Date: Fri, 1 Jan 2021 17:38:10 +1030 From: Zenna Swallows Subject: My New Personal Trainer (TG Teen) MY NEW PERSONAL TRAINER by Zenna Swallows January 19 So, this is Day 16 of my new training regime and Joy has suggested I keep a diary to record my progress. It was so nice of Eric - my stepfather - to pay for both the program and personal sessions with Joy, as a Christmas present. So far it's been going great! I've done pretty well in sticking to the diet Joy gave me. And whatever is in the vitamins she's had me taking, they seem to be having a great effect too! I'm feeling stronger, but at the same time also a lot less worried about things. The blue pills she has me take before our sessions at the gym make me feel especially calm. It seems like I can push right through the pain and strains of some of the stretching she has me doing. And I'm not sure whether it's the pills, or how good she is at putting me at ease, but I seem to be able to talk to her in a way I've never experienced before with any girl - much less a woman as pretty as she is! I should be really tongue-tied, but somehow I can chat to her. I so look forward to our sessions! January 27 Big achievement today! I can touch my toes - without bending my knees I mean. But Joy said that while it was okay to be pleased about that, I can and should aim for a lot more. She's such a good motivator! I'm now doing yoga morning and night, and it leaves me feeling super flexible. I asked Joy if we were going to start doing more weights to build up my muscles, but she says that has to wait until I've really strengthened my core. February 23 One of the big changes I've noticed is how well I'm sleeping now. Instead of staying up late to play video games, I always get to bed now before midnight and get a good night in before waking early for my morning yoga. The meditation recordings Joy has me listening to really help me drift off. It's funny, because when I wake up I can never quite remember what was in them after the first few minutes - just how peaceful they made me feel. March 5 Joy has asked if I want to take my training to the next level! Apparently she offers a special program to trainees who are showing particular promise. It involves group lessons at her personal studio, rather than going to my regular gym. I asked Eric, and he said he was happy to pay for it. I gave him a big hug when he told me that. That's not something I've ever done before, but Joy is constantly talking about the importance both of being positive and showing affection. I could tell Eric was surprised but also pleased - and I was rewarded with a compliment about how great I was looking! March 7 The first of my new training sessions is tomorrow. In preparation for it, Eric bought me a new workout outfit, in accordance with Joy's instructions. The pants are black, tight-fitting and have these kind of mesh strips or panels. The matching black top covers only the upper half of my chest, leaving my belly button exposed, and has thin shoulder straps rather than sleeves. It too has a mesh panel at the front. I joked to Eric that they almost looked like tights and a bra and he thought that was very funny. March 8 My first session in the amazing studio that Joy has set up in the basement of her house. There were eight of us in the group, all around my age, in pretty good shape, and wearing the same outfit I was. At first, I thought most of them were girls, but I gradually realised that was because of the makeup they were wearing, or their brightly coloured fingernails. In fact, they were all boys! Or young men, anyway. Really strange! But the session itself was great - lots of yoga, strength work using stretchable bands, and a lot of stretching exercises in pairs. It's amazing how much further you can bend, fold or reach with someone else to hold and encourage you! March 20 I've had a few sessions now with the group and I finally got round to asking Joy why so many of the others wear makeup or nail polish, despite being male. She laughed and said it was just a bit of freedom of expression. There was no reason boys shouldn't look as nice as girls! She said there were any number of pop stars and models who used makeup and gave me some examples to look up on the internet. I did that when I got home and found some great pictures and articles, which I saved in my special folder. I also started following some of the prettier guys. I realised as I did so that it was weeks since I'd paid any attention to what my favourite actresses or female singers were up to. Just busy with exercise I guess. March 27 Joy has been pairing with me with another guy who started the same time I did, Neil. He's really sweet and has a great looking body. Mind you, he said the same about mine when I told him so! He's very easy to talk to, and we've taken to going out to grab a coffee or a milkshake after our sessions with Joy. I don't think I've had a close friend since - well, for as long as I can remember, what with being so nervous and shy. But for whatever reason, we're getting on famously. March 30 At Joy's suggestion, I've shaved all the hair off my arms, legs, body - even my armpits and between my legs! She gave me a special cream to use to reduce any irritation. I have to say that I'm loving how it feels to be so smooth, especially wearing my workout pants! April 5 An interesting new exercise today, though it quickly became clear that everyone except Neil and I had done this one before. Each pair was positioned facing one another holding