Date: Wed, 15 Oct 2014 18:29:20 -0400 From: Rose Red <7754.rp@gmail.com> Subject: Joni.7 JONI, PART 7 "Are you still my little girl?" asked Barbara as she gently awakened Joni with a kiss on the forehead. He looked so angelic that she was tempted to insist that he continue his transition, whether he wanted to or not. But she knew that would be wrong, she had to allow her son to choose his own path. So, she was hoping for the best, but was prepared for the worst. "Oh, mommy, of course I am. That is, if you will allow it. I dreamed that you disapproved and made me return to being a boy. I've never cried in a dream before." Barbara's heart swelled with love. "Oh, my darling little girl. I love you so much." She leaned down and hugged Joni. "Does that mean that you want to continue with the transition? You know I'll love you just as much if you've changed your mind," Barbara said, opening the door to the events of the previous night. "I think I really became a girl yesterday, mommy. Everything felt so natural and I was completely comfortable as a girl. The way I was treated by Susan and Bobby; and the way you treated me last night, made me realize that I am a girl, but with an extra special addition. I never want to be thought of as a boy again. I am a girl, mommy; I want to be your little girl forever." Their eyes locked in a loving stare. Barbara saw the sincerity and maturity in Joni's eyes. How quickly the transition had been made in a mental and emotional sense. It was like a toggle had been switched from boy to girl. His face radiated with feminine beauty now, not a trace of masculinity. And his eyes showed the confidence of his commitment; not a hint of doubt or worry. She knew it was right what he was doing; and now she knew that he also knew it was right. "Are you anxious about meeting Dr. Goodly this morning?" "A little. What if he doesn't agree to help me?" "We don't have to worry about that happening. Anyway, he's not the only doctor, you know. But he does come highly recommended. We'll just see what he has to say and go from there. OK?" "OK. I've got to pee." "Alright. I'll help you but then we have to prepare you for your visit." Joni slid out of bed and displayed a nearly full erection. Since he wasn't wearing any panties, it projected straight out, supporting the hem of his teddy. Barbara was almost overcome by his sexual allure. A beautiful young girl with a beautiful erect penis. It was almost too much as she watched it sway on the way to the bathroom. Joni seemed to pay it no attention, instead focusing on the feel of the teddy and his bra inserts on his skin. The feminine had truly surpassed the masculine in his psyche. And it was not just the sexual pleasure that he received from dressing as a girl, it was the total fulfillment of his destiny. Being a boy was now foreign; being a girl was his God given condition. There was no turning back. "I know the doctor wants me to forego breakfast and to dress myself. Is that what you mean by prepare?" "There's one other item," said Barbara as Joni sat on the toilet and allowed her to point his penis down. "I am to give you an enema this morning. I suppose he will give you a complete physical, and an enema makes sure you're clean back there." As he squeezed the last drops out, she released his penis and went to the medicine closet and returned with an enema bag and hose. He had never seen an enema bag before, and it had been years since she had administered one. "Stay on the toilet, honey, while I prepare this." She reached in the medicine chest and got out the Vaseline while she mixed the warm water and gentle soap in the bag. She decided to add some mild perfume to the solution at the last moment. Joni watched the whole process with rapt attention. "Girls sometimes have to wash out their vagina and this is kind-of like that, dear. That's called a douche. An enema is like that except that its goes in a different hole. It fills you up with the fluid and cleans you out." As a nurse, Barbara knew that there is often a fine line between a medical procedure and a sexual procedure. She knew quite well that the anus can be an extremely sensitive erogenous area; and even though the hose nozzle was no bigger than her index finger, she was about to perform an act of insertion into Joni's anus. This was a medical act with clear sexual overtones. She could provide lubrication either on the nozzle as a medical procedure or directly on the anus as a sexual act. As she knelt in front of Joni, the enema bag hanging from the shower, she looked up at him and their eyes met. He was trusting her completely to do what was right and necessary. But she could only think about his beautiful anus, how she would like to touch it and administer to it directly. She thought about sliding her finger in and out several times, to make sure he was properly prepared, and then inserting the nozzle fully and holding it there while she let the fluid flow. These fantasies raced through her head as she held the Vaseline in one hand and the nozzle in the other. And then she took the dab of lubricant and applied it liberally to the nozzle, trying not to make it look like a sexual act. "Now I'm going to slide this up your rear darling, and then I'll let the water in. I want you to squeeze real hard once I have the nozzle fully in so you don't let any water out until I say it's OK." "Yes, mommy." "Now, relax the muscles back there, dear," directed Barbara as she touched the nozzle to his anus. She couldn't help but toy gently with the opening, circling the sensitive tissue and lubricating the opening. "I'm going to slide it in now, sweetie." Joni gasp slightly as the nozzle slid in without resistance. He adjusted his position on the toilet seat so as to pull his cheeks further apart. Barbara's hand lingered on the hose as the nozzle was fully inserted, resisting the temptation to work the nozzle in and out. Slowly she released the water and watched Joni respond to the warm liquid entering his bowels. Barbara looked for signs of discomfort; she only saw slight surprise and then apparent pleasure as his bowels were expanded. "How does that feel, dear? The bag is about