Ever who said long distance romance was hard really knew what they were talking about. Bastion had been gone about two weeks now and even though we talked or texted or Skyped practically every night things just weren't as good we had hoped. Most days Bastion was on the set till 7 or 8 at night, then he'd have to eat dinner and take care of business and if I was lucky he'd get around to me about 9 or 10 my time. 

Mom and dad were cool about it and let me stay up as long as needed because..well, they knew I would any way..he  he. When we Skyped we'd always wind up jerking together, but after the first few times it kind of lost it's appeal. Especially if Bastion was tired and couldn't get into it. I felt sorry for him because I knew he was working so hard and doing his best to keep me  happy, but I felt more sorry for myself I guess and pretty soon my self pity turned into anger and...well...here's what happened.

It was the weekend and Bastion had told me they had a rare weekend off and he would spend more time Skyping with me and we'd for sure do some sexy stuff. So Saturday I am like on pins and needles running around and getting ready for things. I've got my jacking lotion and my towel all laid out, the doors are locked and I'm got my Skype pulled up on my lap top just waiting for him to get on. 

I'm laying there sort of teasing my cock and it's already rock hard and leaking (I started leaking a whole lot more pre lately) and swirling the pre around my cockhead when suddenly he texts me.

"Cody, I'm so sorry but there is a dinner tonight for the cast and crew and I am obligated to attend, but I promise you I will make it up to you tomorrow."

So there I was: cock in hand slick and ready and the minute I read his I start going limp, but worse of all I start seeing red. I know, I know I'm being unreasonable...blah, blah, blah, but hey I'm a horny 14 year old and I don't take disappointment well, especially when it causes blue balls.

So...not being quite as diplomatic as Bastion I text him back.

"Don't do me any favors. I can find someone else to help me out. Enjoy your stupid dinner." 

Then I slammed down my phone and jumped up and headed straight to the bathroom and threw up. Yeah, I guess I even made myself sick. After I washed my face I walked back into my bedroom and noticed I had six text messages from lover boy. I didn't read them because I was too mad, but I didn't delete them, I wasn't crazy, just mad. 

Instead I texted the only person I was sure would understand. He answered immediately and we agreed to meet the next day at the park at 1 pm. I put my phone on vibrate and tucked it into the nightstand drawer and laid there with my hands behind my head for a long time staring at the ceiling and feeling sorry for myself.

I should have known that Bastion would text Danny when he couldn't get me to answer and pretty soon he came knocking at the door leading from the bathroom to my room. I sighed and got up to open it, but I really wasn't sure if I wanted to talk to him about what I was feeling. Boy was I wrong. 

I opened up like a rose in spring and told him every little thing that had been nagging at me since this whole long distance thing started and he listened and nodded then got up, locked the door back and began pulling off his clothes. I didn't ask him what he was doing or any thing, I just watched him undress and by the time he was naked I had the wood from heck.

He giggled as he slid into bed and grabbed my dick and gave it a lick and I moaned loudly. Boy that kid sure knew how to suck a dick and he proved it that night. When he was done and I was drained and thinking I couldn't possibly be up for anything else he slid around and stuck his stinky(JK) foot in my face and I started slobbering like a hound dog. I grabbed it and stuck his big toe in my mouth and moaned as I sucked it like a baby sucking a titty. God it felt so good to have someone so familiar and so in tune with me catering to me and not demanding anything or telling me what a baby I was...and shit like that. 

I sucked all of his toes and licked his feet clean and by then my cock was rock hard again. But he'd been so good to me that I  had to do something really special for him. When we fucked it was usually Danny giving up his ass to me, but that night I was feeling very generous and I wanted to give my baby brother something to remember for a while.

Lifting my legs high I  growled at him, "Fuck me Danny, make me squeal like a pig," I said laughing. We'd seen that crazy movie not too long ago and we were always using those stupid hillbilly sayings.

Well, Danny is the kind of brother who will do whatever I ask and he didn't waste any time shoving his hard cock up my keister. I had to admit it felt good cause since Bastion moved to Cali, I hadn't any back door action except my finger and I was needing a good fucking. Danny didn't have any trouble giving it to me either. It was like he'd been saving this up for a while, but I knew him and Trey had been going at it like cats ever since they made up cause Trey bragged about it every day on the bus. I guess there are different kinds of lovin and lover lovin and brother lovin are too different things. Maybe he'd been missing being with me as much as I realized I'd been missing him. Screw Bastion, I had my baby brother and that was all I needed. Let Bastion screw every hot boy in Hollywood, I had the best little brother in the world right here ready and willing to make me feel good any time I needed it.

Danny fucked like a pro and when he came I actually thought I was gonna blast too, but I didn't. It's a good thing though cause as soon as Danny pulled out of me he climbed up and sat on my dick and rode me like a bucking bronc till I blasted in his fine sweet ass. I must've passed out or fell asleep cause when I came to it was dark and late and Danny was gone. I sniffed the pillow beside me and it smelled like his sweet ass and I went back to sleep.

It was hard to keep it together the next day and not let it slip that Bastion and I were having a problem, but I managed to keep my cool and after a late breakfast I hung out in my room till time to go meet Ryan. I grabbed my bike and headed toward the park, but half way there I almost turned back. What was I doing? Fortunately Danny was over at Trey's for the day and I didn't have to explain to him that I'd lost my mind, so taking a deep breath I rode the rest of the way.

Ryan was already there in the parking lot and when I got closer he rolled down his window and I rode up next to his truck.

"Hey, dude. What's  up with ya?"

"Not much, what're you up to?"

"Not much, the rents are at some country club thing and Chase is at his new bf's house." Chase's new bf was black and according to Ryan, hung like a pony, but still not was big as he was.

"Cool. So......." I said feeling as nervous as the first time we met.

"So, want to go to my house and hang our for a while?"

I shrugged, I wasn't sure I really wanted to, but why else had I called him? "Okay, yeah, that's cool."

I threw my bike in back and climbed in and he patted my leg and smiled, "So tell me...what's going on with you and Bastion?"

I spent the entire drive to his house venting my frustration and anger and by the time we got there I felt a little better. He led me in and went to the kitchen and grabbed a couple of bottled waters and handed me one. He didn't lead me straight to his bedroom like I expected and I think I was a little disappointed. We sat in the huge family room side by side on the sofa and talked and laughed and he told me about some of his conquests since we'd last been together. I knew I had no reason to be jealous but I was and I think that's when I decided to make my move.

Sliding over a little closer to him I placed my hand on his leg and began rubbing up and down looking him straight in the eyes and grinning. He sighed and threw his head back and pretty soon there was a definitely tent in his jeans that just kept growing till  his 8 inch monster was at full attention. I didn't ask for permission, I just unbuttoned his jeans and lowered the zipper and freed the monster. It actually looked bigger than I remembered but that didn't stop me from diving onto it and forcing all of it in my mouth.

"OH!" he gasped, "Didn't expect this...."

I mumbled something, but it's hard to talk with a mouthful of dick, so I just reached up under his shirt and pinched his nipples as I slurped on his huge tasty cock. To say he was a mouthful was an understatement, but I'm not a virgin and I can handle a dick pretty good. I had him clawing at the couch and finally he grabbed my head and forced all of his cock down my throat shutting off all the oxygen, but I still didn't give up. I was starting to see stars when he cried out and began to unload in my mouth, but fortunately he let go and I was able to get a tiny breath of fresh air into my lungs before I expired. 

 I swallowed all of his load and it was a big one. But with balls as big as his, I supposed that big loads were pretty standard for him. I remembered when he'd fucked me and how I leaked afterwards  and my butthole sort of twitched. If I stayed around much longer I'd probably find out just how big a second load could be.

"Awww man that was amazing. I feel bad though. I didn't bring you over here to use you...I just wanted to be there for you since you're having so much grief right now. I should be making you feel good, not the other way around."