stretchable bands that were fastened behind us. The challenge was to lean forward, keeping our feet flat on the floor, our chins out and our bodies completely straight, until we touched our partner. Once that was achieved, we would hold for ten seconds, return to the starting position, then try again, as many times as we could before our muscles gave out and we lost our form. Neil and I weren't sure what to do when we reached one another the first time, but a glance around showed that the other pairs were finding it easiest to press their mouths together. So we did that too. It seemed strange, but also - quite nice, almost? I was glad I had brushed my teeth beforehand, and judging by the minty taste, Neil had too! It could have been really embarrassing, but we actually had a good laugh about it afterwards. April 10 I seem to be putting on weight on one part of my body, rather than losing it - my bottom. I asked Joy about it and she said it was perfectly natural and not to worry about it. When I told Eric he laughed and made some joke about a bubble that I didn't get. My mother didn't think it was funny either - but then she hasn't been quite so keen on the training program either. That's a shame, because I couldn't be happier about it. April 16 I got a bit of a shock today. Neil was wearing makeup! Not a lot, just some lipstick and eyeliner, but it made him even prettier than usual. Sexy, even. (Am I allowed to call a boy sexy? Well, this is my diary, so I guess so!) Anyway, we had to do what Neil and I have jokingly started calling the kissing exercise, and I must say that his lips tasted different with all that bright pink. (The shade is called bubblegum, apparently,) I might just possibly have held the "kisses" a bit longer than usual to taste it properly, with my tongue. I checked with Neil afterwards to make sure he didn't mind, and luckily for me he didn't. He asked me though when I was going to try makeup myself! April 20 Since Neil asked me about trying makeup, I've thought of nothing but. I finally decided to ask my parents what they thought. My mother was a bit doubtful, but Daddy (that's what I'm calling Eric now, he's been so great to me lately) was all for it. He talked her into showing me how to figure out what colours to use, and all the different options and products. I had no idea it was so involved! May 7 After more than two solid weeks of practice, I finally went to a training session today wearing makeup. I got a round of applause from the other girls! And Joy gave me a great big hug, she was so pleased. Neil said he couldn't wait to find out what my lipstick tasted like, and we must have spent two hours afterwards talking about nothing but makeup! I even had some of the other girls asking about the products I was using. I say girls, because that's what Joy now calls us, and I suppose we've fallen into the habit too. We're all still boys of course! May 19 I've been enjoying makeup so much that I now wear it every day, even when going to the shops, or staying home for my classes (I've always studied at home). Considering how anxious I used to be going almost anywhere, it's amazing how confident I now feel. Of course my new clothes help. Daddy helped me pick them out and even paid for them. He's such a sweetie! My favourite look is a pretty simple one: a pair of cut-off denim shorts, a flannel shirt that can either be worn long or tied up above my belly button, and wedge-heeled sandals that are apparently really good for calf strength. The open toes also show off the nail polish I've now taken to wearing - another idea I got from Neil! May 24 It was my birthday today and Daddy got me the most wonderful presents! First, he took me to get both my ears and navel pierced. The piercings hurt a bit, but I love the look of the diamond studs I now have, and I'm looking forward to trying out some dangly earrings in particular. After the piercings were finished, he also paid for the most expensive haircut I've had in my life! It was a really fancy salon and the very friendly girls there spent what seemed like hours working on my hair, which has grown out a fair bit since I started the training program - so long in fact that I have to put it in a ponytail when I'm exercising. They didn't cut it short, but made it a lot more wavy, and added some blonde streaks which Daddy told me afterwards looked fabulous! And I had to agree! He got a big kiss for treating me so nicely. June 7 A new round of exercises today, most involving very close work with our partners. The toughest one by far was something called a double dare crunch. Not sure if I can describe it properly, but person A starts with their back on the floor, legs spread, with person B standing between them and looking down at A. B lifts A's legs in the air and wraps them tight around their waist. B then takes A's hands and pulls them up, with A's legs still locked around B, until their faces are level. Or, if A has really, really strong abs (and there was only one person in our class who could do this), they lever their body up into that position without help. A then leans back, still holding their legs in place, and crunches back up, either with or without B's hands underneath their buttocks to provide support. Neither Neil or I was able to do more than one crunch, though we didn't help ourselves with all the giggling whenever we had to grab each other's butt! June 23 I realised today that it's been ages since I last shaved - my face, I mean. Joy says that's a positive