half empty." "It feels OK, mommy. I'm beginning to feel full, though." "A little discomfort is normal dear. I want you to take it all so that you're nice and clean for the doctor. I'll stop it here for a while and let you adjust." Barbara slid her hand up the hose to reach the end of the top of the nozzle and Joni's anus. She felt around for leakage and detected none. "You're doing great, honey. Are you ready for some more?" "I guess so." Barbara released the remaining fluid and gently squeezed the bag to empty it. Joni was now visibly bloated. Barbara pinched off the tube and then reached down to remove the nozzle. "When I pull it out, honey, try not to let anything out yet." Joni now sat on the toilet seat looking down at his extended stomach, squeezing his opening as tightly as he could. He felt funny but also there was a certain level of pleasure from the attention being paid to this area. He wanted to be as fresh and clean as possible, inside and out; he had been penetrated just like a girl, he thought, and he was receiving a douche just like a girl. He wondered if they actually got pleasure from the procedure the way he was. Joni's penis had first relaxed completely with the insertion and the flow of the fluids; but as the procedure progressed, his penis first retracted slightly and then as his bowels expanded, so did his penis. Squeezing the anus also flexed the penis. Holding his anus tight meant continual flexing of his penis. The result was an erection just strong enough to project outward; his mother had brushed it when removing the nozzle, although she appeared to ignore the contact. Barbara noticed Joni's penis, but also noticed his extended stomach. She reached up to rub it gently. "Just a little bit longer, dear," said Barbara as she reached under her son's penis to touch his anus to make sure he wasn't leaking. "You're doing great. Just little bit longer." His mother continued to rub his stomach in a soothing manner. She then reached down and gently touched his penis. "This can't be that uncomfortable. It seems like you might be enjoying this." Joni didn't respond except to blush slightly and look away. His penis was again embarrassing him. He had responded sexually to a medical procedure. And the embarrassment was enhancing the sexual response. He could feel the erection growing stronger and stronger; he thought he had gained control of himself but this proved otherwise. His blush turned into a full red-face; he felt so ashamed that he now had a full erection, pointing directly at his mother's face while she was administering to his enema. "OK, dear, try to release it slowly. We don't want it to splatter." Joni did as his mother told him and relaxed his anus just enough to allow for a slight trickle. But it felt so good, so stimulating to have a steady flow of warmth pass out of him. "That's it, dear. Now, relax a little bit more." Joni did as told. His penis jerked in response and the flow from behind increased. There was no concealing the sexuality of it all - his mother watching as his penis pulsed with the flow of the enema water; the pleasure of the expulsion of the warm fluid; the embarrassed ecstasy that showed on his face. "OK, dear, now force out the rest," directed Barbara as she flushed the toilet for the last time. Fully relaxing his anus produced a relief that nearly gave Joni a climax. When it was over, Barbara gently wiped Joni's back side and saw that it was clear liquid. "That should do it, sweetie. There is one more thing I want to do before you jump in the shower. Let's clean that peach fuzz off your legs and from under your arms. You don't want the doctor to think you aren't fully feminine; and any girl interested in high heels should be interested in clean smooth legs. Let's put this cream on." Barbara lovingly applied the depilatory, covering Joni's legs up to his scrotum, and to his underarms. He responded as if it were part of a massage. "We need to let this work for about five minutes and then you can wash it off in the shower." Barbara washed her hands and then squatted down next to Joni. "You will really like the way your legs feel shaved. So clean and fresh. Makes you want to show them off. And you have beautiful legs, Joni." Joni's erection grew stronger as his mother spoke. It reminded him of that first morning when his mother comforted him with her compliments. He again felt so reassured and confident of her love. They embraced the silence for a time, but then Barbara could not resist the temptation to touch Joni's penis. It pulsed with her touch. "We don't have enough time to take care of this," she whispered. "Can you save it until we return?" "Oh, yes, mommy. I'm sorry; it's just being here like this with you just makes me feel so good. " "And it makes me feel so good, also, my darling little girl. But, we are getting short on time, so I'll leave you alone to shower and get ready for your appointment. Let me know if you want me to help you with your make-up. Don't dally; we need to leave within the hour. And don't wash your hair; we don't have time for it to dry. Do you want me to wait until your erection subsides or can I trust you alone?" Regaining composure, Joni responded, "Oh, mom. You don't have to stay; I don't do that anymore." With that, Barbara grabbed the enema bag and left the bathroom. Joni quickly jumped in the shower. Alone, he paid particular attention to his back-side. Touching his anus with soapy fingers he discovered how sensitive it was to his own touch. He lingered in exploration, as if he had uncovered a new source of pleasure. This attention was having a definite effect on his penis; it seemed that washing his anus was more stimulating than washing his genitals. He barely regained control and finished with the shower. Pink satin panties and bra were his choice; nothing too sexy but very feminine. A blue sundress to accent his eyes, and sandals completed the young lady look. His mother was right, his legs felt fantastic and he now thought the dress might be a bit too long. He admired his legs in the mirror. He decided to have his mother do his make-up, and she could tuck his penis as well. He brushed his