"I had fun," I said grinning, "but I'm not saying I'd turn down some oral lovin."

Ryan pulled me to him and kissed me surprising the bejesus out of me, then he began nuzzling my neck and body as he slowly undressed me. By the time I was down to my undies I was rock hard and leaking. He pushed me down on the couch and knelt between my legs and tugged at my undies. I raised my butt to make it easier for him to get them off and he brought them to him face and made a big deal of sniffing them.

"Oh God, you smell so good," he growled, then he pushed my legs up and placed them on his shoulders as he dived into my crotch and started licking my balls and everything else he could reach with his tongue. I didn't realize how horny I was till he grabbed my dick and stuck it in his hot wet mouth. 

It was my turn to growl now and I began face fucking him for all I was worth. He didn't have any trouble deep throating my modest dickie and as good a dick sucker as I am, he is way better and before too long I was panting and moaning and then my orgasm hit. I flopped around like a fish as I rode the biggest, bestest orgasm since...the last one...out and then just fell back on the couch panting covered in sweat.

Ryan had recovered from his earlier orgasm and started licking me all over, tasting my sweat and even licking my pits..ewww. Seriously, I hadn't used deodorant that morning so what he tasted was all me, but he seemed to be turned on by it..so who am I to complain? Course I knew what was coming next so I just rolled over and suck my little ass in the air and he started rimming me but good. OMG, it was amazing. That guy must have a forked tongue or something and by the time he got through I was begging him to stick that big dick of his in me.

I had forgot just how full you feel with something that big up your butt, but I took it without much pain and actually started liking it before it was over. I was pushing back and grunting and groaning and I think that really turned him on cause he was fucking me like his life depended on it. Fortunately as turned on as he was it didn't take him long to finish and just like I thought that load was big too. 

When he finally pulled out I was leaking big time so I squeezed my butt cheeks together and waddled off to the bathroom to clean up. When I got back Ryan was dressed and so I grabbed my clothes and started getting dressed and pretty soon he was helping me. It was kind of nice having some one paying me attention other than to get in my pants and I leaned into like a little kid might while letting a parent dress them. When I was dressed he pulled me down on the couch and took my  hand and just smiled at me.

"If you were my bf, I'd treat you like a prince and give you anything you wanted."

"Thanks," I said eating all that shit up, "you're awesome. If you were my bf I'd give you anything you wanted too."

"I'm serious, if it doesn't work out...I'm here and I'm yours."

"You just like my butt," I teased.

"Your butt, your dick, your face, your lips, your feet, your legs....do I need to continue?"

I smiled over at  him and he leaned in and we kissed....and kissed....and kissed and it got really steamy. I was hard again and from the tent in his jeans so was he. I reached over and laid my hand on his crotch and he moaned into my mouth. His hand found my hardon and we swapped spit for a long time as we felt each other up. 

When we finally broke the kiss it was like I snapped back into reality. What was I doing? I loved Bastion and this is how I show that love? The first time he can't do exactly what I want him to I go running off to another boy and give up my ass...sigh.

"I need to go...you know the rents and all...." I said lamely.

He nodded, "I know. I come on too strong don't I? Well...I'm here when you need me."

"I appreciate that, but I feel like I'm using you."

"Naw, not at all. I'm just glad I can be here for you. Come on let's get you home. You still have time to make up with lover boy, it's two hours earlier there."

"Oh, yeah...I forgot," I said smiling, "But I don't think I should tell him where I've been do you?"

Ryan frowned, "Probly not, not yet any way."

I got home by three thirty which meant it was one thirty there but when I checked my phone there were no new messages. I read the ones from the night before and they were pretty much what I expected. The last one said he would wait for me to text him because he wanted to give me time to think about things.

Huh, think about things? I thought as I threw down my phone. Well he can wait till hell freezes over for all I care. I wasn't going to text him, he'd have to text me and apologize. I didn't care if I never heard from him again. I was pissed and it wouldn't have been good for me to text him any way. I fell down on my bed and stared at the ceiling for a long time then I got up and went into the kitchen and grabbed a 16oz SunnyD. A few minutes later Danny came home but  Trey was with him. They'd been  at the park, but fortunately they had come after we left there or I might have some explaining to do.

"Hey, what're you guys up to?"

"Not much, Bastion texted me again. You should text him or call him Cody. You two are both being stubborn and that's not good."

"Hey, I'm the one that got stood up...not him."

"Cody, you know that's not how it was. He has to do what the studio tells him to do. He's not free...he belongs to them now."

"Yeah," I said getting loud, "and he used to belong to me...now I got nothing...not even a a lousy Skype jerk off," I said not caring who heard me, but fortunately the rents had gone to the store after I got home.

Danny looked at me with hurt eyes, "I'm sorry Cody. I really am, but you have to understand....things are never gonna be like they used to be. You have to work with him and eventually it will get better."

"What if I don't want to wait? What if I'd rather have someone else than to wait for him?" I yelled.

Danny moved back a little and Trey held him protectively, "Cody...don't get mad at Danny. It's not his fault.

"Keep out of it. This is none of your business."

The hurt look on his face made me feel like a dick, but I was too fired up to back down, "You two just go fuck each other and don't worry about me. I'll be just fine. I got this covered," I said stomping out the patio door and grabbing my bike from the garage.

I rode like the wind and without thinking about where I was going I wound up on Bastion's block....well his old block. I rode up into his drive but no one was home. His folks were in Cali for the weekend and Maria was there with Bastion. I considered slipping over the fence and taking a swim, but who knew what kind of security they had now that no one was  there most of the time?

I sat down on the curb and took a selfie of myself and sent it to Bastion with this message: Remember this?

I expected him to text me right back but after twenty minutes when he still didn't reply I was madder than ever and I climbed back on my bike and just rode. I didn't know exactly where I was going and I didn't care but when I finally looked up I was near the 7-11 by Tony's grandma's apartment. I stopped at the 7-11 and grabbed a Big Gulp and drank about half of it then climbed back on my bike and sipped on it while I slowly rode toward Tony's place.

I wasn't sure if he was home, or alone, or even if he would want to see me, but I had nowhere else to go...so why not? I almost backed out when I finally got there, but I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. I heard noise from inside and then the door opened and Tony took one look at me and pulled me inside.

"Man, what you doin? Come on in, Gran is gone to play Bingo and I'm kinda lonely."

I was glad it was just the two of us, but I wasn't sure I wanted to talk about what had happened...at least not yet. I had cooled down some, but I was still plenty pissed at Bastion and myself. Tony offered me a glass of tea and even though I'd just drank 32 ounces of Mt Dew, I couldn't pass up his Gran's sweet ice tea, but first I needed to pee.

Tony followed me down the hall...oh, I forgot to mention, Tony has a new leg now, and stood and watched while I peed. Now that might freak some dudes out but when you've had sex with a dude before all that modesty stuff just goes away. 

"How's the new leg working out?" I said as I shook off the last few drops.

"Took some gettin used to, but now I chase girls and actually catch em," he joked.

"You still seeing whats her name?"

"Yeah, but not sure where it's goin. She can be kind of a bitch sometimes and she don't suck dick worth a damn."

I laughed, "Most girls don't but us little gay boys do a bithchin job," I said fluttering my eyelashes comically.

"Uh huh," Tony sighed, "So I guess Trey and Danny are back at it like rabbits again, huh?"

"Yeah, I guess," I grunted. I guess I was a little jealous of their relationship since mine had tanked.

Tony gave me a curious look, "You okay, you seem kind of down..."

And that was all it took to get me to spill my guts. I guess I needed someone to talk to that wasn't so close to the problem or maybe I just hoped that Tony would take my side. When I was all tired out from talking he took my hand and leaned in and kissed me. I was shocked at first but it wasn't a sloppy nasty kiss, it was sweet and more like he was comforting me.