effect of being so fit and healthy. I'm definitely not missing all that ugly hair! July 6 My mother is away visiting her sister. Daddy was telling me how difficult he finds it to get to sleep when on his own. I offered to come and sleep with him to keep him company. He said no at first, but I eventually persuaded him. It was lovely snuggling up to him, especially on a chilly night and in such a big, comfy bed! He seemed to be shivering quite a lot, and I was a bit worried he might be catching a fever, but after a trip to the bathroom he seemed to settle down okay and we quickly got to sleep. July 10 I'm sleeping every night now with Daddy. He bought me a lovely new set of pyjamas to wear, They're not the usual cotton, but some kind of soft, lacy fabric that feels so good against my smooth skin. They don't keep me very warm, but that's okay because I've got my lovely big bear of a daddy to cuddle up with! I did check with Joy to make sure it was alright to be sleeping with Daddy. She said it was fine, as long as I made sure to still listen to my meditation tapes every night. July 16 I was able to do some of the double dare crunches today without Neil holding me up! I'm only the third person in the class to do that. Neil pretended to be very jealous, but I know from the way he kissed me afterwards that he was really pleased for me. So was Daddy. He took me out for a lovely dinner to celebrate and we went to see a movie afterwards. Such a fun night! He said that if it was okay with me, we might make that a regular event. I told him that would be lovely. I've also noticed that he's taken to calling me Kira when we're out, rather than Keir. I think I might like to be called that all the time - a new name for the new me! July 28 I asked Daddy why my mother was still away. He said they'd had some big arguments - though he didn't say about what - and that she was probably not coming back. That made me very sad, until Daddy said that I would still be able to stay with him if I wanted. That cheered me right up, because of course I did! When I told him that he gave me a big hug and said he would always take care of his special princess. I really like it when he talks about me that way. August 5 I had told Joy about how much I liked being called Kira. She asked the rest of the class if they wanted to choose new names as well - and everyone did! Some made only small changes, like Carl to Carla, but Neil was one of those who wanted something very different. We're now calling him - or her, as she now also prefers, Monique. She told me afterwards that she'd been dreaming for months about using that name, but had kept it a secret. I said it was a gorgeous name for a gorgeous person, and you should have seen the blush that produced! August 19 A big day today at the group training session. It was strange, worrying and exciting, all at the same time! We spent the session doing nothing but very close work with our partners. What was different this time was the effect that rubbing my body against Monique's had on my thingy - you know, the thing between my legs, what I use to pee. It swelled right up and became both bigger and stiffer, to the point where the lump in my pants was impossible to hide. I have a vague recollection of that having happened before - but certainly not since I started training with Joy. Fortunately for me, Monique had the same problem - and so did everyone else in the class, although that didn't stop it being super embarrassing! Nevertheless, we made it through the whole session, before Joy addressed the elephant (or maybe elephant trunks!) in the room. Our "erections", as she called them, were just a by-product of a new vitamin we were taking, although they were also a sign of getting "understandably excited" about our partner's hot body. She said that we would have to get used to working out in that state, but that there was also a fun way of "getting rid of the problem" at the end of each class. She demonstrated by asking Carla to pull down her pants, wrapping her hand around the stiff thingy now on display, and then stroking it with the help of some kind of lotion. It only took a minute or so of this for Carla to start moaning and then little blobs of gooey cream were shooting out of the tip. After that, Carla's thingy shrank back to what we assumed was its normal size. Joy made Carla lick up any goo that escaped the tissues she'd asked Carla to hold ready. Then she got each of the rest of us to take care of our partners in the same way. I went first with Monique, who turned out to have a much bigger thingy than me - or indeed anyone else in the class. It took me a little while to get the hang of what to do, but once I got the rhythm it seemed no time at all before Monique, thanks to poor aim, was spraying her cream all over my face! Monique dutifully licked it all off, which I must admit I quite enjoyed, especially when she kissed me and I got to taste some of it! It was strange, if not unpleasant. And I must have been excited, because Monique had hardly started work on my thingy before I experienced this wonderful feeling of relief and shot my goo straight into the waiting tissues. (I was actually sorry not to have made any mess to clean up!) After that, we took turns to use the shower and then left, though not before Joy told us that we were all "ready for the next phase of our training". I can't wait to find out what that involves! To be continued ... If you have any comments, please email me at zennaswallows@gmail.com.