Date: Sun, 12 Dec 2021 05:32:40 -0500
From: Edwin Cruz <e.cruz1994@icloud.com>
Subject: Straight Curiosity

I have been straight all my life but recently discovered curiosity for the
other side. I don't know how it happened or why it's happening but it's
there.

A few years ago, I took a trip with a big group of close friends to
Barcelona and tried cocaine for the first time. It felt... amazing. It was
every other day. Doing it in the bathroom, bedroom, places we went out
too. From there I was hooked.

Coming back to the states I realized that everytime i did cocaine, I got so
so so horny; and it was up to the point where I would leave early just to
go home and explore porn.

One night, I got on Grindr and met with a shemale. Upon arrival, she was
more of a crossdresser. But she had an amazing ass. I paid a total of
$50. What made me do this? Till this day I have no idea. I was drunk out of
my mind and high as ever. On top of that I was driving. But I made it
safely. Thank God...

First things first, she collected her money. From there we started making
out. I don't know what happened but I went straight for her cock. A nice
shaved cock, the color of caramel. I must say it tasted very good. And it
was getting hard. I knew from getting head myself from previous girls, not
to use teeth. Use tongue and suck it freely. From there, I pulled out my
cock.

I have the most beautiful cock. I am obsessed with it. Uncut, 8 inches. I
have small balls but the cock makes up for it. Sometimes I wish I can suck
my own cock but I am not flexible AT ALL.

That was my second time with a shemale, but my first time sucking
cock. Honestly, it was amazing. Sober I wouldn't do this, but something
about being high makes so so horny.

What do I do when I get high and horny?

I sit on my bed and look up men on Instagram. They have amazing pages. And
it really depends what I am in the mood for. Sometimes mucles, hunks, ouu I
love towels. Especially when you can see there hard cock and the towel is
only being held by it. I love daddy's and dilfs. But they have to be fit
and smooth.

From time to time I find myself on Grindr looking for men to chat with. Not
really any luck.

I actually have 2 gay neighbors that live across the street. You can see
the flag hanging in the front yard. I've been hoping that one day I find
them on Grindr or maybe a quick hello. One of them is Indian and the other
is Caucasian. For some reason the Caucasian catches my attention. I haven't
spoken to them in years, but they seem to be really in love and I doubt
something will ever happen. But the thoughts do run me wild.

There was one time I went to go see a psychic and during the card reading,
he just randomly asked me if I was into guys. That he sees a guy entering
my life and nobody would just understand. He also offered to give me head
so who knows if he was just adding himself into the loop. Really weird and
crazy. I would never. But, I do enjoy the compliments he was giving. I
would give dry answers on text, but man, he knew how to say the right
things.

Who knows where this journey will lead me. I am kind've excited to see. For
now, until I find the right one, let my hornyness kick in baby!

Best,
Edwin CRUZ