hair then stood back from the mirror. He loved the look, but he also loved the feel of his semi-erect penis pressed against his stomach by the satin panties. Something extremely naughty about his appearance and his erection. He couldn't help but think of himself briefly as a sexual creature - the best of both worlds. He quickly vanished the thought - he was a girl who just happened to have an extra special addition. The extra addition wasn't important; the important thing was that he was a girl. "Can I help you with your makeup, honey? Oh, Joni, you look lovely. Turn around slowly and let me look at you. Was I right about your legs?" "You sure were. I feel so much more feminine now. And, yes, please do my makeup." Joni sat at the vanity and Barbara did just enough to accent Joni's beauty but not enough to take away from the innocence. Some eyebrow plucking and eyeliner completed the look. When she finished, Barbara stood back as Joni inspected himself. Not a trace of boy was evident. He turned and faced his mother. "Do you think the doctor will like me, mommy?" "I think he will love you, dear. Just be yourself and you're a shoe-in." "I don't know what I'll do if he won't help." "Just be yourself, dear, and don't worry about a thing." "Will you tuck me in, mommy?" "Certainly, dear." Joni lifted his dress hem up to reveal his penis projecting slightly above his panties. Barbara reached in and gently pushed it down to between his legs, lingering to adjust its position. "How does that feel, honey?" "I liked it better before you removed your hand!" "Now, now. We haven't any time to spare. Smooth out your dress and let's get going. Are you a little nervous about going outside for the first time?" "Very nervous." "No need, honey. The car is in the garage and we are to park in a secluded spot behind the doctor's building." With that, Barbara planted a light kiss on Joni's lips and then led her downstairs to the car. The trip to Dr. Goodly's was as uneventful as Barbara expected. Joni fidgeted all the way, but Barbara thought this was more to do with the anticipation of the appointment than the exposure. When they pulled into the parking lot, they noticed only one other car. Barbara pulled around back and parked; she hesitated to get out and looked over at Joni. "You look beautiful, Joni. You have no reason to be afraid - unless, that is, you're having second thoughts." "Oh, mommy. I'm suddenly confused. I've never felt more feminine, never more convinced that I am a girl. But, what if he doesn't agree; what if I don't convince him? I'm scared." "Don't be scared; just be yourself. Everything will work out. He'll love you; and, I think you will like him. Just be yourself." With that, Barbara got out of the car and waited for Joni. He hesitated briefly, and then slowly got out and walked around to meet his mom. Barbara took his hand and led him through the back door. "Hello. Hello?" said Barbara as they entered. Dr. Goodly came from out of the side door to his office. "Wonderful! Hello, Barbara. You're right on time. And this must be Joni. Lovely. Please come in to my office." "Thank you, doctor," replied Barbara. Joni just nodded his head and followed his mother in. "Please have a seat." There were two comfortable chairs set in front of Dr. Goodly's desk. As Barbara and Joni sat, the doctor went around to his chair. "Joni, your mother has told me a little about you. She was very persuasive because I must say I normally don't see 14-year olds." Shock showed on Barbara's face. "Do you know that your mother told me you were 16, Joni?" "No, sir." "She did, and I suspect it was because she was afraid I wouldn't see someone younger. Now she knows that I'm very careful about who I treat. And she should know that 16 or 14, it doesn't matter - you must get her permission before I can do anything for you. So I will forgive her this once because I know she lied to assist you. But, if we are going to go any further, you - and your mother - must know that we must be completely honest with each other. If I detect any element of dishonesty, I will immediately terminate the relationship. Am I clear?" "Yes sir." "Barbara, do I make myself clear?" "Yes, doctor." "Good. Now, Joni, why are you here?" "My mom says you can help me." "Help you how?" "Help me be who I am." "Please, Joni, don't be shy; and above all, be honest. Remember, what we say here is completely confidential. I am a doctor and I am sworn to keep in confidence anything we talk about in private. So, what would you like for me to do to help you be who you are?" "I'm not really a girl, doctor. I mean, I'm not really a boy. On the inside I am a girl. Even though I am still learning about things, I know that I really am a girl. I was born a boy, so on the outside, I appear to be a boy." "Joni, I must say, you don't appear to be a boy to me. And you don't act like a boy. You are very lovely and feminine. Are you not happy with that?" "I'm happy, doctor, but not satisfied. I want to live the rest of my life as a girl, not as a boy who can appear to be a girl." Joni crossed his legs at the thigh and shifted in his seat. He looked down at his legs, now revealed up to mid-thigh, and adjusted his hem down slightly. "I would like to become a girl, doctor." "Well, I can't do that for you, Joni." Joni's heart sank. Disappointment showed on his face. "What I mean by that, Joni and Barbara, is that I don't do sex-change operations. I cannot and will not go to that extreme. I won't even refer you to another physician if that's what you want." "That's not what he means, doctor," volunteered Barbara. "I don't think there will ever be that possibility. But short of that, I think what he means is feminization - female enhancement short of genital alteration." "Is that right, Joni? " asked Dr. Goodly. "Exactly what do you want, then?" "I want to be seen and accepted for what I am, doctor - a girl. I don't want to be a male in female clothing. I want to be a female with a penis," blurted Joni. He caught himself and blushed with embarrassment at the assertion. "Good, Joni. There's no need to be embarrassed. This is part of my medical practice and I have heard all of