly over each, while blowing just as softly my warm breath over each. There was no checking my bold advance, the quiet moans told me she is cherishing this moment as much as I am. The gentle touch of a hand over my hair, along with sweet loving words to her Jessica, confirmed Mummy's approval. I felt so childlike taking her titty between my lips, suckling with not a care in the world. After a little suckle on one, my eager mouth was directed towards the other. That's a good girl she said while holding the breast as I got comfortable. "I can see what my little girl loves." I heard her say. I smiled to myself know how true those words were, I felt so contented knowing I'm allowed to do this. Placing each strap comfortable back over Mummy's shoulders, I then lay back beside her. I again decided to let my hand caress gently over her sweet nighty covered body. Working from the breast downwards in the most desirable way I could, I hoped. Slowly, teasingly I went from side to side. My hand stopped over her navel, my middle finger lovingly circled it a few times. As I thought how significant this little thing is between mother and child. I don't know if Mummy knew what I was thinking, when she said "That is so lovely Jessica." I looked up smiling to her, only to see closed eyes on one beautiful face. The light must of turned green, as my hand started on its pilgrimage once again. All this time I could hear sweet words of encouragement from above, as I got closer. Caressing over the satin nighty covered upper left leg, before teasing her inner thigh with my fingertips. Parting her legs a little further, along with faint whimpers, I knew Mummy must be in a state of ecstasy. I placed a few affectionate kisses to her right arm, before letting my fingers tease likewise to her right upper leg and thigh. All this time Mummy just lay still while I lovingly gave her the attention she deserves and should of received yesterday morning. Suddenly I seemed to get those nervous fluters in my stomach, knowing I'm so close. I can't turn back now, hearing the soft murmurs and words from Mummy, gave me the strength and added motivation I required. Kissing softly over where I've just caressed, before taking hold of her limp right hand in my left, raising it towards my lips, I kissed it with all the love and passion I could muster. With eyes still closed, a sweet smile came to the face of my mother. I knew I was doing no wrong, we were both savouring this beautiful moment of adoration. Slowly I coaxed my right hand up to brush over Mummy's sacred part. Closing my eyes I began fondling gently over the satin nighty overlaying her vaginal lips. All this time my clit didn't get past a semi erect state. As much as I tried, I couldn't bring myself to touch under Mummy's nighty. Caressing back up over her lower stomach, kissing lovingly on her breast. Then fondling back towards her vaginal lips, in hope of going further this time to please. But no, I just couldn't do it, I had to keep the nighty between my hand and her intimate part. Mummy knew I could go no further, as she turned towards me, pulling me into her arms. "You have done well sweetheart, I know how hard it must be for you." as she ran a finger over my lips. Wrapping my arms around her resting my head on her shoulder. With tears of disappointment welling up in my eyes, I tried to apologise for being so inept. "You don't have to apologise dear, give Mummy a lovely kiss and cuddle." that I had no trouble in doing. In no time, two satin sheathed bodies lay entwined in carnal bliss, kissing, caressing lovingly over each others. After awhile we lay together exhausted, before drifting off to sleep again for what must of been a good hour. Only to be woken by the sound of the telephone, fortunately the answer machine took the message. So whoever didn't know they had just woken mother and daughter from a beautiful togetherness sleep. In a subdued whisper I asked, "Mummy can I kiss over your beautiful body, as I did with my hands?" "You can do what you wish my sweetheart." while giving me a loving smile, as she lay relaxed. As I had but an hour or so earlier, my soft sissy lips began kissing passionately over Mummy's graceful satin enclosed body. From one to the other breast, each beckoning nipple, my mouth worked slowly downwards, not missing any part of the warm beauty beneath my craving lips. From one thigh to the other I kissed with much reverence. There left but one most precious part of Mummy to be worshipped. Without a second thought I lay my mouth adoringly over her satin concealed vagina. Our togetherness did help a great deal, I wasn't so shy watching Mummy drying herself after her shower. While having breakfast I mentioned about talking with Denise last night about wearing the satin scarfs. Mummy thinks it would be wonderful, knowing how Denise really loves her face veiled in satin scarfs. I also asked about having monthly periods like Denise is about to have, and will I be having them. Seems I should wait till I do the `Understanding your body' course, then we'll talk about it. ** I hope no one will take what I wrote about comparing a woman in childbirth with a TV taking those Menstrual pill as anything similar. Because I'm not and never would try to compare. I believe a woman giving birth is a most wonderful thing. So I hope you read it as such. I think this could be the final Chapter of this story. I have a lot more I'd like to write. But I don't know if anyone is reading it, so am I wasting my time writing. Julian Irwin.