Date: Fri, 11 Feb 2000 14:00:15 EST
From: lesli 99 <lesli99@hotmail.com>
Subject: Lesli 2

I make two decisions in the next few days.  First, I'm going to make Amanda
and Tracy my friends.  If that "outs" me on campus, so be it.  I enjoyed
expressing my true feelings and accepting my femininity so much that the
thought of repressing it again is too much to bear.  They are fun to be
with, I'm comfortable with them, and they have become my role models to a
large degree as I attempt to emulate their lifestyles.  I'm going to join
Lambda with them for it's social aspects.  I faced the fact that I have
done gay things and enjoyed them, so why not socialize with a group of
people whose orientation I share?

Second, I've decided I must give Trexler a try.  I enjoyed the sex with
Amanda and Tracy and I'm looking forward to Trexler as a sexual outlet for
the growing desires which increase daily.

Trexler is a large building which houses a combination of the campus
research library, and the part of the student social center.  The second
floor mens room is at the end of a long hallway leading to the library.  It
was closed Sunday, so I had to wait until Monday morning to check it out.
The mensroom is large, with a a row of urinals at the far end and sinks
along the wall.  It's an L shaped room with the stalls in the short part of
the L just to the right of the urinals.  I'm dressed in jeans and loafers
with no socks and a baggy sweat shirt.  Under my clothes, as always, I'm
wearing panties and a bra that I've changed into in the mensroom of my
dorm.  My hair is pulled back in the pony tail style Amanda introduced me
to and my nails are still polished from Saturday night.  I'm not wearing
lipstick but my eye shadow and mascara are still slightly visible as I've
made no attempt to wash them off.

There's one boy at the sinks as I enter and I see him following me with his
eyes in the mirror as I walk past toward the stalls.  I wonder what he's
thinking.  I'm sure he's noticed my ponytail and nails.  I have trouble
locating the stall with the glory hole, I don't remember which end to count
from, so I take a stall near one end and sit down to collect my thoughts.
It's quite except for the occassional flush of a urinal.  Nothing seems to
be happening in the stalls.  I check out another, then another before it
dawns on me to look under the stall walls to see if anyone is there.  Sure
enough, on the end opposite from where I started I notice legs and feet.
Looking closer it's obvious what's going on.  On pair of feet are turned 90
degrees, facing the stall wall and in the other stall the feet are pointing
straight ahead, like you would expect to do if sitting on the commode.  The
person standing must have his dick thru the glory hole and the person
sitting must be sucking him.  I take the stall on the other side of the
person sitting and listen for activity.  If there was anything going on,
it's stopped and I sit in silence for at least five minutes before I hear
the sound of slurping which gives away the activity.  I sit in silence for
an hour while doors open and close, the sound of footsteps coming and
going.  I can see feet underneath the wall, and after an hour , this person
leaves.  Before he is out of the mensroom I move to the vacated stall.

The stalls are not large, maybe 4 feet across, and as I sit on the commode
I notice the glory hole.  It's a big hole in the wall, maybe six inches in
diameter, to the rear of the toilet paper holder and on a level just below
my eyes, so I have to bend forward to peek thru.  There's no one in the
stall, and I wonder if I'm in the suckers stall or the suckees stall.
Maybe it doesn't matter, but I decide to stay where I am for the time
being.

I don't have to wait very long and I hear the sound of the door being
opened, then shut, then latched and as I peer thru the hole, I'm greeted by
the sight of pants being pulled down as the boy sits on the commode.  It's
obvious that I'm starring and it's also obvious that I'm in the right stall
as the boy brings his hand down between his legs and begins stroking a
rather large cock, with a head hidden by foreskin.  He works up a hardon
very quickly and my excitement follows just as quickly as my eyes take this
in.  It must be obvious to him that I'm watching , my face is so near the
hole, and he points this monster directly at it.  I don't know what to do,
but instinct draws my face closer and I'm faced with a very hard prick
being projected thru the hole.  I can't help myself and I close my lips
around the head and draw it quickly into my mouth.  Oh God, the sensation
is overpowering as his cock slips easily into my mouth.  I'm new at this
but the emotions and the instinct take over and I swallow as much of it as
I can, my face pressing thru the large hole and my nose buried in his pubic
hair.  He's excited, no doubt about this, and he thrusts thru the hole and
fills my mouth.  My tongue darts out to caress the underneath side of his
head, and he shoots his load almost immediately.  This boy has been holding
back for a while, I think, because the strength of his spurts fill my mouth
completely and I cant hold it all in.  The sweet sticky liquid fills my
mouth and before I can swallow it escapes the tight "O" formed by my lips
and dribbles down my chin, stringing to the floor.  The taste is heavenly,
a strong salty gooey gob in my mouth.  For the first time in my young life
I realize that nothing in the world tastes so good.  He must have cum a
gallon, I swallowed at least half of it, and the rest puddles on the floor.