this many times before. I just had to hear it from you so there can be no misunderstanding." Barbara looked over at Joni with encouragement. Joni regained composure and looked at Dr. Goodly. "I want to continue my transition, doctor, and I hope you can help me do that. I am not confused or unsure about this; I know who I am inside and who I want to be on the outside. Please help me become whom I am." Dr. Goodly sat back in his chair and took a moment to absorb what he had just heard. He was the youngest client - he refrained from calling them patients since there was nothing medically wrong with them - he had ever considered. Yet, he was thoroughly convinced that Joni was the most assured about his desires. He could hear it in his voice and see it in his demeanor. He really was beautifu and seemed to be completely natural as a girl. Even the voice had a feminine quality. "OK, the next step is a physical, which I can perform in the adjacent examination room. Barbara, it you will wait here, let me show Joni where to go and what to do, and then I want to talk to you." With that, Dr. Goodly took Joni's hand and led him through another door into an examination room. "I want you to get undressed, Joni, and put on this robe. You can put your clothes on this clothes tree. And then have a seat on this examination table. I'll be back shortly." The doctor returned to his office and closed the door behind him. "I'm sorry for trying to deceive you about his age. I just so want him to fulfill his life," said Barbara. "You needn't have worried, as I said. Your permission is required for me to do anything substantive. Which is why I want to speak with you alone before I go forward with the examination." "How can I help?" "I just want to inform you in advance and give you an option to be present." "I want to be present, doctor." "Hear me out, first. My examination is not only a physical, but I have some tests that are very personal. You may not want to witness these tests, and because of their nature, he may not want you present. The exam includes very personal questions and may require very personal behavior." "Joni and I keep nothing from each other, doctor. I have been with him from the very beginning of his transition so I doubt that you will learn anything that I don't already know. I want to be present." "OK, good. I don't want any secrets and I want to make sure you are fully informed if I go forward with this. But you must understand - if you impede the progress of the tests in any way, I will terminate the relationship immediately. Do I make myself clear?" "Yes, doctor. I trust you completely." "Good. Now, follow me." Dr. Goodly got up and opened the door to the examination room and followed Barbara in. Joni was sitting on the examination table, with a light blue thin paper robe barely covering his torso. Barbara sat in the lone wooden chair along the wall. "Jump down from there Joni, and remove the robe," directed the doctor. "That's it; you can give the robe to your mother. Now, let me have a look at you." The doctor turned Joni almost as if he were a ballerina, working from the waist, slowly moving him around as he visually inspected his entire body. Joni had his hands modestly covering his genitals as he turned to face Dr. Goodly. "Now, now, there's no need for that," said Dr. Goodly as he pull Joni's hands away. A look of astonishment crossed his face as he got a full view of Joni's penis; he looked over at Barbara who responded with a telling acknowledgment of his surprise. Fully flaccid and relaxed with the scrotum fully extended, and in such bright examination room lights, Barbara thought it had never looked more magnificent. How could the doctor not be impressed, she thought. Dr. Goodly looked back at Joni and openly stared at his penis for several seconds, "Yes, yes, very nice. You are a size large, Joni. But very nice indeed." He regained his composure and proceeded with some standard tests - blood pressure, heart rate, listening to breathing, etc. And then came the cough test. Dr. Goodly had Joni stand with his legs slightly apart and then he reached under and fondled first one testicle and then the other. Finally, after lingering for what Barbara thought was unnecessarily long, had Joni turn his head and cough. When he finished, he spent a moment massaging the entire scrotum, pulling it downward gently and then cradling the testicles in a soft caress. "You seem quite healthy down there, Joni. Did anything I did cause any discomfort?" "No, sir." "Good," said Dr. Goodly. You appear to be a fine specimen; I mean, you look to be in overall good health. Are there any issues you would like to discuss, Joni?" "No doctor. I really feel fine." "Ok, then, get back up here on the examination table." Joni did as told. "Now I need to ask you some questions, Joni, and perform some tests. These tend to be very personal and may appear to be unconventional. Remember, you must be fully honest with me, Joni. Do you think you would be more comfortable if your mother left the room?" "No, doctor. I love my mother and trust her completely. We have no secrets." Dr. Goodly looked at Barbara and they both smiled briefly. "Ok, good. Let's get started. Please lie back on the table, Joni. Put your head on this little pillow and your feet up here." From each side of the table's end, Dr. Goodly pulled up the metal gynecological stirrups. "These are normally reserved for my female patients, but I find it helps position everything better for my male clients for this type of examination. Now put your feet in each of these stirrups and slide down so that you are at the end of the table. That's it." Dr. Goodly then pulled up his rolling stool and sat between Joni's legs. He glanced over at Barbara to make sure she was paying complete attention. He returned his attention to Joni's genitals, now at eye level. He reached out with one hand and gently cupped his scrotum, and with the other gently pulled his penis aside. He fondled the testicles again, indicating that he was feeling for any imperfections or irregularities. Of course he found none, put continued fondling. With his free hand he again returned to Joni's