"I knew this was gonna happen," Tony said frowning, "And you're gettin the shit end of the stick." Boy talk about taking my side. "He's out there in Hollywood smoozing with the stars and working on his suntan and hitting the parties and you're left back here beatin yo meat and dreaming of how it used to be."

I sighed, "I try to be understanding, but then he goes off to this party when we're supposed to be Skyping and...I just lost it man. I hate this feeling...it hurts, but it makes me sooo mad. I even yelled at my little brother and Trey. Oh My God, I am such an ass," I said blowing out a breath of air and falling back on the couch.

"Damn, that must've hurt them both. You're better than that man. You need to pologize as soon as you get home," Tony scolded.

"I know, I know..I will. Thanks for letting me vent man, you're a good pal."

"Well, I do what I can to help you gay crackers out," he teased.

"Gay cracker..huh.." I laughed, "you didn't mind us being gay when we were sucking your fat dick or giving up our white asses."

He sighed and smiled, "Man I miss that too. You the best when it comes to that stuff. I wish....."

"You wish what?" I giggled.

"Oh...nothin...I know you not in the mood and any way it might not be right what with Bastion not here to say it was okay."

"Huh, I don't need Bastion's permission to suck dick. He don't ask my permission so why should I ask his?"

"Whoa, don't get mad at me....I just didn't want to cause any more grief for you."

"When's your Gran gonna be home?"

"She never makes it back before 7. She usually brings take out home for dinner. Why, you wanna stay for dinner?"

I rolled my eyes, "Yep, but my dinner is right here...." I said grabbing his crotch.

He laughed, but I could tell he was excited cause his dick was growing in my hand, "You sure about  dis.....?"

"Shut up and get those pants off," I said pushing him backwards on the couch.

He laughed nervously but he cooperated as I jerked his jeans and undies down and his dick sprang up all big and wet and I licked my lips and chowed down. Man I'd forgotten how big he was and how good he tasted. He wasn't dirty but he had a little funk going on down there and it just made me hornier. His balls were huge and full and when I started licking them he moaned and grabbed my head and pushed me down lower. I lifted his real leg and the fake one and started licking his taint and finally found his hole and gave it a sniff before plunging in with my tongue. He tasted amazing and the way he was moaning was making me even hornier.

"God Cody that's amazing man. No bitch ever made me feel this good before. You gonna keep on till you turn me gay man...." he said between pants.

"You like? I love you long time," I joked, "Wait till I get to the main course."

The main course was fat and hard and leaking vanilla cream icing...lol, and I gobbled it down and showed off my deep throat skills as he clawed at the couch and moaned so loud the neighbors must've heard him. I don't know how long it had been since Tony came, but his balls were so full they were sloshing over and when he let loose it was all I could do to swallow it all down, but us little gay boys don't like missing a drop of jizz so I managed. I don't know what that boy had been eating but his jizz was sweet and thick and so smooth you could've iced a cake with it. And there was gallons of it too...he he. 

When he came back down to earth I licked his cock clean and gave it a noisy kiss then stood up and dropped by pants and waved my dick under his nose. He got the hint pretty quick and even thought I knew he didn't like sucking just anyone's cock, he must've liked mine cause he gave me the best beejay I'd have since...the last one...lol.

Of course that made me start thinking of Bastion and all that shit, but I was too far gone for it to ruin my orgasm. I blasted off in Tony's mouth and he gobbled it all down like a good little cock sucker then spit my dick out and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.

"Whatchu been eatin man? You taste like broccoli or some shit."

I laughed, "Just the usual, but maybe it's cause I been so upset lately," I said wiping my cock cream off on my finger and tasting it, "You liar, it's awesome tasting," I giggled.

"Okay, so it's not that bad. Anyway fair is fair. I got my nut, you got yours...but I feel kind of bad now."

"Pffft, shut up, it's no big deal. Bastion told me I could get my jollies with friends as long as I tell him about it."

"Are you gonna tell him?"

"Dunno, we'll see," I said yawning. Suddenly I was very tired, "I guess I better get home before they send the cops looking for me."

"Oh man, did you run away or something?"

"Naw, just took a hike," I laughed, "I'm not a baby you know, I'm almost 15."

"Well, can you help me get my drawers pulled up?" Tony laughed.

"I should strip you and leave you naked for your Gran to find," I teased.

"It's not like I can't dress myself," Tony said grabbing his undies and working them upward.

"Stand up," I said chuckling, "and let the gay boy help you."

When I had his pants up and zipped he grabbed me and pulled me into a hug and squeezed me tight, "I love you bro, you know that right?"

"Sure, and I love your ugly ass too," I said squeezing back, "Thanks for being my bro and listening to my sorry ass."

"Hey, thanks for the beejay," he chuckled, "I aint had an orgasm like that since...well, since Danny."

"So am I better or is Danny better?" I teased.

"Whoa, not going there...you both equal..in different ways."

"Okay, well...." I sighed, "I better get home. Uh, if anyone asks you, I wasn't here...okay?"

"Whatever you say man."

I nodded, "Okay, let go so I can leave," I giggled.

"Oh, yeah..." he chuckled, "It's just hard to let go of the best cocksucker in town."

I grabbed his balls and squeezed them playfully, "Well, coming from you..Mr. Big Dick, I consider that a compliment."

"It is bro, it is."

He walked me to the door and we hugged one last time. It had gotten a little darker out and I was dreading the ride home, but mostly I was dreading the inquisition when I got home. I was hoping maybe Danny might have made up some story for me, but I'd pissed him off and hurt him so I could probably forget that.

I parked my bike and slipped in the patio door but I knew I was busted as soon as I stepped inside. Dad was sitting at the table and mom and Danny were in the kitchen getting dinner ready.

"Oh, hi," I said trying to sound nonchalant.

"Where have you been son?" Dad asked in a voice that I hadn't heard since I was a little kid. You know that voice that says. I'm the dad and you're the kid and you better listen to me young man.

"Just riding, didn't Danny tell you...."

"Don't lay this on Danny," Dad warned, "you have a phone which costs me 40.00 a month and you could have called one of us."

"I'm sorry, I left my phone in my room," I lied and damn if it didn't ding then announcing a text.

Dad's face went red and I knew I was in hot water now, but instead of being scared I was pissed off just like I had been before. Why was he making such a big deal out of my being gone? It wasn't like I was a snot-nosed little kid any more. I was a teenager and pretty soon I'd be 15, one more year and I could drive myself away from this place.

"So I lied," I said grabbing my phone and slamming it down on the table. From the corner of my eye I saw Danny cringe and mom put down the plate she'd been holding and lean against the counter as if she were bracing herself for the fireworks that were about to begin, "Cancel my contract if you want. What do I need a phone for any way. Bastion is in California and too busy to even text me, so why do I need it? So you can keep tabs on me?"

My dad is a reasonable man and very cool, but I had crossed the line and I knew it. He didn't raise his voice, but he didn't need to.

"Cody I want you to go to your room and think about what just happened and when you are ready to apologize and talk about this in a reasonable manner come find me."

I nodded and practically ran to my room. Damn him, damn them all, I screamed in my head, I can stay in my room all night if I have to.

I had forgotten about the text that had given me away a few minutes ago but when I opened it I almost shit my pants. It was from Bastion.

Cody, I am so sorry. You are right, I was wrong. The party was awful and I could have skipped it and no one would have said anything. But I guess I just feel I need to please them so I can keep my job and be a big star. Truth is Cody my love, I don't care about that any more. All I want is to be with you and if there was any way to get out of my contract, I would be on the next plane home to you. I know it's not much consolation for you and probably just empty words to you, but I mean it with all my heart. I will understand if you don't want to wait for me and I will give you up if that is what it takes to make you happy again. I love you and always will, but our being apart is just too hard for both of us. I will wait to hear from you and abide by whatever you decide. Love, Bastion 

I read the text with tears in my eyes, but when I got to the last part I broke down altogether and started bawling like a baby. I fell on the bed and pulled the covers up over my head and just cried. I cried for me and I cried for Bastion, I cried cause I had been such an ass and a bad son. I cried for being a lousy brother and a lousy boyfriend. But most of all I cried because I knew what I had to do and once I did it, things would never be the same.