As quick as he put it thru the hole he withdraws it, leaving my mouth all
sloppy from the cream he left there.  I lick my lips and try to get as much
in my mouth as I can before swallowing his thick load.

The sound of a zipper, a door, footsteps, and I'm alone again.  My thoughts
and emotions still in high gear, I decide I haven't had nearly enough and
wait for my next lover.

Within minutes the door opens, then closes, and I'm faced with yet another
delightful dick to suck.  The scene is repeated and I suck this boy for at
least 10 minutes before he too discharges a large load in my mouth.

I've found heaven in Trexler Hall, and I vow to come back again and again
to worship the object of my affection.

But, as Tracy warned me, there are others waiting for enjoyment here, and I
don't overstay my welcome.  I'm new at this, there's plenty more time, and
I don't want to be a pig here.  So I leave for the night, and as I do, I
see another boy takes the sucker's stall as soon as I'm out.  He gives me a
knowing look and I'm comfortable with it.

When I recount my experiences to Amanda on Wednesday she says we must get
together Friday at her place to induct me in to the "SGHQ".  When I ask,
she says it the Sorority of Glory Hole Queens, and I can't wait.

I receive my Lambda pin on Friday at the beginning of Amanda's party.
Amanda, Tracy and I are the only "girls" at the party, Tracy says 15 people
are there, a mixture of gays, lesbians, and us three and it's a rollicking,
fun time.  I'm "pinned" by a dreamy looking black boy who insists on having
the first dance with me and warns me that if I ever go black, I'll never go
back.  He's sweet but disappears with another boy into the bedroom halfway
thru the party.  Most everyone seems to disappear in couples during the
course of the evening.

By midnight most, if not all, of us are higher than kites and Amanda makes
a big scene over my induction.  "Here's the queen of the party, ready for
her corination into the Society of Glory Hole Queens" she announces in a
loud voice.  The music stops and everyone crowds around Amanda and me as
she produces a jar of mayonnaise and instructs me to "kneel for the
coronation".  She forces me, without much force at all, to kneel in the
center of the room as she administers the badge of honor, a dolop of
mayonnaise down the front of my blouse.  "Come, come" she exclaims "and
that is what they do".  I scoop a gob of it from by blouse and stick my
finger in my mouth, smiling with fake satisfaction.  "And the queen is
crowned" she continues "let her loyal subjects show their allegiance".

A circle of eight boys forms with me in the middle.  One by one they unzip
their flies and take their penis' out, which seem to vary in size from
medium to large to very large.

"And let the queen bestow blessings on her subjects" Amanda continues "by
doing what queens do.....sucking cock" and she laughs like a banshee.

I move to the closest boy in the circle and he guides his rigid cock into
my mouth.  It tastes to die for..pre cum already on the head as I bury it
in my mouth.  Shouts of encouragement push me on and I ride his member,
bobbing up and down on it until he finally gives me my reward, a mouth full
of delicious cum.

No sooner than I have sucked him dry, he withdraws, and another delicious
prick is in my mouth.  I work him slowly, using my tongue to massage the
head, withdrawing and licking his shaft, even taking his swollen ballsack
into my mouth and sucking first one, then another ball.  I'm on auto pilot
again.  I don't know why I'm doing this, only that it feels natural, my
feminine instincts taking complete control of my actions.  They watch me do
my work in rapt silence.  I'm neither shy nor embarrassed by what I'm doing
or the fact that so many people are watching me do it.  As a matter of fact
knowing that people are watching sort of turns me on.  Within minutes I was
taking another prick deep in my throat, my first deepthroat, and sucking
him to climax as well.

And so it went, I sucked all of the boys, going round the circle until I
repeated a few.  As I finished the circle I noticed a growing number of
boys pairing off with each other and having sex.  It was a regular Sodom
here.

I was having another drink, collecting my emotions from the circle suck,
when I felt a hand on my shoulder.  Looking up, I recognized the black boy
who had pinned me.  "You're quite a hit tonight" he slurred, obviously
drunk, or high "would you like to party in private?"  "Sure, why not?" I
replied, not quite focusing thru my emotions and the alcohol, but turned on
none the less.