penis. As he took full measure of its mass, he asked, "Do you masturbate, Joni?" Caught off guard, Joni hesitated. "That's not a difficult question, Joni. Do you masturbate?" Barbara jumped in "He hasn't in a while, doctor. We're trying to diminish his penis pleasure in order to better accent feminine pleasures." "I see. Well, when you did masturbate - and I assume that you did before discovering your femininity - how often did you do it? Once a day, twice, three times a day?" "Just about once a day, doctor" responded Joni. He looked at his mother, who smiled for reassurance. "And what did you think about when you masturbated, Joni? I don't mean a particular fantasy, but did you think about girls or boys?" "Girls." "What was it about girls that you thought about? Was it the pleasure they could give you, the pleasure you could give them, the way they looked, or what?" The doctor had now removed his hands from Joni's scrotum, but continued to hold his penis as he rose to stand next to Joni, now looking down at him from his side. "I guess it was the way they looked, their beauty and softness." "I see. Did you ever try to duplicate their beauty and softness in order to masturbate? What I mean is, did you ever dress up in girly things in order to masturbate?" "No, doctor." "Do you do that now, Joni? Do you get dressed up like a girl in order to have a sexual experience?" "No doctor. I get dressed up as a girl because I am a girl. I wear girl clothes because they are my natural clothing." "But you have had sexual pleasure while dressed as a girl, right?" Barbara jumped in again. "Yes he has, doctor. But I believe that the pleasure was not due to the clothes. Am I right, Joni?" "Yes, mommy. I don't think the clothes had anything to do with it, other than I felt so natural and free that pleasure came easily." Dr. Goodly looked over at Barbara, "Spontaneous ejaculation?" "Not exactly, doctor," replied Barbara "This is all so new and fresh that at times it becomes overwhelming." "I see." He looked back at Joni "Does your mother entice you with sex, Joni? Does she reward you for becoming something she wants you to be?" Dr. Goodly was now palpating Joni's penis and it was responding to his knowing touch. "Not at all. She understands me and has helped me to understand myself. She has made it clear that she will love me no matter what path I take. And be assured, doctor, it is my path that I am taking. I am grateful for her assistance and guidance; I love my mommy very much. She allows me to be who I am. I like to think of it as me rewarding her for her help." Dr. Goodly smiled and looked down at Joni. "Good. I think your mother is very exceptional and you are very fortunate. Now, I have one or two more tests I need to perform." With that, Dr. Goodly released Joni's semi-erect penis and went over to his cabinet , put on some rubber gloves, and took a tube of lubricant out. "Barbara, did you prepare Joni this morning as I instructed? No breakfast and an enema?" "Yes doctor." "Good. Now, Joni I need to exam your prostate. Do you know what a prostate is?" "No, I don't. Will it hurt?" "No, not at all. Since you are a healthy boy, this could actually feel very good. Some boys find it quite pleasurable. But if you feel any discomfort, let me know immediately; and, also, if you feel pleasure, please let me know that as well." Barbara watched as the doctor applied ample lubricant to the tip of his middle finger. She expected him to then smear the lubricant over the finger, as she had done with the enema nozzle. But, instead, he took the lubricated finger tip and pressed it directly against Joni's anus, smearing it all around and then inside. Joni gasped with surprise. "Just relax, Joni. Please don't squeeze." Joni did as told. With his free hand, Dr. Goodly adjusted Joni's penis on his belly and held it there, as if taking its pulse. After a moment, Dr. Goodly asked, "Have you discovered this area as a center of pleasure, Joni?" "No sir." "Did your mother perform the enema on you this morning?" "Yes sir" "And did she insert the nozzle?" "Yes sir." "Did you like that, Joni?" Joni leaned his head over to look at his mother. Their eyes met. "Yes, I did." Barbara gave Joni another reassuring smile. "Good. The insertion was probably better than the actual enema, right?" "Yes. I didn't much like all the liquid in me." All the while, the doctor was working his finger in and out, going just part of the length of his middle finger, but working the anus to expand its opening. He could feel growth of the penis in his other hand. "OK, now I'm going go in further, Joni, and examine your prostate. Barbara, you may want to come here and watch this so you understand what I am doing." Barbara got up and joined the doctor between Joni's legs. He then pushed his finger deep into Joni and began massaging the prostate. Joni immediately responded with a flexing of the anus and the penis. "No, no. Relax Joni, try not to squeeze." "But it feels good, doctor. I'm not sure I can control it." "I see," said Dr. Goodly as he removed his hand from Joni's penis. "Now, Barbara, the location is well within the rectum, on the front side of the body. You can't miss it." Dr. Goodly continued to massage Joni's prostate while talking to Barbara; both watched as Joni's penis began to grow ever larger. "OK. that's enough." Dr Goodly removed his finger and then removed and discarded the gloves. "I think you liked it, Joni . Am I right?" "Yes, doctor. It felt very good." All the while, Barbara had stood frozen in rapture at the sexual display. The doctor had demonstrated to her a new way to pleasure her son - was almost recommending that she do this in order to enhance his feminization. She was incredibly aroused at the site of the doctor finger fucking her son. He clearly got pleasure out of it, she thought. She almost insisted on her trying it under his guidance right then and there. But she regained her composure and returned to her seat. The doctor gave Barbara a knowing look. She then looked down in shame, averting his eyes. It was then that she noticed that the front of his pants was tented out, so much so that he had to reach down