By the time I was all done crying dinner was over but I wasn't hungry any way. I washed my face and went in to face my punishment like a man and when I walked into the living room mom and dad and Danny were watching TV. Dad looked up and sent Danny to his room and he gave me a sad look as he passed me. I reached out my hand he gently touched it then he was gone.

"I'm here to apologize," I sniffed, "I know I was acting like a brat and you didn't deserve for me to talk to you like that. I know you love me...and..," I was slowly losing it as a tear escaped from my eye, "you worry about me and I love you too...and I appreciate you being such cool parents. I want to apologize to you too mom, for not letting you know where I was. I'm really sorry and I accept whatever punishment you think is fair." I was spent by then, wiping at my eyes I just stood there waiting for the blade to drop and chop off my head.

But the blade never dropped, instead dad reached out his strong arms and I fell into them like a little baby and began bawling my eyes out. Mom moved closer and joined the hug and patted me and cried a little too. Dad was looking as if he could start bawling too, but he's a lot stronger than us gay boys and he kept his cool.

"Thank you for a heart felt apology son. It take a man to admit when he was wrong and to make things right."

"Yeah, a man," I sniffed, "bawling like a little baby," I laughed through tears.

Mom patted me and smoothed back my hair, "Tears are not a sign of weakness dear, tears are a sign of a good heart. You have a good heart son and you've been through some tough times lately."

What? They really understood me? Man, I did have the best rents in the world. I nodded, "Yeah, I guess I don't  handle things very well when they don't go my way. I was a jerk to Danny and to Trey too. I need to do a lot of apologizing."

"Do you want to talk about what happened last night?' Dad said.

I blushed bright red. How could I tell him that I was pissed cause Bastion blew off a cyber sex date? "I guess I was just upset because he wanted to go that stupid party instead of spending time chatting with me," I offered hoping they weren't as smart as I knew they were.

"Cody, think about what you just said," Dad said looking me straight in the eye, "You know that Bastion has gone out of his way to make time for you ever since this whole thing started, and you're willing to give up because of one night of disappointment?"

It did sound stupid and childish when I thought about it. Maybe the real problem was me and not Bastion. Well, that only made what I had to do seem more reasonable. I was doing this for Bastion because he deserved better than me.

"I know you're right dad. I just can't help how I feel sometimes," I said lowering my head.

Mom kissed the top of my head, "Cody we love you with all our heart and we just want you to be happy. We can't tell you what to do, but we can be there for you when you need advice or a shoulder to cry on. Don't shut us out, okay? I know you tend to turn to Danny first and that's okay, but some things are too big for him to handle. Keep in mind that he's younger than you and very sensitive. He loves you so much that he would do anything you ask, just don't take advantage of that love...all right?"

I nodded, "I'd like to go apologize to him if it's all right. When you figure out my punishment just let me know," I said wiping the last of my tears from my eyes.

"There will be no punishment....this time," Dad said ruffling my hair, "you've suffered enough, just don't treat us like the enemy in the future, we're on your side remember?"

"Yes sir," I said hugging my dad's neck, "I love you guys a lot. I'm sorry if I hurt you."

"It's all right," mom said leaning in for her hug, "We love you too, now go apologize to your brother and when you're done come see me, I saved you some dinner."

Suddenly I was starved and I was actually smiling as I headed off to Danny's room, but soon there wouldn't be much to smile about. Danny was his usual humble forgiving self, and I actually felt like he forgave me too easy.

"I mean it bro, you didn't deserve the way I treated you and Trey....especially after what you did for me last night. If it takes me forever I will make it up to you," I said hugging him, "You're really the only person who understands me. Next time I try some shit like that I want you to kick my ass," I said grinning.

"Cody, I know you were hurting and I didn't take it personally, but I do care and I do  understand and I when I say stuff it's only cause I want to help. Maybe I should have tried to understand your side better before I said what I did. I'm on your side no matter what, but I love Bastion too and I want you guys to make this work."

"I know, I know and I love you for that bro," I sighed, "I'm a lousy brother sometimes, but one thing I can always count on is that you're a good brother....all the time." I pulled him to him and kissed him on the lips, "Are we good bro?"

"Yeah, and a little hard now," he giggled.

"Well, save it till later and if you want to sneak in after the rents say goodnight I'm down with that," I said giving his cock a little squeeze.

He nodded and was grinning when I left him. Mom had saved me a plate of fried chicken and potatoes and gravy and I sat at the breakfast bar and ate while we chatted. I found out she got a raise at work and I told her "way to go mom" and she smiled. She was always so good to me and so pretty, if I'd been straight instead of a little gay boy, I'd be looking for a girl just like my mom. No, I don't have a mom thing or a dad thing for that matter, but you know what I mean. They don't make moms any better than mine.

I took a shower and brushed my teeth and when mom and dad came in to say goodnight, I gave them another hug and apologized again. 

"Don't overdo it," dad teased, "I already told you no punishment this time."

"I know but I'd have been cool even if you had punished me. You guys are the best."

"Well, it's easy when you have two of the best sons in the world," Mom said smiling, "Goodnight dear and try to not let what happened this weekend ruin what you have with Bastion."

I nodded, but I was already committed to what came next even though I was pretty sure no one in my family would understand what I was about to do...or why.

Danny snuck in about a half hour later, "You still awake?" he whispered

I was wide awake and figured I would be most of the night, "Yeah, been waiting for you."

"Mom and dad wanted to talk, you know how they are."

"Probably about me, right?"

"Yeah, and Bastion....I didn't tell them anything they didn't already know so relax."

"I know bro, I trust you. He dropped his shorts and slid into bed and scooted over next to me. God he felt good, warm and soft and he smelled so good. I leaned in and kissed him and the loving began.

If anything we outdid the little romp we'd had the night before and when we were finished I was exhausted. He stayed with me till I was asleep I guess, cause when I woke up a few hours later I was alone. I got up and peed and climbed back into bed and just laid there for a long time thinking about what I had decided to do. I wasn't sure if I could go through with it, but somehow I  knew it's what I had to do. What Bastion had said in his text applied to both of us. He was willing to let me go so I could be happy, and I was willing to let him go so he could be happy. Our long distance relationship wasn't working and I felt like I was standing in the way of Bastion's true happiness. I guess I was trying to be noble or something, but in reality I was just being stupid, but I was stubborn and determined and soon my world would be changing again.

School was an endless drag now without Bastion to help me pass the time and my grades soon began to fall. Mom and dad sat me down and talked to me about it, but they knew as was well as I did what the problem was. I promised to do better and started spending more time studying at home just to pass the time.

Bastion and I hadn't chatted since the weekend, though he had tried several times to get me to reply I always found it easier to just ignore him. I didn't want to hurt him, or me, and I guess I thought if I just didn't talk to him eventually he would move on and find someone else. Eventually I guess he couldn't take it any more and he actually called my mom. One afternoon when I got home from school mom and dad were both waiting for me. 

At first I was terrified that something had happened to Danny and I was ready to start crying, but then Danny breezed in, took one look at the three of us, and disappeared. I swallowed my stomach again and I was so relieved that Danny was okay, that I forgot to worry about why mom and dad might be waiting for me. Then I thought about Bastion and I felt sick again. Had something happened to Bastion?

"What's wrong?" I finally managed to stutter, "Why is dad home so early. Is everything okay?"