He helped me up and guided me thru the crowd of people toward the bedroom.
Once there, we shared the bed with another gay couple locked in deep deep
sex.  Tony, as I came to know him later, flopped on the bed and pulled me
down, engulfing my mouth with his as our tongues came together in a sensual
melting.  I locked my arms tightly around his neck and kissed him back,
letting the full weight of my body rest on him.  His hands squeezed my
buttocks and I ground my tucked groin into his.  I was on fire, and I
raised myself slightly in order to slide my hand between us and massaged
his swollen manhood thru his trousers.  It was large, and hard.  Very hard.
In my limited experiences of the last week it was obvious that this was
going to be the largest I had ever had.  I couldn't wait to get at it and I
quickly unbuttoned his trousers and pulled them to his knees.  He wasn't
wearing underwear, and the site of his hugh stiff member sent shivers thru
me.  I slid down til my face was at it and began licking the underneath of
it's huge head before I finally succumbed to my desire and fit the whole
head in my mouth.  It literally stretched my lips to the breaking point,
but after a few minutes work I had at least 3 inches in my mouth and the
groans coming from Tony confirmed that I was doing a good job.  He gave me
words of encouragement and reached down to take my bobbing head in his
hands.

He let me go at it for a good ten minutes before pulling it out of my mouth
and standing to undress.  I stripped out of my skirt and blouse, leaving my
heels, hose, bra and panties on.  He stripped completely and pulled my
panties down my legs and I stepped out of them.  Guiding me down on the
bed, he spread my legs and lay on top of me.  We kissed as we fondled each
other's organ, his hand completely engulfing mine as I barely fit half of
his in my hand.  Sliding down my body he took my entire penis in his mouth
and pressed his face against my pubic hair.  We then shifted into a 69 with
me on top and I took him in my mouth.

"I want to be in you" he said "I want to fuck your pussy".  I wasn't sure I
could take him, but the drink and all the sex tonight had my mind
irrational at that point, so I just lay back and let him position me the
way he wanted.  He lay me on my back my legs spread.  On his knees now , he
held my legs behind my knees and pushed them toward my head effectively
bareing my hole to him.  The first thing I felt was the huge head of his
cock pressing against my hole.  It was so big I was sure it wouldn't fit,
and was surprised as I felt my muscles give way a little and it seemed the
head was making its way inside.  He went slow, pushing, then stopping, then
pushing again, all the while keeping pressure on my straining sphincter,
and within a few minutes I felt the sharp tinge of pain that signaled the
head was going past the muscle.  The lubricant helped, the way he
positioned me helped, and the fact that I wanted this more than anything
else helped and before too long he was taking short strokes inside me.  And
with that, I relaxed completely, and the short strokes turned into longer
strokes and before I knew it he had the entire length of that huge cock up
me.

There was still pain, but it gradually subsided, to be replaced by a
feeling of pure ecstacy as I gave my self up completely to him.  For the
first time in my life I was giving myself to a man, giving him the ultimate
gift I had to give.  Women are so lucky to be able to give this to a man, I
thought to myself, and I made up my mind that I would be a woman someday.
Until then, I would be as much like a women as I could and give myself in
the only way possible, and I would do everything in my power to make my man
feel that it was the best he had ever, or would ever, have.

Tony's orgasm shook me to the roots of my being, spurt after spurt of hot,
soothing, love juice filled me to the bursting, and drove me over the edge
to my own climax as I shot onto his stomach as he lay on top of me.  We lay
in each other's arms for a long time, neither of us able to speak.  The
other couple had obviously finished and left, although in the excitement of
our lovemaking, neither Tony nor I could remember when.

We dressed and rejoined the party, promising to get together again soon.
My contentment must have registered on my face because both Amanda and
Tracy remarked at my "glow".  I would tell them about my experience later.
For now, I was drained, and after a few more drinks and a post sex
cigarette I changed into my "straight" clothes, bid everyone a farewell,
and headed back to my dorm.  Trexler was dark at that time of night or I
would have made a stop.

While walking back, I made a mental review of the past week; I received my
first kiss, an introduction to oral sex, my first fuck, and was dressed for
the first time in front of others.  For that, I gave my first blowjob,
performed at a glory hole for the first time, and gave myself to a black
for the first time.  During that week, I estimated I had sucked a dozen
dicks and been fucked by two.  Quite a week for one's inauguration into the
world of transvestitism.  With the memories vivid in my mind, I vowed to
begin a diary, a record of my new found realization of what I was, and what
I wanted to be.  And it is from that diary that the following is taken, the
record of one boy's transformation into the girl, and woman, he always
desired to be, and all the joy, fun, and pain that accompanied that
transformation.

Starting as a confused boy, being introduced to the joys of transvestitism,
the understanding of transexualism, to the final realization of ones self
as a woman.  This is the story of lesli.


To be continued


You may contact the authoress at lesli99@hotmail.com