and adjust his penis. Even the doctor wasn't immune to Joni's charms, she thought. "You showed us that it felt good, Joni," said Dr. Gooly. Joni blushed and turned his head to the side, looking away from the doctor and his mother. "There's no need to be embarrassed, Joni. I wanted to see how you would respond. If you continue with the transition, this area could become your primary pleasure center. By responding the way you did indicates that you can receive the pleasure of a girl." "Just a few more tests, Joni. You achieved a partial erection while I was massaging your prostate. Do you think you can achieve a full erection? " "I'm not sure I can, doctor." "It's OK, Joni. There's nothing to be ashamed of. This is a matter of testing the full function of the penis, Joni. I want you to touch yourself, as if you were masturbating. How long has it been since you last masturbated? "Several weeks," he lied. "Do you recall what you thought about when you did it?" "It was the night after my first day at school and I didn't think about anything in particular. I just wanted to remind myself of the pleasure." Joni's hand went down and he touched his penis for the first time since it was banned by his mother. He looked over at her and she nodded her approval. "Why did you need reminding, Joni?" "That day I had been embarrassed in the gym showers. I saw other boys' penises and realized I was much larger than any of them. As I stared at them I noticed that they were staring at me, doctor. I turned away to wash off and I realized I was getting hard. By the time I got back to my locker I was fully erect and out of control. I was so ashamed. That night in bed, I got hard out of anger and frustration. I didn't want to be this big; I just wanted to be ordinary." Joni was nearly fully hard now, working his hand slowly up and down his penis, looking at his mother the whole time. "You tell me when you think you think you are fully erect, Joni," said the doctor. "Please, go on." "But then I realized that my size has to produce great pleasure, more pleasure than any of those boys could imagine. And that pleasure is what I thought about that night. I think I'm fully erect now, doctor." Dr. Goodly reached down and moved Joni's hand away. He grabbed Joni's penis with his fingertips and applied pressure up and down the shaft in order to test its hardness. "Good, Joni, you have a very strong erection." Dr. Goodly marveled at the image. A beautiful young boy lying on his examination table, an angelic female face looking innocent yet so appealing, and a perfectly proportioned penis, fully engorged and massive in size, pulsing with anticipation; the blue veins running up its side, throbbing with pulse; the purple cap looking as if to explode from stimulation; the flush of the shaft showing the effects of Joni's stroking. It was all he could do to remove his touch. What a specimen, he thought, what a perfect creature, combining beauty and pleasure while preserving the appearance of innocence. His professional standards required that he not submit to the temptation of satisfying his own desires. He had to complete the tests. "Now, Joni, I want you to continue masturbating to ejaculation? That is the final test." Dr. Goodly removed his hand and replaced Joni's hand on his penis, and then looked over at Barbara. She was on the edge of her seat, fully engrossed in the eroticism. How he would love to drop his pants and masturbate with her son in front of her. She would make a beautiful audience; but he returned his attention to her son. Joni began stroking his penis as the doctor and his mother watched. "Why don't you tell us about the first time you were introduced to girl's clothing, Joni. Was that an exciting time?" "I came in to say goodnight to my mother and she was putting on make-up at her vanity. She looked beautiful and I told her I didn't think it was fair that girls could change their appearance so easily. She agreed and offered to show me what it was like. I sat at the vanity as she leaned over and applied make-up. Her robe kept opening and exposing her breasts. I guess her attention and her appearance were just too much, and my erection became pretty obvious." Joni was now pumping his penis unabashedly, almost seeming proud of his erection and his storytelling ability. The doctor was shifting his gaze from Joni to his mother; Barbara had locked eyes with Joni, almost sharing his ecstacy. "My mom finished my makeup and turned me to the mirror. It felt wonderful to see a female looking back at me. I forgot all about the rest of my body and just wanted to enhance the image in the mirror. That's when mom suggested that I put on a chiffon teddy to match her's - that we could become twins. She had me undress and, standing there nude, I realized I was exposed to her with a full erection." The pumping became more intense and more revealing in the pleasure it was providing. "Let me know when you are close, Joni, and I will get a towel," said the doctor. "She dressed me in the teddy, and it felt so natural. We hugged and then mom felt sorry for my erect condition. She had me lie on the bed and then she began to stroke my penis. I'm close doctor." Dr. Goodly hesitated but then turned away to grab a towel. Joni continued. "She stroked it the way I am stroking it now, paying particular attention to the head and the edge of the head. It was the first time I ever felt completely female. I love my mother for introducing me to my feminine side. I love being feminine. I want to be more girl, I want to be more girl, I want to be more girl." Just as Dr. Goodly placed the towel over his mid-section, Joni muscles flexed and his face contorted. He held his penis tightly and pushed his hips off the examination table as he ejaculated in an intense orgasm. There was silence in the room for several minutes as Joni lay motionless on the examination table. Then Barbara got up, leaned down and gave him a big hug. "I love you so much, sweetie." "I love you also, mommy. And thank you so much for everything." Dr. Goodly took the towel and cleaned up Joni's penis and wiped his anus, and then discarded it in a hamper. He then lowered the