"Sit down son," Dad said looking serious and my stomach started doing flip flops again.

I sat down and watched as they sat down on either side of me. Mom began. "I got a phone call from Bastion today Cody," she began and suddenly I knew what this was all about, "He told me that he has been trying to reach you for several weeks now and you haven't been returning  his texts or accepting his calls. What is that all about son? I thought we were agreed that what happened that weekend was over and you were going to try to make things better."

I sighed, I was busted big time.

"Cody, son...I don't claim to understand exactly what you are feeling, but I do know this...Bastion cares a great deal for you and you care for him. This is not solving anything. If anything it is making things worse. You got hurt, so you hurt him back...is that it?" he said but he didn't give me time to answer, "Well, that's not acceptable. If you are still angry that's one thing, but you need to talk it out. Bastion deserves to be treated better than that."

"Dad, mom....I...know I probably didn't handle this exactly right, but I can't go on like this. I can't be the boyfriend back home while Bastion lives the good life out in...in California. I've decided...to break up with him."

The look on their faces was like someone had just punched them in the stomach. Mom recovered first, "Cody you can't mean that. You....you boys are so...so good for each other," she said looking ready to cry.

"I know mom, but that was before....now, now all we do is hurt each other and I don't want to hold him back any more. He has a right to be happy, to live out his dream," I was crying by now and so was mom, "I don't want to hurt him, but I've really messed things up. I'm going to text him...and tell him that..(sniff) I've found someone else."

"Have you?" My dad asked looking almost as rattled as mom.

I shook my head, "But that's the only way he'll give up and be happy. If he thinks I have someone else he's let go and be...happy," I said sadly.

"Cody, that's not only dishonest, it's disrespectful," Dad said frowning, "but I understand your motive. You want him to be happy and he no doubt want the same for you. Again, we can't tell you what to do, but I hope you will think long and hard about this before you do it."

I nodded, "What if I really did have someone else?" I said suddenly getting an idea.

"But you said....." mom said.

"I know," I said jumping in quickly, "I was afraid to tell you....cause he's...ummm...older."

"Older? How much older?" dad asked looking like he was ready to go whip some ass.

"Uh...not much, a few years," I stammered.

"Who is this boy? It is a boy...right?"

I nodded, "You...uh met him. He brought me home one day. You remember....Ryan?"

Dad looked as if he were deciding what to say, but mom was quick to reply, "Cody, are you making this up just to make it easier to dump Bastion?"

"No, I swear. That's where I went...that next day after Bastion stood me up, but we'd been sort of seeing each other for a while now. I told Bastion about it, but he didn't know it was getting serious." I'd learned a long time ago that a good lie worked better if you put enough truth in it.

"Son, I'm not sure I approve of you seeing someone so much older than you."

"But dad, it's only a couple of years and I'll be 15 soon...." I said quickly, "He's really good to me and treats me like I'm special."

Mom was speechless, but dad wasn't convinced, "Your mother and I will need to talk to this boy and make sure this if for real and not some story you've dreamed up to let Bastion down easily."

"And sit down some ground rules," mom added finally wrapping her head around what was happening.

I nodded, "You'll like him once you get to know him and you'll understand why I like him so much."

"Just like?" mom asked looking smug, "You love Bastion and don't deny it, I can tell when a boy's in love and you two show all the signs, right down to hurting each other."

"I....I did...yeah, I really did, but things change. You know....we're young and we'll love lots of people in our life," I said as my heart broke, because I knew I'd always love Bastion no matter what.

"I want you to call Bastion tonight, but I do not, I repeat do not, want you to break up with him until we had discussed this further and talked to that other boy," Dad said sternly, "Just call him and tell him....you're sorry for not responding and that you will reply from now on. Can you do that son?"

I nodded, but I'd rather take a beating than do it.

"Cody, I just think you're giving up too easily," mom added, "I just knew that you and Bastion would be together a long time...if not forever. I just felt it in my  heart."

I'd begun to think that mom was as worried about losing Bastion as a son-in-law as she was about what it did to me. I had to stay strong and see this through. It was breaking my heart, but I just knew it was the only way we could both be happy. And being with Ryan would be cool too. I was sure he'd go along with whatever I told him especially after what he'd said that day about treating me like a Prince. Maybe that's what I needed, someone to make me feel like I was the most important thing in their life. Once...I had felt that way with Bastion, now he had his career and who knew how many hot surfer boys? It was just all too much to deal with.

Danny wandered in as I was changing out of my school clothes and he looked at me questioningly. "Sorry I couldn't warn you, I just got home a few minutes before you. Are you okay? Was it about Bastion again?"

I nodded and filled him in. He had a right to know, but from the look on his face I could see that he wasn't too thrilled about things.

"You know that I'm on your side Cody, but this just doesn't feel right. I mean can't you at least try to work things out. Bastion loves you Cody and I know you love him too. If you didn't it wouldn't hurt so much. I know cause of what happened with Trey. Look I'm not gonna get in your business, if this is what you gotta do I'll be there for you all the way, but please, please think about this before you do it. Cause once you do it a lot of people could get hurt."

I nodded, "I know bro, I promised mom and dad I'm think about and I will. I have to call Bastion tonight and apologize for not replying, but it's not gonna be easy knowing...well...knowing that we aren't going to make it."

Danny looked ready to cry as he came closer and hugged me gently, "Oh Cody, I wish things were like they used to be, we were all so happy then," he sighed.

"Yeah, me too. I guess this is what they mean when they say growing up is hard. I gotta do this bro, but I won't rush into it. I have to talk to Ryan first any way. I can't just drag him into this without his permission."

"Wait...so you and Ryan aren't uh....a thing?"

"No, well...sort of." I told him about my going to Ryan's that day and he nodded.

"I thought you might have been going there. The way you talked about him I sort of knew you liked him. I guess if you had to pick someone else Ryan would be a good choice."

"Dad's tripping cause of his age. I may have some grief over that. And mom says they have to lay down some ground rules. What's that about?" I said blowing out a frustrated breath, "They never laid down any ground rules for me and Bastion. We could fuck like rabbits and nothing was said."

"They know Bastion and trust him and....they love him like a son. If you get with Ryan, they'll loosen up once they get to know him. I mean if he's as great a guy as you think he is."

"Yeah, I guess. Man I am so not looking forward to calling Bastion tonight."

"What time are you gonna do it?"

"Well, it's two hours earlier there and he won't be home from the studio till five or six his time so I guess maybe around nine...unless he texts me first."

"I'm sorry Cody. I know this isn't easy, but Bastion deserves to be treated right. He's a great guy and he loves you...all of us a l, and we love him too."

"Yeah, don't rub it in. I feel like a total douche bag. God I am such a loser," I said falling down on the bed.

"No, you're not a loser, you're just confused and in love and that's hard for kids our age. I know adults don't really thing kids are capable of falling in love, but that's not true and we're proof of it. I'm just glad mom and dad understand that."

"Yeah, they're the best. I know they want me to stay with Bastion, but I gotta set him free. It's the only way he can ever be happy."

"What about you Cody? Will you be happy too, or are you just doing this because you think that's what he wants or needs?"

"I'm not sure I'll ever be happy again," I said pitifully.

"Yeah, you will, you just gotta figure out what you need to make you happy."

"I thought I knew. Once all I needed was Bastion," I sighed, "but now...now, I don't know what I need."

At dinner I didn't feel much talking but fortunately mom and dad respected that and kept things light. Danny was a chatter box and was very excited about what was going on at school. I wished I  had that kind of enthusiasm about school, but since Bastion moved school was just a place I had to go every day.

I excused myself when I'd eaten all I could stand and went in and took a hot bubble bath. Danny came in after a while and peed then turned down the stool lid and sat down and kept me company. He knew I was hurting and nervous and I loved him for being there for me.