metal stirrups and placed Joni's legs back onto the table. He appeared to treat the whole event as if it had been a normal medical procedure; but the bugle in his pants revealed that he, like Barbara, saw it as an intense sexual act. "Joni, take your time getting dressed and then wait for me here," said Dr. Goodly. "I want to speak with your mother again in private." Barbara looked down at her son, naked and spent, erection receding, perfectly innocent and beautiful. His make-up was in place, his hair slightly mussed. She leaned down and whispered in his ear, "You are such a beautiful girl, I think you can now tuck yourself in, dear," and kissed his cheek lightly. Closing the door behind them, Dr. Goodly took his seat at his desk and motioned that Barbara should sit as well. She could see that he adjusted his erection as soon as he had the opportunity. She crossed her legs and noticed how wet she had become. They both needed the break from the sensuality of Joni. "Thank you for allowing my tests to proceed without interruption. I know they must appear unorthodox, to say the least. Let me explain the entire session." "Please do," replied Barbara. "It became quickly apparent that Joni is healthy physically; in fact, I'm sure you are aware, rather gifted physically. My concern then was his motivation. I find that most males seeking female enhancement are motivated by one of several issues - either they have misplaced sexual fantasies and associate dressing as a girl with orgasm, or they have a sense of insecurity with their performance, unable to get or sustain an erection or unable to achieve orgasm, and want to avoid the issue by becoming female. A third option, the one I suspected in Joni's case - please don't be offended - is the male trying to please a female figure-head, in this case a mother. I am satisfied that none of these conditions is an issue for Joni." "I'm not offended, doctor." "It appears that you have been intimate with your son, Barbara. But it also appears that it was the result of his transition, not the cause of it. Am I correct?" "You are, indeed. We have shared a lot since he realized his true self." "I don't pass judgment on relationships, Barbara, but I need to know if you have had intercourse with your son." Barbara hesitated and looked down at her feet. "I take that as a yes. How many times?" "Just once, doctor. I felt it unfair for him to make this commitment without ever having experienced sexual intercourse. I don't plan on doing it again." "As I said, it is none of my business what goes on between you and your son, as long as sex isn't used as a reward for his transition." "The one time was last night, and he had the option of cancelling this appointment afterwards. I have given him no reason to believe that we will ever do it again. And he insisted that we meet with you this morning." "Good. I'm quite satisfied that we can go forward if you and Joni want to. I am really impressed with his poise and composure. He appears to quite bright as well." "Never gotten anything below an A in school. I think he is mature well beyond his 14 years." "It's clear you've done a great job mothering him, Barbara. What do you plan on doing about his schooling if he goes through with the transition." "Home schooling, I suppose. Haven't really thought that far ahead." "I may be able to recommend some schools if you choose a different direction. Are there any questions you have of me before we bring Joni back in?" "Will we discuss procedures then? It will be his decision, but I will certainly advise." "Yes, that's why we all need to talk." Dr. Goodly got up and went to retrieve Joni. Joni followed Dr. Goodly into the room and sat next to his mother. He looked fully female, Dr. Goodly thought. If he hadn't just seen him stretched out nude on the examination table, he wouldn't suspect for an instant the she was a he. "Joni, I have some options I want you and your mother to consider. The first is that you change your mind and not pursue the transition any further. You are a healthy, beautiful young boy who, I'm sure, could find happiness as a male for the rest of your life. But, if you remain committed to the transition, I think I can help you. In fact, I know I can help you." "I'm still committed, doctor. Nothing has happened to change my mind. I'm so glad that I passed all the tests." "You did, Joni, with flying colors. So let me lay out the three transition options that I think are available. The first is that you can get breast implants and continue as you have, but with enhanced breasts. I don't do that kind of work but I can refer you to the best in the field. Does amazing things. And as your age, or your tastes change, the breasts can be modified." Neither Joni nor his mother exhibited any visible interest in this alternative. "A second option is you could go on hormone treatments. This would be the ingesting of estrogen over an extended period - enough to overwhelm Joni's testosterone and result in female characteristics. This will generally produce the most desirable female characteristics - softer skin, breasts, no facial hair - but it takes over a year of consistent doses. Also, there are some downsides - your testicles and penis will probably shrink, your sex drive will definitely diminish, and your ability to achieve and maintain an erection may diminish. Once you achieve the results you want, terminating treatment may not terminate the negative results." Again, neither Joni nor his mother showed any interest in this approach. "The third option is very attractive, but I must say it is not approved in this country. It is also hormone treatment, but more of a testosterone blocker than an estrogen supplement. It is called progestrogen. This is really quite a miracle drug - it blocks the dissemination of testosterone from beyond the sex organs, while nearly instantly replacing the testosterone in the rest of the body with estrogen. Like traditional hormone treatments, it produces all the most desirable female characteristics but without any of the negative side effects. Actually, it is more comprehensive in its transition, in that it converts the male sexual pleasure into a more feminine experience. And, as I said, the effects are almost instantaneous." "This sounds almost too good to be true," commented Barbara. "You say it's not approved?" "Not in this country. It is in Europe and elsewhere. I have been prescribing it for about 5 years and have had no ill effects. All who have chosen this path are very complimentary and the results are quite impressive." Joni and Barbara looked at each other as if to agree that this was the approach they wanted. Dr. Goodly saw this response. "I have to inform you that, like straight estrogen treatment, the results are not reversible. But, they are progressive. That is, the treatment progresses through a predictable pattern that by first denying the body testosterone, the initial response is that the skin is softened and the facial hair eliminated. With someone of Joni's age, puberty is virtually arrested. This can happen in as short a time as one week. With continued treatment, additional female characteristics appear - shapelier body and the development of breasts." "How do we know it's safe, doctor?" asked Barbara. "You have to go on my assurance, Barbara. But if it will make you feel better, I went on the treatment for about a week about two years ago. You'll notice I have no facial hair. I stopped as soon as I detected a change in my breasts - my areolas got larger and more sensitive as well as some budding of the breast tissue. I have had no negative side effects; in fact, all the effects have been very positive." Barbara looked at Dr. Goodly and remembered her first impression of him was one of softness. "What would happen if you started again?" asked Barbara. "The process would pick up right where it left off. The testosterone blockage is permanent. My breasts would grow and my body would change. I would become female in all respects except my genitalia." "That's amazing. It just sounds too good to be true." "It's absolutely true, Barbara. In fact, I think Joni is one of the best candidates for this treatment I've ever encountered. He's young enough to begin the transition and have his breasts grow on a natural time schedule." Dr. Goodly was now getting animated in his discussion. "I have had one other client who I considered nearly as qualified as Joni. She - it's no longer appropriate to call him a he - came under my care about four years ago; he was just a couple of years older than Joni. Absolutely gorgeous boy who had parental approval just like Joni. Past all the tests perfectly. I was so impressed with the results after three weeks that I had her stop the treatment when she had just B cups. I introduced her to a talent agent friend and she became a very successful model. So successful that she is now moving to Hollywood to try movies. She went on the treatment again for two weeks and now has C cups. I can't tell you who it is but the tabloids are accusing her of getting implants. Pretty funny, actually." "What about the sexual side-effects?" asked Barbara. "I don't really consider them side-effects; they are part of the direct effects. Nothing changes physically with the male genitalia, it is the response to stimuli that changes. My experience is apparently typical - I am much more sensitive to sexual stimulus and my orgasms are often unrelated to ejaculation; my orgasms wash over my entire body and are no longer just associated with my penis. Occasionally I will have a traditional male climax, but often not. My studies indicate that this is completely consistent with the female experience. Frankly, I find it to be greatly superior to the male condition. That is one of the reasons I am so in favor of the progestrogen approach." The room was quiet for quite a while after Dr. Goodly finished his talk. It was Joni who broke the silence. "I want to do the progestrogen, mom." "Honey, it does sound nice. What is involved in initiating that option, doctor?" "Well, we can't do anything today. I want you two to think about this for several days. In the meantime, I'll have to have my staff draw up the proper papers. When everything is in order, then you two will come back in and I will start the process with a shot that installs the initial testosterone blockers, and then you will take two pill twice a day, until you decide to terminate or postpone further treatment. Barbara you can call my office on, say Tuesday, and let me know what Joni wants to do. OK?" "I guess that's it," responded Barbara. "Do you have anything Joni?" "No, ma'am. Just, thank you doctor. I'm glad you are willing to help me." "I'm glad also, Joni. It's not often that I get the opportunity to help such an extraordinary person. I look forward to hearing from you and your mother soon." With that, Dr. Goodly showed the two out to the waiting room. "I'll wait to hear from you then, Barbara. Good bye," and he disappeared back into his office. Barbara and Joni stood there alone, looking at each other, knowing that their lives were certain to change. Barbara reached out and took both of Joni's hands in her hands. They stared at each other as tears welled up in both. "Oh, Joni, the doctor was so impressed with you. He really wants to help you. I was so proud of the way you behaved." "I love you mommy. Thank you for supporting me. I won't let you down." "Honey, you could never let me down. I love you so," said Barbara as she moved in to kiss Joni on the lips. It was a gentle, tender kiss that was followed by a passionate embrace. They loved each other so much that they temporarily lost control. The embrace became more sexual as Barbara felt Joni's erection grow in its tucked position. She reached down to release it, lifting his dress up. So strong was their passion that they didn't hear Dr. Goodly emerge from his office. He was a little startled at the scene "I suppose this is just an example of the natural extensions of pleasure. Oh well, never mind. I just forgot that you came in the back door. The exit is back down this hallway," as he pointed back past his office. Barbara released Joni and backed away, slightly embarrassed. Joni straightened his dress like a good girl. They walked sheepishly past Dr. Goodly to the back door. End Part 7