"So..are you gonna play ball this year?"

With all that had been going on with Bastion I'd completely forgotten that baseball sign up was in a couple of weeks. Maybe playing ball would get my mind off Bastion.

"Yeah, I think so. I mean why skip a year now, I been playing every year since I t-ball. How bout you, you gonna play?"

"Do you  think I'm good enough?" he asked looking shy all of a sudden.

"What? Yeah, you're great. You have to play. Mom and dad are expecting it and so am I."

He looked relieved, "I want to, I just wanted your opinion, thanks."

I nodded and laid down in the tub and let the water rush over my body with just my face sticking out. My cock was semi and bobbing around like a dolphin...lol. Danny was watching me or it, I wasn't sure which, he seemed hornier than usual these last few weeks, but I assumed it was just to help me out.

I closed my eyes and when I opened them Danny was pulling off his shirt. I watched with interest as he dropped his pants then his undies and stood there naked.

"Well, you gonna move over or not?" he chuckled.

I sat up and he slipped in at the other end and sighed as he stretched out. I had my legs slightly bent, but he stretched his out and put them in my lap and took my cock in is small soft feet. My cock jumped to attention and he began jerking it with his feet. Well, you should know by now that I have a thing for feet, especially Danny's, and it didn't take me long to really get into my foot job. 

"Mmmmm, that's wicked. You really know how to make a guy relax," I said closing my eyes again.

Looking back on all the times Danny and I fooled around without locking the door it's a wonder we didn't get caught, but I guess my parents were cool enough to know that if the door was closed, they should knock or wait till we came out. So we didn't really worry about being caught that night as Danny made love to my cock with his perfect little feet and when I came I blew a spout up like a whale and it landed on Danny's tummy. 

We both laughed then I coaxed him around so he was sitting between my legs and I jerked him off till he shot into the bath water. Well, if you're ever spoged in your bathwater you know that that stuff sticks to you everywhere, so we had to drain the tub and shower it off. When we were done we dressed for bed and played video games till bedtime.

At nine I told mom and dad I was going to call Bastion and they kissed me goodnight and wished me luck. I gave Danny a hug and sent him off to his room and turned off the lights and crawled into bed. I just stared at my phone for a long time trying to work enough nerve then I pulled up my contacts and pushed the call button for Bastion.

He answered on the third ring. "Hi, how are you Cody?" he said stiffly.

"Fine, how's it going in California?" I said hoping I didn't sound as terrified as I was.

"Fine, it's good to hear from you....at last,"

"Look, I'm sorry. I've been a jerk. I didn't mean to hurt you, okay?"

"Oh Cody," he cried, "I have missed your sweet voice and your sweet face so much."

Wow, he wasn't making it easy for me. It would be much easier if he hated me or was at least mad at me.

"I've missed you too. That was really rotten of me to not reply to all those texts. I feel like a real dick."

"I forgive you...just promise me you won't do that again, okay?"

"Okay, I promise," I said softly, "So really how have things been going? You have to tell me all about what's going on out there."

He was pumped as he told me all about what was going on with the show and all but I was torn between being happy that he was happy and sad because his happiness didn't include me. I tried to act enthusiastic, but I don't think he bought it and after a while he stopped ranting and asked me how things were going with me.

I told him that Danny and I were going to sign up for baseball and he sounded kind of sad. "I was going to play on your team," he said sighing, "but instead I'm stuck here."

"Well, maybe next year," I said trying to sound up beat, but we both knew that probably wasn't going to happen.

"Oh Cody, I wish I was there right now," he sighed, "I have missed making love with you so much."

"Me too, but the show must go on," I joked, but my heart was breaking.

"Sometimes I wish the network would pull the plug on the show and I'd loose my job, but my agent says everyone is fired up about it and it's on the fall schedule."

"Of course, how could if flop with you as the star...he he," I said trying to be supportive.

We talked for over any hour and things were a little better between us, but in the end nothing had really changed as far as what the future held for us. I had to let him go, but I had to do it slowly so neither of us got hurt too bad. Ha, good luck there, I was going to get hurt no matter what.

I laid awake for a long time thinking about what the  future held for me, but somehow I couldn't get excited about it like I used to do when I saw Bastion and I together forever. I finally fell asleep and didn't wake up till the alarm went off the next morning.

Baseball sign up was moved to the next week and dad took off to take me and Danny. The coach was glad to see me back and he asked about the friend I had told him about (Bastion) and I was sort of proud when I told him he was a big star now. He seemed impressed, but I guess he was more interested in the team and maybe winning a game or two this year...he he.

Danny's coach was the mom of one of the boys, Derek and she was really good from what I'd heard. She was a single mom and had two sons, Derek who was Danny's age and a 9 year old named Seth. Seth was a cute kid, but he was more of a book worm than an athlete and wore glasses and always had a book or his tablet with him.

Dad bought me and Danny both a new glove and a new aluminum bat, which we gladly shared with the team. Tony was on our team but because of his leg, he was allowed to have a designated runner once he got to first but I think he was just glad to get to play. Our practices were Tuesday and Friday and and Danny's were Monday and Thursday which worked out well. We usually went to each other's practices and I got to know the boys on his team pretty well...as well as some of the little brothers, like Seth.

Seth was  smart kid and very sweet natured and I liked him a lot. He would always smile when he saw me and run up and tell me about the latest book he'd read or some movie he saw and we got along really well. He helped to take my mind of things and eventually I began to help out with the practices and that helped me get ready for the season even faster.

Meanwhile I talked to Bastion almost every day but we kept it light at first. It was kind of awkward now and neither of us were ready to move into the cyber sex thing again. I guess I was afraid that if we did that I'd find some reason to back out and try to keep us together even though I had already decided that that would never work.

I talked to Ryan soon after that little talk with my folks and he didn't exactly react like I'd expected. First of all he was worried about Bastion. He didn't even know Bastion and he cared about him. If he hadn't already been a great guy in my eyes he was now. But as worried as he was about Bastion he said he was most worried about me.

"You love that guy. I can see it in your eyes. I know you think this is the only way to make sure he's happy, but I agree with your parents on this one, you need to think about this before you destroy something that beautiful. I want you, I have since I first met you, but  I don't want to take you away from someone who loves you and that you love back. But...if you decide to do this...I will be yours for as long as you need me."

I felt like crying, but I knew he was right. I couldn't rush into this. We hugged and kissed that day but we didn't have sex. I guess neither of us was feeling it and that made me like Ryan that much more. He was a great guy and if I had to lose Bastion, Ryan would be a great replacement. Replacement. I hated that word, but wasn't that what I was looking for? When I left that day I was more torn than ever, but after talking to Bastion last night I was determined to go through with my plan. 

He never even asked me how my day went or anything about me. He just started rambling on about the shoot that day and the meeting that evening and throwing stars names out like he was some big shot. I was pretty aggravated when we finally ended the call and I pounded my pillow and swore beneath my breath.  Tomorrow I was going to talk to Ryan again and make our relationship official. It would mean Ryan had to talk to my parents, but he'd already said he was willing to do whatever I wanted.

I waited till that Friday night and asked my folks if we could talk. Of course they agreed and fortunately Danny was over at Trey's for the weekend. I was so nervous, but I knew my folks were cool and this had to be done and I had waited  long enough. I waited till after dinner but of course I was too nervous to have much of an appetite. 

I helped mom clear and load the dishwasher then we all went into the living room. I stood and they sat together on the couch looking like two kids who were about to be read the riot act...lol. It would have been funny, if it wasn't such a serious situation.

"Okay...well, here goes. Remember you told me to think about things before I did anything about...ummm...about me and Bastion and I did that." I let that soak in a minute then continued. "I tried, I really did, but things just aren't the same. When we talk it's all about him and his big career and he doesn't act like he cares about me at all (okay, maybe I was exaggerating, but I had to make my point). I have been talking with Ryan, but we haven't met in a while. He's crazy about me and....and I like him a lot. He's good to me and he really cares about me and wants to give this a try and so do I, but....of course to do that I have to break up with Bastion. I feel awful about it, but I don't think he'll be too upset once he gets used to it. I mean he has his career and all...."

Mom gave me that look that said she only believed about half of what I'd said and dad was studying his feet as if the answer to all my problems were written on his Nikes.

"This is a big step to take Cody," mom finally said, "I know you think it's for the best, but I'm afraid that once you do this you will have regrets and it may be too late to turn back."

"I know, and I've thought about it a long time. It's going to hurt either way, but this way I can set Bastion free so he can be happy."

"Son," dad said sighing, "While your reason may be noble in theory, it's not as easy as that. When two people have deep feeling for each other...when two people love each other, sometimes you have to make sacrifices. It seems to me that Bastion has done everything he can to make this work. Can you honestly say you have done everything you can?"

I felt a little stupid then, maybe I was being unreasonable. Maybe I was overreacting. Maybe I should give it more time. Maybe, maybe, maybe, but in the end I decided that I'd given it all the thought my poor little head could stand. I had to make a stand now before I lost my nerve.

"I believe I have dad...mom. I'm not unreasonable, but us being apart is just too hard on us both. I think...I mean I think he feels the same way, but he's just too nice to say it out loud."

"I'm still against this son, but this is your choice. I only want you to be happy, both of you, and if this is what it takes....then, I guess it's what you have to do." He looked tired and beaten and I felt awful. They deserved a better son than me. I seemed to just keep screwing up worse and worse lately.

"Thank you sir," I said feeling like a little kid, "Mom, what do you think?"

She wiped a tear from your eye and nodded, "I agree with your father, if this is absolutely what you  think you must do, then we will support you."

"But as I said before," dad began, "We will need to talk to Ryan and set some rules for you guys. He's old enough to drive, but that doesn't mean we are going to let you go all over God's creation with him."

I nodded, "He knows that and he wants to meet with you as soon as possible."

We settled on dinner the next evening and needless to say I was a nervous wreck that evening and all the next day. Ryan arrived at 5:30 and he looked absolutely amazing. He was dressed in  fashionable jeans, not too tight,  not too loose, and a tee shirt with a button up shirt over it. It was open and you could clearly see his his six pack beneath his tight t-shirt. I was glad he didn't wear tight jeans cause it's not easy to hide a salami as big as his.

"Hello Mr. and Mrs. Graham," he said offering his hand for them to shake and earning a few brownie points in the progress.

"Hello Ryan," my dad said shaking his hand for a long time as they locked eyes and figured each other out.

"Please come in and have a seat," mom said smiling, "Can I get you something to drink?"

"No ma am, I'm fine. You have a nice home," he said looking around. I thought that was cool considering he lived in a mansion, but I guess it took more than a big house and a lot of stuff to make a home.

"Thank you. I suppose it seems a little small compared to your house," Dad chuckled.

"My parents think they  have to have a big house to prove they are successful, but as far as I'm concerned I'd be happy in a home like this." God he was knocking them dead. I began to relax, he had a tongue as slick as the devil.

"We like it...the boys and us," dad said looking pleased, "So do you go to Webster High?"

"Yes sir, I'll be a Junior this year."

"Do you  participate in any sports?"

"I'm on the swim team and I like running but I don't really have time for the track team. I run at least 3 miles most days."

"Your body shows it," mom said then blushed. Whoa mom, don't be perving on my new bf.

"Thank you ma am," he said grinning. 

"So, Cody tells me you've been...well seeing each other for a while now. I suppose you know he was in a relationship with another boy?"

"Yes sir, Bastion, and I've tried to help Cody work through his problems whenever I could. He came to me for advice and I told him he should try to work things out, but that if he couldn't...I'd be proud to be with him." God this boy was good. I was even believing him. 

"That's very kind of you. I appreciate that you didn't try to rush him into making a decision."

"Oh no sir, I would never do that. I believe a relationship is worth working on till both agree that it's no longer going to work. Cody has told me he feels that is where he and Bastion are now. Is that your understanding as well?" Damn he was sounding like Bastion now.

"Cody is very young and very impressionable. We approved of his relationship with Bastion because we could see the positive changes it was making in his life. They were very good for each other, each giving and taking and both better for it."

Giving dick and taking dick, I almost laughed.

"Yes sir, I understand, but Cody hasn't been very happy lately,  has he?"

My mom gave dad a look as if to say, he's got you there.

"No, he hasn't. He's more like his old grumpy rebellious self," dad grunted, "and that is one reason I am even considering this new relationship. I just want my son to be happy, if being with you makes him happy then we're willing to allow you two to see each other. But if you ever hurt my son....well, no need to make threats since I'm sure that will never happen."

"Sir, I would never do anything to hurt Cody. In fact I would sacrifice my own well being and happiness for him. He is very special to me and I will abide by any rules you lay down for our relationship," he said smiling at me.

I figured it was time to step in so I moved in and took his hand, "Mom, dad...I really like Ryan a lot. I'm not saying I love him like I do..uh, did Bastion, but that took time and Ryan and I have only just started. I think as we get to know each other better that will happen."

Mom smiled, moms are such softies for love. Dad took a deep breath. "Is this what the both of you want?"

"Yes sir, I want to spend as much time with Cody as you will allow."

"Yes, dad. I want to be with Ryan."

My dad nodded and it was done. Mom still looked uneasy but it was time for dinner then and she was busy for a while. Mom and dad asked Ryan lots of questions and got to know him better and with each answer I could see them relaxing a little more. When dinner was over with me and Ryan helped mom clean up and that earned him even more brownie points.

Settled in the living room mom and dad laid out the ground rules for our new love affair.

"First of all, there will be no overnights for a while," dad said and I groaned, "Hear me out, I'm not stupid or naive. I know that you want to be intimate." 

For the first time Ryan looked embarrassed and maybe a little nervous. He squirmed in his seat and I thought about what was resting between  his legs and wondered what dad would say if he knew I'd taken that monster up my butt a few times already.

"But...until we know you better and learn to trust you, there will be no sanctioned sex. Tell me Ryan, have you been tested recently for STD's?"

"Dad?" I squealed.

"It's okay Cody. Your parents have a right to  know. Yes sir, my parents insist that I be tested every six months and I was tested last month and was negative of course. I am very careful and not promiscuous regardless of what you might think."

Well, that was stretching the truth a little. He had nailed a few boys since I'd met him, though he hadn't bragged of any lately. Maybe he was slowing down and waiting for me.

"I didn't assume you were, but you are obviously a very attractive teenager, and though it's been a few years I remember being horny all the time at your age. I am simply trying to protect my son's health."

"That's commendable sir, and I would never do anything to risk his health or mine."

Dad nodded, "I know you drive and have you own vehicle, but if Cody is with you I expect to know where you are going and....and I can't stress this too much, you must never drink and drive with my son in the car."

"I would never do that sir..in fact I would never drive alone while intoxicated. I have a contract with my parents that should I ever become intoxicated and need a ride, they will provide one..no questions asked. But I don't anticipate that ever happening."

Dad nodded, so far Ryan was batting a 1000.

"Anything you want to add dear?"

"Yes, I was wondering if your parents will approve of this relationship."

"A fair question. Actually there was another boy a few years ago. We were together for almost a year and my parents were very supportive. They are very understanding and progressive just like both of  you."

"Well, I don't have anything now, but as things progress there may be new things to discuss. I guess bottom line is, you treat my son with respect and we will get along just fine."

Ryan smiled, "Thank you sir, ma am. I am looking forward to earning your trust and to being a part of this family as well," he blushed then, "I don't mean to assume too much but from what Cody has told me you treated Bastion that way and I hope you will eventually think of me that way."

Mom smiled, wow Ryan sure knew what to say.

"I don't know if Cody mentioned it, but I have a little brother the age of your other son. They met once at the mall and seemed to get along well."

That seemed to even soften mom more, "Well, he's welcome here any time. If you want to bring him I'm sure he and Danny can keep each other occupied." 

Boy if she only knew how they'd do that...he he.

"Well, it's been very nice meeting you both, but I need to get home to Chase, that's my brother, my parents are out for the evening and he's there with a friend."

"Sure, no problem. It's good that you look out for him, that makes me feel better about trusting my son with you."

I walked Ryan to his pickup and we stood in the driveway and talked.

"You were great," I said grinning, "you really know how to handle people don't you?"

"I try to be genuine, that's all. Maybe I lied a little about my experience, but one thing I can tell you that was true and from the heart, is that I would never do any thing to hurt  you."

"Awww...you're so sweet. I wish I was going back with you, I could show you just how sweet you are."

"I know baby, but look at it like this...we have all this great stuff to look forward to and as your parents grow to love and trust me we'll spend more and more time together, overnights are only a few months down the road...trust me."

"Huh? I bet it's more like weeks. My rents are super cool. Once they see how happy I am with you, they'll give us their blessings."

"Well, can I get a hug? I know it's not all we'd like to do, but it seems right for now."

I nodded and swarmed into his arms. If mom and dad were watching all they'd see was a sweet little boy hug and we kept it GP. I watched as he drove off and felt really good for the first time in a long time, then I remembered I had to tell Bastion the bad news. I went in and thanked mom and dad and excused myself to my room. I took a long hot bath and messed with my computer till it was time to call Bastion. This was maybe the hardest thing I had ever had to do in my life and I was trembling as I made the call.

"Cody..so good to hear your voice," he sounded excited and up beat and that just made things harder.

"You may not think so when I tell you what I have to tell you," I said before I lost my nerve. Now I was committed.

"Oh, why's that?" he sounded scared and nervous now but not as scared and nervous as I was.

I took a deep breath, "You know I love you right?"

"Yes...but..."

"But I can't do this any more Bastion," I said choking up, "this long distance thing isn't working and well...like you said....I found someone else." There I'd said it.

"Oh, well...I didn't mean you had to..." he joked, but he sounded like he was in shock.

"I know, and I didn't mean for it to happen, it just did."

"Who...who is it? Is it someone new...or...it's that one boy, Ryan...isn't it?"

I put the phone against my head and counted to ten, "Does it matter?"

"Does it matter, does it matter?" he said getting louder and more agitated by the minute, "Of course it matters. I want to know who I lost out to. I want to know who could possibly love you more than I do, or want to be with you more than any thing in the world."

"Yeah, it's Ryan," I said softly. He was quiet for a long time, we both were then I said, "You need your freedom, you need to be able to follow your dream. You can't do that if you keep hanging on to the past."

"So this is what this is all about?" he asked sounding annoyed, "You think you're being noble by turning me lose and finding a new boy? That's crazy Cody...crazy...crazy." he was starting to scare me. Could someone go crazy because of shit like this?

"It's not just about you. It's about me too. I deserve to be happy and so do you. I'm didn't mean for this to happen, but with all the shit going on between us I was so unhappy I found someone who makes me happy, someone to help me get over...over what we had and to move on." 

"So, just like that? You find someone and move on and leave me here all alone to pick up the pieces?"

"You'll find someone. You're a great guy, a sweetheart really, and sexy as fuck. If some guy hasn't already got his eye on you one soon will. What about the other Cody?"

"What? You want me to swap one Cody for another," he laughed hysterically, "It doesn't work that way with me. I can't just turn off my feeling for you and move on to some one else. I thought we were alike, but I see now that I was wrong."

"Look, don't get upset. I just want you to be happy. If it can't be with me, then I want it to be with someone as cool as me," I teased.

"There is no one cooler than you," he said softly. He'd begun to calm down and I could hear tears in his voice, "I will never love anyone as much as I love you and I will always love you," he said then he hung up.

I considered calling him back, there was a lot more to say, but I couldn't make myself do it. Instead I just lay there as tears ran down my face and wished this was all a bad dream and that I'd wake up and everything would be like it used to be. But this was real and this was life and I could either accept it or lose my mind. 

Bastion and I never spoke after that day, but we continued to text each other and as time went on we both managed to heal a little and remain friends. His career was really picking up and he now had a movie offer in the works. The more he told me about his life in California, the more I believed I had made the right decision. We both turned fiftten but this year we didn't get to have our parties together.

Ryan and I became a couple and as expected mom and dad eased up on us and we had at least one sleepover a month all through the spring and summer. He came to all my games and most of my practices and mom and dad had no problem with him driving me places. Our sex was great, but I'll confess there just wasn't that magic that Bastion and I shared. 

Chase and his bf started hanging around with Danny and Trey and they were at our house a lot. It was good, but not great and by the time school started I'd begun to wonder if I hadn't made the mistake of my life. Ryan was busy with school and swimming and I saw less and less of him, except for the weekends, and our relationship was not what it was at the start. I kept hanging in there hoping things would get better, but when I was alone at night and jerking who do you think fantasized about?

I had practically wore those vids out that Bastion and I had made and even though it was great jacking material when it was over and I was laying there in my own spoge, I'd feel a little sad and wonder what Bastion was doing. So far he hadn't found anyone special, or at least he hadn't mentioned it, but he did say that him and the other Cody had jerked off together one night just to relieve some tension. I didn't begrudge him that, after all look what I had done, but I guess deep inside I hoped he wouldn't find anyone...at least not till I was completely over him. Which at the rate I was going would be in 99 years...lol.

All the trips to Cali that I had so looked forward seemed pointless now that Bastion and I had split up so I never got to see Hollywood or swim with the stars, but that was my fault and I was starting to think I had screwed the pooch big time. Bastion's series premiered in  September and as expected he was amazing in the starring role. The show was sort of corny but him and the other Cody shined like the stars that they were even if the rest of the cast sucked. 

The movie deal fell through but it looked like the series would be renewed for at least another season and Bastion was slowly becoming a household name, at least in our state, city, and our house. Ryan said he only watched the first episode because it made him sort of sad to watch him. I asked him why and he said it was because beneath all the acting  he could see the sadness inside him. That was sort of a strange thing for my new bf to say, but sure enough the next time I watched I sort of saw what he did. I guess somethings never go away, they just get less painful as time goes by.

End of chapter 28

 

More to come, but be warned: The end is near. So Cody has made the ultimate sacrifice and given up Bastion so he can be happy, but in the end it seems no one is happy. He and Ryan are together now, but neither of them seems to be into it heart and soul. It's almost as if the relationship was just convenient. As Bastion's career takes off Cody is convinced that he has made the right choice even if his heart tells him something different. In the next chapter choices will be made that affect our boys for the rest of their lives. Thanks to all my readers who have hung in there from the beginning, we're almost there.

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― Deepak Chopra

Kewl Dad

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Alex and Aidan

Adolescent

At the Dike

Black Cock

Boy Glory Hole

Cory*

Corey's Scent

DMV Boy

Dougie's Story (Part three of a series)**

The Family*

The Ginger and the Chub

Hair Salon Boys

Little Brother's Feet*

Lost in Fear

McChicken

My Not so Miserable Life

My Best Friend's Dad (related series to My Son's Best Friends)

My Little Runaway (Part 1 of a series)**

Poindexter Files*

Second Chance for Love

Skateboard Boy*

Skatebaord Christmas 2015

Sudden Family*

Tommy Boy (Part 2 of a series)**

To the Max

Tracy*

The Year I Learned to Love my Brother*

What a Dollar Will Buy

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It's Amazing What Sex Can do for a Guy

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